A Longer Post Because There Were Some Fun Dragon Things Today

A longer post because there were some fun dragon things today

I'll be posting the other half (which actually happened first, chronologically) on my other account, but this is the part that I feel like writing out first. Obligatory UPG disclaimer, this is a personal experience so it has no basis in anything other than my own beliefs!

So! Crash course in how I believe reincarnation works for context: I believe that I- and everyone else- have what one would call a "higher self." Think of this like a lake, and each individual incarnation is a little whirlpool. Still part of the overall lake, but it's an individual at the same time. Or, I suppose, you could view it as a cake with pieces or whatever other metaphor you can think of- point is, my soul is whole but I am not all there is to me. My higher self is more aware, and not stuck in a physical body like I am.

My mother works very closely with her higher self. I... somehow just never saw that as an option for me. When I realized I was dragonkin, I immediately knew why; big huge dragon + little tiny human who's easily intimidated and doesn't know that they're a dragon yet = bad time. After I realized that, I decided that when I had the time I wanted to sort of say hello. Today I finally got the chance to meditate and have a chat.

I've understood my Amphitere nature is the draconic form that, in this lifetime, is likely the form it'd be most useful to know of and relate myself to. Not my truest form, but the one that will FEEL truest in this lifetime. So I knew higher self wasn't gonna look like that.

He is... fucking huge. I expected that, but it was still surprising. I couldn't get a good clear image of the body plan or anything, but he had feathered wings. The thing was; he was gold. I asked if he was actually gold, because that would mean that me and my mom separately picked up on that, and the following conversation ensued:

"Wait, so are you really gold?" "Yes.... sort of?" "WAIT OH MY GOD ARE YOU SHRIMP COLORS?????"

He laughed and said yes. I asked in the first place because it was something I just suddenly knew intuitively; gold is really the closest in energy that a human can perceive, but if I had a wider spectrum of color available to me he wouldn't look the same.

After some chatting I asked if he could help me connect us a little better, because I just... have a hard time looking at this massive fucking dragon and going "you're me, but big! :D" like no that's a dragon. Who am I to claim that that's me. Wtf. And after a moment, I just... sort of felt these massive fucking wings?? not my blue ones, but HIS wings. On my back. The full wingspan of them wouldn't even fit in my fucking room, it was wild.

Also, Loki and I have worked together WAY LONGER THAN I THOUGHT???? I asked higher self if he had worked with Loki, not as me, but as him and he and Loki looked at each other like they were in on some joke and I wasn't. I shit you not, he just sort of...

"Not... all lifetimes, just most of them-" LIKE THAT'S WAY MORE THEN A DOZEN, WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME THAT???

Anyway the punchline of this was the "shrimp colors" I just wanted to put the rest of that so I remembered, I fucking cannot deal with how weird my practice is getting over here XD

I seriously am considering doing an otherkin positivity post in the form of quotes from my accepting mom and friends and moments that made me happy for this exact reason actually

Therian joy is such a beautiful thing, I know people can be awful about us but please don’t let that stop you from experience the joy of being yourself

Me: "I'm gonna do readings!! Small readings so I can have the energy to do more and add them to my queue, so they keep posting throughout the weekend while I'm gone!" :D

Also me, after one reading: fucking perishes because hEARTBURN????

Reblogging this and hopefully I'll remember to reblog it on my main

I am genuinely more flattered by "weird" compliments than normal ones. "I like ur writing" means someone likes my writing, "I want to eat your writing it's crunchy" means someone loves my writing enough that it invokes feelings of wanting to fucking consume it, and/or invokes sensory thoughts which!!! Is so fucking cool!!!

A weirder compliment, to me, means that someone liked something I made/something about me enough that it not brought strong enough emotions that it brought out that weirdness, and they felt safe enough to be weird. Being deemed a safe enough person to be around is absolutely one of the highest compliments I can receive in my opinion.

hey could y'all do me a favour?

Reblog if you're okay with "weird" compliments on your stuff!

things like "biting this" and such

I know that normally this is a dragon work/dragonkin blog, but I think for the sake of not neglecting it I'm just going to use this as a personal blog as well. Plus, I like posting random shit and I don't do that enough on my main because I like to keep it isolated to witchcraft and such.

So, fun fact, I have a special interest in a specific video game. Now before I say it, don't jump me, the fandom scares me too. One of my biggest special interests is Genshin Impact- which yes, is that anime game that people get weirdly aggressive about and spend too much money on. That being said, I'm a lore player. I get emotional over the characters and the WORLDBUILDING. While other players are leveling up their characters, I'm in the corner with the wiki and haven't played the actual game in a couple weeks.

So the actual point of the post: here's my obsidian vault on the characters and worldbuilding. Each dot is it's own note document. It's still in the pretty early stages tbh.

All the unconnected dots are worldbuilding, since I started with characters I write and now am working on the actual lore and history of the world. Just went down a huge wiki rabbit hole and am honestly considering posting some of my actual thoughts because even though I'm literally no one who follows me give a singular fuck about Genshin, this is still like... my blog. So. I mean I might make a side blog for it, but either way I'm having the time of my fuckin' life rummaging through the Wiki.

I just wanted to show it off for fun like it's a little trinket. This is my fictional knowledge hoard and it's a mess and I love it. It's also hyper-organized to the way my brain works specifically.

Today I just realized something and the irony of it is not lost on me. I am an aquatic dragon. In this lifetime, though, I just so happen to also be chronically dehydrated.

I hate it here /j