2024 So Far

2024 so far

“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”

— Unknown

writers, reminder that this is now a toggle in your blog settings!

narcissus this, narcissus that! he's so egotistic. so self-absorbed, blah blah blah

but like, slow down to actually think about the symbolism of the myth. of the mirror he so persistently holds up to every action, every gesture and facial expression. I think it reveals an awful lot about the human nature, past the self-absorption.

for starters, consider that homo sapiens are one of the few creatures with self-awareness - as in they can peer into a mirror and recognize what they see as a reflection of the self. whereas, other creatures perceive the image as some other being.

perhaps narcissus only represents that transition from our animalistic ancestors to this higher functioning existence of self-awareness, of consciousness - that extends to encompass the benefits and the punishments of it.

as a human, it's awful to be so self-aware at times. but sometimes it can be a gift.

idk. u get me? i just think it's awfully poetic? misrepresented myth, honestly.

anyways, im going to bed or whatever.

maybe i'll just lie in bed staring at the dim ceiling contemplating my existence and its meaning - something i probably wouldn't preoccupy myself with if I were a creature without self-awareness.

-penned by j. m. medna (2024)

random motivation monologue cause i drank my bloom early today

it baffles me how we are willing to wake up at 4 AM, with little-to-no sleep the night prior and burn ourselves out for our bosses everyday but we can't wake ourselves up with the same dedication when it comes to working on our personal projects.

talk about a double-standard!

show up for yourself! be your own boss, darn it! you high eminence!

the world will be such a better place once you start showing up as your best self and stop letting people and things trample over your light.

i don't know who needs to hear this but I see you. I see you trying your best. Your breakthrough is coming. It's right around the corner. Keep at it! Keep being your best self. Drink your water, go on your mental health walks, reflect on experiences, do something kind for someone today, prioritize time blocks for your projects (if you don't do it, no one will do it for you)

you have something unique to share with the world. write that book. publish that blog. create that graphic. finish your drawing.

this jeongguk, clad in black leather and denim, sweeping his leg off the saddle of his bike, taking off his tinted helmet (cuz he's a safe bby) to reveal a chiseled jaw, dewy skin, flushed cheeks and ears, moisture clinging to the tips of his curls.

laWD *clutching my steering wheel*

i'm supposed to be writing my tae fic but motorcycle jeongguk!! *cries, kicks, silent screams* makes it so hard!!!