Update; An Explanation For The Next Post Being A New Intro + Bit Of An AMA

Update; an explanation for the next post being a new intro + bit of an AMA

I didn't realize when I made a 'rule' for myself about this blog, but I did. I don't think I ever post about my experiences anymore. It wasn't a conscious decision, it was just defending the status quo- sooooo I'm ending that because I'm sick of it. Have a wall of text!

TL;DR: A new kintype resulted in the realization that "oh shit, there's more than just me in my head." Turns out I'm plural. the AMA is simply because we're new and, save for me (Frog,) have a really fuzzy sense of identity. We're trying journaling to help but so far all the others are just... sort of as in the dark as I am.

This blog was made to be a sort of "interactive journal," and yet because I found comfort in the memes and sillyness that made me feel normal it became about that. I only posted about my Alterhumanity, and typically only in the form of memes. So!

Hi. Y'all haven't seen me in a while. A lot's been going on! I recently had two pretty major identity crisis /j breakthroughs. For one, I am fictionkin. I started a little sideblog ( @vines-of-mine ) for that and got to work on paying attention to that part of my identity as Alhaitham. (Yes, Alhaitham. Yes, from Genshin Impact.)

This, however, led me to something else. Suddenly I had way more ability to just decide to do something and do it without executive dysfunction kicking my ass. Different ways of speaking felt more natural. I felt like I'd been plonked into someone's life, looked around, went "damn you live like this?" and got to work. Within two days my room was clean, my altar had been taken care of finally, etc. I chalked it up to just... "Oh, well of course! It's a mental shift, and I can embrace my more serious side when there's no expectations for how I talk."

Ultimately, it was the "Damn, you live like this?" feeling, like I was an outsider in my own life, that made me question things. As often happens with me, the moment I opened myself up to the idea that I was plural, I opened a floodgate. I am fictionkin; I do believe I have a past life in a world that somehow, in some way, made its way into our world as fiction. There is just also... another Alhaitham hanging around in my head, who instead of having an identity with "also is Alhaitham" built into it, just fully is exactly as I/we were in that life. There's others, now, too. They've been here much longer. Alhaitham is just the one who got plonked in here recently and therefore interrupted the status quo enough for me to go "hey, wait, what the fuck was that?"

So now I'm here doing the spiderman meme with another Alhaitham, in my own head, while a witch and an enderman share popcorn in the background.

Now at least so much makes more sense. The way my tail phantom shifts were often more like an enderfolk tail than a dragon tail. The goddamn ears that weren't dragon ears, were more like cat or canine ears, but I couldn't figure out what that was about. The way my inner dialogue really is a dialogue sometimes, not a monologue. Etc. Etc.

I'll be posting a new intro, but!! I wanted to mention that questions are not only allowed but encouraged and appreciated :D If anyone wants to know more feel free to spam my inbox, I don't mind. We're all new to this and sometimes being asked questions helps us actually realize the answer. Beyond that, really, I just wanted to start posting more about my own experiences and this is sort of necessary context for all of it.

Please reblog if YES so your followers will know!

On one hand, I'm someone who participated in the "silly little guy" vibes at times. On the other hand... You're so right and I don't know how I didn't realize it sooner. Something I've noticed in the past few days after making my fictionkin sideblog is that I talk ENTIRELY different over there. Because there's no expectations to soften myself- in fact, the expectations lean towards being more serious due to my kintype. I plan on making a proper post about it over there but it made.

I'm realizing that, no, I am allowed to be more than a silly little creature and just a funny witch in my corner. I can take myself seriously and I should.

It's weird.

Also hi everyone I didn't die I just got lost in a cave and came out with a new kintype. /J

(edit: to be clear this isn't hating on ppl who joke around about their Alterhumanity. Part of the joy in it is being silly, for me. I just also am realizing there's more than that.)

Possibly really petty complaint, but is anyone else really annoyed by the way a lot of people seem to be talking about nonhumans in a very infantilizing way?

Like all the posts going around that sweepingly refer to all of us as "silly creatures", "little critters", "silly animals doing their silly tasks", "just a creechur", etc? I feel like I've been seeing a lot of posts in the vein of like, "How could anyone hate therians? You're all just silly little animals doing buppy things typing with your big silly paws!" or similar.

And more power to you if you like being referred to that way, but I don't. It leaves a similar taste in my mouth to those old posts about trans men that are like "sweet little angelic cinnamon roll soft uwu boy!!! Trans men are little innocent boyes and I will protecc them all :3". And I think everyone sees the problem with those now.

I am a grown man. An adult wild animal. And while I don't need to take myself seriously, or even be taken seriously, all of the time, I sure don't like being referred to like a dumb little animal that doesn't know what it's doing as a default.

if only therians could spot each other without gear having to be involved. the way dogs meet and recognize theyre familiar because of each others scent... uea i wish we could do that...

rb to join the crow murder

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