Im Mercurial, Sometimes I Want Greatness, Sometimes Just Its Shadow.

“I’m mercurial, sometimes I want greatness, sometimes just its shadow.”

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Roberto Bolaño, from “Prose from Autumn in Gerona,” The Unknown University, trans. Laura Healy (New Directions, 2013)

The 'toxic Italian matriarch named Livia in a prestige TV series' cinematic universe

so i wrote a drabble about a caesar/vercingetorix dynamic and decided to draw some illustrations. i got inspiration from my favorite representation of julius caesar in Uli Edel's 2002 movie with Jeremy Sisto

Sisto's acting is perfect, he conveys so much with his eyes alone and his gaze transforms along with character's transformation. also i adore his little wrinkles and skin texture, which starts showing in Gaul, indicating his age and experience

also i admire vercingetorix who is shown as a very brave, valorous, and humble man. the famous scene of his capitulation is heartbreaking. he makes himself so vulnerable in front of caesar to ask mercy for his people 😭

endlessly fascinated. i think i'll be drawing caesar some more

tfw you come across some content (usually a piece of fanfiction) which makes you remember you wanna wear silk ties and sense life deeply, and you start shaking with long-forgotten passion for being fierce and true and vulnerable and dramatic like you're intoxicated with the perfect fantasy you learnt to abandon, and you wanna grab someone hard enough to leave bruises on their skin and let summer flow through you along with coffee and fresh cigarettes, but there's nobody and you're just a lonely quirky man forever imprisoned inside your mind and then you start listening to slow iamx songs

welcome to my kafkaesque house. have a seat in this empty room without furniture. take a bite of these rotten apples. have a glance at this looped photo of a never-changing interior

just got the sopranos secret ending