It's Hard To Write

it's hard to write

i pretend i have a way with words but you're much better at that

i try to feel the words feel their anger their confusion but most of all

i try to hear their sorrow

maybe if i learn to listen

i can help

I know you love me, so just let me just love you back in our sweet sweet silence 💞

makes the world go round

im sorry that i cant play the violin its something i always wanted to learn

but i cant

im sorry that on that day i chose something that was convenient to

you

something that i liked but maybe more as a hobby it only ever stresses

me

but when did you care i guess you say you did but maybe think of your words and realize it, because this is something you always told me

"dont tell me you love me, show me"

but for Gods sake i cant remember the last time i felt like you loved me

maybe money was the problem this shit i dont even like was cheaper than playing violin

Just a reminder that relationship ruptures, breakups of ANY kind (lover, family, friend) are part of life. There's nothing shameful, not nearly weird about it. It's fascinating for me to see how open we are when showing and talking about our new partner, this new friend who makes us feel awesome or that family member who seems to be our perfect guide and companion. As it should! Shout out to the world all the love we feel and give. But whenever that relationship ends up stranded or you can feel the connection line shredded. When you find yourself feeling unloved, unvalued, despised, disrespected, not seen, unwanted, the second plate or in the background, used, at your limit- and the list could go on forever, it is NORMAL to put an end to it. It does not mean there must be something wrong with you and/or the other person. It simply means it's over for a number of reasons, which becomes quite enlightening for future relationships. Because that's the thing we may have forgotten: we learn by living, not by paper or made up scenarios. This isn't a math lesson, this is what life's about and there's a reason why it isn't easy.

So if you're that person who have a long list of ANY breakups, there's nothing wrong with you as long as you know why you're doing it and you're able to be self-critical and identify what you need, what you search, your values, limits, type of communication, your flaws and defense mechanisms. Because that's what relationships are for. To live, to love and to learn. Stop the shaming for literally been free of choosing and for actually been able to make the hard decision. Stop been harsh to someone for, literally, not connecting with another whole human being.