So, Did A Very Short Meditation And Sort Of 'took Inventory' Of Phantom Shifts Bc I Was Like "why Does

So, did a very short meditation and sort of 'took inventory' of phantom shifts bc I was like "why does the top of my head feel weird" and the answer was "you have antlers dipshit."

I have come to a couple conclusions:

1. Why is my tail so skinny, what the fuck

2. Oh so it wasn't just my imagination that I get fins along the sides of my arms, that's fully a thing now??? Okay cool ig

3. WHO WAS GONNA TELL ME CLAWS FEEL THIS WEIRD???? I don't think I usually had limbs as an amphithere so claws aren't a usual thing, and holy shit how does anyone use their hands like this wtf. How am I gonna do tarot readings like this. (/Mostly joking)

"Be Not Afraid..."

i love big sea dragon...

Did this on a whim. COTL was a recent hyperfixation of mine, although I haven't played in weeks, so I thought I might as well! Now I kind of which I could make my lamb look like this in-game lol.

I may or may not have been unreasonably excited seeing the light blue feathery cape, as a dragon with feathery wings.

te he... me but as the pit of crew

Go make one here... maybe we can make a sheep chain, idk

I use fictional characters to explore new aspects of my otherkinity and I do not care how obviously I am projecting.

Oh I also am pretty sure that things that disturb other people just... don't disturb me. Like I stopped experiencing certain kinds of horror as "fear I enjoy" a long time ago; now it's just awe and excitement.

ALTERHUMANS I AM SUMMONING YOU

let's start a chain

everyone reblog with your alterhuman toxic trait

mine is that I forget that I'm not actually the size of a cat, which usually ends up with me stuck in a box

Seriously though, I have yet to hear anyone use 'it' for me bc of the nature of pronouns- however the idea of it just brings me so much joy. Like yes that is me the feral dragon man in your closet.

I’m sorry but I love being called an it. “But it’s dehumanizing!!” Okay? And what if I told you that’s kinda the point?? 🤨

A writing post, as promised

So, it only took an existential crisis, but I'm back! Yippee!

I've been running from this belief for a while. It's something that has, for a very long time, felt true and "right" to me. (Obligatory disclaimer; I don't believe I'm objectively right about shit, I'm just some dude. I mean this is right for me.) The multiverse theory, or some vague concept of more than one universe, is well-known and I've believed for a while that some fiction taps into things we cannot explain. I, however, have specifically avoided entertaining the idea that most fiction does, because. Well. As a fanfic writer, that would get awkward. I couldn't imagine how I would navigate writing... about people I believe are real.

Things recently shifted. I hope to write more about the individual things that made it happen, but long story short; I found a hearthome. A hearthome that I feel, in my fucking bones, I've lived in. It's not just a world that makes more sense to me than this one, I've been there. This was a bit of a challenge to my beliefs, considering it's from a video game. But I find that when my first thoughts are about what a new aspect of my identity is not allowed to be, it's just what it is in disguise. I learned of my hearthome and thought two things.

"This cannot be spiritual in nature, and it cannot be related to a kintype. That's too complicated." Well, my past self, I am complicated. Buckle up.

So now, I'm working on.... How the hell do I engage in my special interests now? Writing, especially fanfic writing, and Genshin Impact (be kind, whatever anyone wants to say about the game or fandom, I already know believe me) are MAJOR special interests of mine. I think my poor mother knows more Genshin lore than some Genshin players do. Entertaining the idea that I'm so drawn to that world because part of it is home to me and I've been there, it's.... a lot. Very a lot. The fact that I feel as though there's a kintype hidden in there, somewhere, is especially nerve-wracking because I have no clue who or what that would be, or even if it's a who or a what. I'm taking shots in the dark here, if I'm honest.

Loki- for those of you who don't know, I work with the Norse deity Loki as a witch- has been THRILLED though. I could do a whole post just on how this is absolutely the most Loki flavored direction I could have ended up taking with my practice. They gave me an answer pretty damn quick, as for how to continue to engage in my interests; just work with the characters on the things I write. Connect with them and get their opinions on things. So... fanfic writing as witchcraft. Huh.

Things are getting significantly weirder around here, y'all.