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Update; an explanation for the next post being a new intro + bit of an AMA

I didn't realize when I made a 'rule' for myself about this blog, but I did. I don't think I ever post about my experiences anymore. It wasn't a conscious decision, it was just defending the status quo- sooooo I'm ending that because I'm sick of it. Have a wall of text!

TL;DR: A new kintype resulted in the realization that "oh shit, there's more than just me in my head." Turns out I'm plural. the AMA is simply because we're new and, save for me (Frog,) have a really fuzzy sense of identity. We're trying journaling to help but so far all the others are just... sort of as in the dark as I am.

This blog was made to be a sort of "interactive journal," and yet because I found comfort in the memes and sillyness that made me feel normal it became about that. I only posted about my Alterhumanity, and typically only in the form of memes. So!

Hi. Y'all haven't seen me in a while. A lot's been going on! I recently had two pretty major identity crisis /j breakthroughs. For one, I am fictionkin. I started a little sideblog ( @vines-of-mine ) for that and got to work on paying attention to that part of my identity as Alhaitham. (Yes, Alhaitham. Yes, from Genshin Impact.)

This, however, led me to something else. Suddenly I had way more ability to just decide to do something and do it without executive dysfunction kicking my ass. Different ways of speaking felt more natural. I felt like I'd been plonked into someone's life, looked around, went "damn you live like this?" and got to work. Within two days my room was clean, my altar had been taken care of finally, etc. I chalked it up to just... "Oh, well of course! It's a mental shift, and I can embrace my more serious side when there's no expectations for how I talk."

Ultimately, it was the "Damn, you live like this?" feeling, like I was an outsider in my own life, that made me question things. As often happens with me, the moment I opened myself up to the idea that I was plural, I opened a floodgate. I am fictionkin; I do believe I have a past life in a world that somehow, in some way, made its way into our world as fiction. There is just also... another Alhaitham hanging around in my head, who instead of having an identity with "also is Alhaitham" built into it, just fully is exactly as I/we were in that life. There's others, now, too. They've been here much longer. Alhaitham is just the one who got plonked in here recently and therefore interrupted the status quo enough for me to go "hey, wait, what the fuck was that?"

So now I'm here doing the spiderman meme with another Alhaitham, in my own head, while a witch and an enderman share popcorn in the background.

Now at least so much makes more sense. The way my tail phantom shifts were often more like an enderfolk tail than a dragon tail. The goddamn ears that weren't dragon ears, were more like cat or canine ears, but I couldn't figure out what that was about. The way my inner dialogue really is a dialogue sometimes, not a monologue. Etc. Etc.

I'll be posting a new intro, but!! I wanted to mention that questions are not only allowed but encouraged and appreciated :D If anyone wants to know more feel free to spam my inbox, I don't mind. We're all new to this and sometimes being asked questions helps us actually realize the answer. Beyond that, really, I just wanted to start posting more about my own experiences and this is sort of necessary context for all of it.

We've learned two things recently;

1. I, Ranboo (which sounds formal but I'm just telling you who's talking,) CANNOT do water. Maybe someday I'll have to but so far it's just... I can't unless I end up forced and I don't know how much anxiety it would cause but the thought of it alone causes a lot.

2. I am able to bribe Techno into fronting for like two minutes to take our meds or something if water absolutely has to be dealt with.

Conclusion; I am a happy Enderfolk, I don't have to deal with it.

Intro post 2.0

Hello! My name is Frog. Ironically, I am not frogkin.

If you're coming from my main blog:

Welcome to my strange little closet I yell from every once in a while! This blog may seem very different, but I assure you it's the same dude who runs @tadpoles-and-daydreams. My main blog is where you see and hear, at the time of typing, a very watered down version of my identity and practice as a witch. That blog gets the posts that the witchcraft community as a whole can understand and wouldn't side-eye me for, because it's associated with me as a tarot reader. I prefer being much more professional over there. This blog, however, is where I don't filter myself in the slightest and where things get very "cringe." If pop culture practices that fall under the multiverse theory, Alterhumanity, plurality, and such bother you- this blog isn't for you, hence why it's separate! I'm happy to answer questions about what these are if you have no idea what the hell I'm talking about, as well. And last but not least; While I don't think I'll ever come out on my main, I am plural. I, Frog, am the only one who runs the main blog. This one, however, is for all of us!

What this blog is:

This is both a place for memes and goofing around, and a place we intend to use as a journal of sorts. We want to share our experiences for the sake of getting it out of our brain and into words, as well as so anyone who relates knows they're not alone. Or hell, if someone who doesn't relate finds this educational or something, then good for them! This blog is for Alterhumanity, plurality, witchcraft- all of it. Just whatever is happening that we want to post.

