I Hate Being So Negative, But The Negativity Surrounds Me. Everywhere I Look When I Am Home, I Feel Overwhelmed

I hate being so negative, but the negativity surrounds me. Everywhere I look when I am home, I feel overwhelmed by grief. I am the dramatic, the emotive, the sensitive child who cares, meanwhile the rest couldn't care less.

Japan Underground | photography by Hideaki Uchiyama

submission by Nathan Manceaux-Panot

I have no one to talk to but at the same time I don't reach out :/

I Want to get better but a part of me wants to rot

It feels like I'm in a toxic relationship with my self. It's like there's 2 inside of me. One wants to fix the relationship and the other thinks they're doing enough but they're really, really not. And they're always fighting and ignoring each other when shit gets hard. Never consistent in their efforts, always ready to give up. They're not strong at all. But they need each other to survive.