Every Time I Remember That Andre Keuck Has Not Replied To My Dm I Lose A Part Of My Sanity

every time i remember that andre keuck has not replied to my dm i lose a part of my sanity…

heavy tw!!

cal promised he’d stop cvtting, and for a while, he truly meant it. but now? now he smiles when he sees blood run down his arms and legs. he likes how it bounces a little when it hits the floor. he loves running his hands over his now textured skin.

he has to hide it, though. you see, the promise wasn’t to a therapist or a parent; it was to andre, the boy who knows cal inside and out.

it’s all going well. cal makes sure to have an excuse for why he can’t change into pajamas in front of him. he even makes sure the two of them aren’t as touchy with each other, which destroys cal inside. he sees a little light die in andre’s eyes every time he doesn’t hug back or pulls away before a kiss can become anything more.

andre doesn’t know that cal is saving him from an even bigger heartbreak. he’d love cal whether he was decorated in fresh, dark red, and swollen marks or he was covered in old, pale scars. that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care about cal.

it’s the opposite. he cares so much about cal.

so much that he feels like his heart has fallen out of his chest when he walks into cal’s room and sees his upper arms covered in crimson. he’d been let in by cal’s mother who greeted him excitedly at the door. he wanted to surprise cal with food, but now he couldn’t fathom eating. he felt sick.

“cal?”

the moment cal heard andre’s voice, he began profusely apologizing and covering his arm with a towel he had laid out beside him. when he comes face to face with andre, pleading for him to forgive him and that he regrets breaking their promise, he starts to tear up. he fears he’s ruined so much between them.

andre drops the bag of fast food in his hand onto the floor. he steps forward, closing the door to cal’s room, and hugs cal tightly. blood is staining his new shirt, but andre doesn’t even notice it.

all he can think about is the boy in his arms who is crying and asking for his forgiveness. he murmurs against cal’s neck.

“don’t be sorry. i love you.“

he repeats the last three words like a mantra, engraving them into cal’s brain so he’ll never forget it.

andre loves cal, and that won’t stop because cal doesn’t love himself.

Might have a feet fetish😓

I DO NOT.

the gabriel family having a swimming pool.

cal’s dad goes in the pool first, ducking his head underwater and flicking water at everyone. cal’s siblings soon follow their dad. his mom puts her feet in the water and takes pictures of everyone.

often times, it takes cal forever to get in. when he does, he holds his hands over his forearms in an unsuccessful attempt to hide his cvts and scars. his family doesn’t mind them. they know he’s trying, and they want their son and brother to have a good time.

once he gets in, his sister gets on his back, almost drowning cal. she orders him to go to the deep end where she can’t reach. they both laugh as they see their younger brother flailing around in floaties.

cal and his dad stay in the longest. they throw rings into the deep end and see who can grab the most. they’re so competitive about it, and cal’s mom has to tell them to calm down or they’ll hurt one another.

at the end of the day, everyone sits on the couch while the ac blows wildly throughout the house. it was cal’s brother’s turn to pick the movie the family watches, and of course, it’s the lego movie. all of the gabriel’s enjoy the movie together with blond and slightly red hair still damp from the pool. their faces are pink and sting when they smile, but that never stops them from laughing with one other.

cal side eyes people while andre just full on stares at them.

proof:

rip cal you would’ve loved side eyeing bitches

hey send me assumptions you have about me and i will confirm/deny