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Is the fact that the derivative of the volume bounded by an n-ball is the surface area of the n-ball a result of the generalised stokes theorem?

I was feeling shit today and then I decided to scroll through a terf aphobic blog and now my head just feels like it’s full of cotton and I hate myself and I vaguely want to die.

Georgia Warr

💚🤍🩶🖤

I have spent the last couple years meticulously deconstructing all the preconceived notions that my friends had about me and presenting myself as the much more complex person than they had imagined, and I worry that if I ask them to use they/them for me all that effort will be lost and I’ll just be reduced to a pronoun.

I’m close enough to the femboy-tomboy-enby triple point black hole that time dilates and the energy required to work out my gender approaches infinity.

Jo March

New style where your clothes are covered in little pieces of paper as if you left a tissue in one of your pockets when you did the washing. Call it tissue core.

Relaxing (spending 45 minutes plucking leg hairs at random).

My gender is nothing with a touch of Jo March tbh. Or just Jo March idk.

Mr Fell's reputation is at risk

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The antidepressants are working. I can function and I generally feel much better. Sometimes I dip below the clouds though, and I feel terrible and painfully alone. There is a sense that I’m not making any progress in any particular direction, that I’ve established a new status quo where the only thing holding me away from being consumed by encompassing dysphoria (gender or otherwise) are chemicals that dull the pain and distract me. I find myself sometimes sitting with the beginnings of suicidal thoughts because it seems the easiest resolution.

i love wikipedia and i think it is good and right to give them money but all their funding drive messages are “well… we’ll be killing ourselves tonight. we asked so little of you and yet it seems that simply nobody cares about lil ol wikipedia anymore….sad…”

I have seen many times discussion of double standards around words like stud vs slut. It’s interesting that to a certain subset of people who are aware of this though, it’s reversed. “Stud” becomes associated with patriarchy and traditional masculinity, while “slut” represents female sexual liberation.

The line drawn between male sexuality, patriarchy and hegemonic masculinity is thick, and in one direction justified, but it encourages male feminists to mentally turn upon their own sexuality.

Explaining sexual attraction as eliciting sexual desire is very confusing. I’m currently considering the possibility that I am among the ~5% of amabs (and ~30% of afabs) who only experience responsive sexual desire. Given that I am certainly aromantic to date and therefore haven’t been in any position for that to kick in, it’s actually statistically more likely than being ace. What an unhelpful pairing that would be though lol: aroallo with only responsive sexual desire/attraction.

The last few days I’ve been working to identify and dismantle the shame that I associate with male sexuality (not technically considering myself a man rn but it still applies to me) and finding myself able to conceive of myself as a sexual being on some level for the first time. I still find myself not relating to masculine sexuality, but this is certainly a twist and I find myself much more interested in exploring my sexuality.

Wake up -> “mmfm fuck” -> Voice dysphoria-> Go back to sleep

Damn imagine if picrew was real life like wouldn’t that be great

Oops forgot I’m spending six months not labelling my gender and trans is a label. Let’s be real though there is no way I’m cis at this point.

Maybe me finding joy in wearing womens clothing is really a manifestation of my own hegemonic masculinity where I gain a sense of power from controlling a body I perceive as feminine. Or maybe I’m just sorta trans. Idk hard to tell.

In other news leggings with a skirt rocks.

Maybe me finding joy in wearing womens clothing is really a manifestation of my own hegemonic masculinity where I gain a sense of power from controlling a body I perceive as feminine. Or maybe I’m just sorta trans. Idk hard to tell.

In other news leggings with a skirt rocks.

If I could wear a suit the way Cate Blanchett wears suits I would enjoy wearing suits more.

I feel like if I was a cis woman I would probably be a little bit of a tomboy and then just like?? be happy???

????

Idk sorta hard to imagine.

So very Tumblr lmao

The worst part about being aroace is when it’s late at the night and the comphet is telling me that I’m betraying myself for not pursuing a sexual and romantic relationship.

I think a reason that I’m intent on pursuing the gender issue is a recognition that as an aroace person, I need to be able to find joy in myself to a level that many other people don’t. So many allos treat their partners as extensions of themselves that they love, so to meet that same need I’m going to have to love myself as deeply as allos love their partners. If changing my perspective on my own experience of gender will get me closer to this, then it is worth it.

Fuck this fucking country.