Who is "we?"

We don't have a collective/system name yet. We're new to knowing we're a system, have no idea what we're doing. The list of headmates will update as time goes on. Feel free to ask any questions about us/our system in particular, but that applies to any topic we post about! We are collectively auDHD and 21 years old. (Ages for anyone other than Frog are fuzzy at best. Somewhere around his age.)

Frog: He/him/it/its. Trans, panromantic, polyam, just generally queer. The "host," although I'm not particularly comfortable with that term. I honestly so far have just referred to myself as "the fucker who started all of this" lol. In terms of Alterhumanity I am an Amphithere, a type of oceanic dragon/sea serpent with feathered wings. My interests include but are not limited to: Witchraft, writing, Genshin Impact, the ocean, psychological horror/horror in general.

Malaika: She/her/they. Queer. A witch (in the fantasy sense rather than the spiritual sense, although real witchcraft is something I might get into) with cat ears and too much energy. All the fucking whimsy. I demand more whimsy. Lover of magenta despite the fact that everyone else here thinks it's too bright of a color.

Alhaitham: He/him. Yes, that Alhaitham. Hoarding all the executive function, the only one who gets shit done around here. (/hj affectionate.) I'm a Seelie, or Seelie descendant/Seelie in human form, it's hard to explain but some Seelie descendants are full-blooded Seelie. Probably reading. Also in charge of @vines-of-mine alongside Frog, a fictionkin and fictive sideblog.

Ranboo: He/they but is still confused about the point of pronouns. The character, not the content creator. Full-blooded Enderfolk; the white skin is a result of time travel. Frog isn't getting his Ender particle plushie back, ever. That's all.

Techno: he/him, "the funny one." Claims cussing is half his personality. Local anarchist. Would punt a transphobe and hurt our foot doing it.

Tubbo: No intro bc he hasn't spoken much yet

DNI:

I'm aware DNI's are pointless, but I still feel the need to add this. Basic criteria applies. Queerphobia of ANY kind (ace, aro, agender, trans, intersex, and anyone else I might be forgetting included) is not tolerated. Anything that harms anyone, in general, will get you blocked. All good-faith identities are accepted. Systems of ALL origins are accepted. Basically I literally don't care why you're here just don't be an asshole and you're vibin'. I also block freely, even simply for things like "That's not my vibe I don't want to see that," so don't take it personally! It may not be anything more than me not wanting something on my dash. If you feel you need to ask my opinion on anything to feel safe on this blog, feel free to do so.

Navigation/Tags:

speaking from the void: Any journaling. (Our internal world is just a void, so... ha.)

post log: Literally any original post from here on out.

quotes: Exactly what it says, just random shit that's been said from anyone in our lives. Headmates, deities, friends/family, etc.

Tags to be added as needed. All original posts will be signed off with a name and a corresponding emoji or two in the tags, according to everyone's comfort levels.

On one hand, I'm someone who participated in the "silly little guy" vibes at times. On the other hand... You're so right and I don't know how I didn't realize it sooner. Something I've noticed in the past few days after making my fictionkin sideblog is that I talk ENTIRELY different over there. Because there's no expectations to soften myself- in fact, the expectations lean towards being more serious due to my kintype. I plan on making a proper post about it over there but it made.

I'm realizing that, no, I am allowed to be more than a silly little creature and just a funny witch in my corner. I can take myself seriously and I should.

It's weird.

Also hi everyone I didn't die I just got lost in a cave and came out with a new kintype. /J

(edit: to be clear this isn't hating on ppl who joke around about their Alterhumanity. Part of the joy in it is being silly, for me. I just also am realizing there's more than that.)

Possibly really petty complaint, but is anyone else really annoyed by the way a lot of people seem to be talking about nonhumans in a very infantilizing way?

Like all the posts going around that sweepingly refer to all of us as "silly creatures", "little critters", "silly animals doing their silly tasks", "just a creechur", etc? I feel like I've been seeing a lot of posts in the vein of like, "How could anyone hate therians? You're all just silly little animals doing buppy things typing with your big silly paws!" or similar.

And more power to you if you like being referred to that way, but I don't. It leaves a similar taste in my mouth to those old posts about trans men that are like "sweet little angelic cinnamon roll soft uwu boy!!! Trans men are little innocent boyes and I will protecc them all :3". And I think everyone sees the problem with those now.

I am a grown man. An adult wild animal. And while I don't need to take myself seriously, or even be taken seriously, all of the time, I sure don't like being referred to like a dumb little animal that doesn't know what it's doing as a default.

Apologies for no original posts, and erratic posting, we have been seeing the horrors.