This Empty Feeling. Does It Ever Go Away? Ive Got Nothing To Live For, And Nothing To Die For. Nothing

This empty feeling. Does it ever go away? I’ve got nothing to live for, and nothing to die for. Nothing at all. I’m just sick. Sick of crying myself to sleep night after night. Feeling so fucking tired all the time. No amount of caffeine could ever make a dent in this exhaustion. I hate being around people, but I hate being alone. I’m so sick of waking up alone. But I know it’s for the best.

I just want to feel normal for a day. Not in pain. Not terrified. Not shaking with fear or rage. Not questioning my existence. I just want to know what it would be like to not have this empty feeling in my chest. To not feel like a time bomb.

I don’t know which is worse. Having someone or being alone. It’s a nightmare either way.

I don’t want to die. I just… don’t really care one way or the other most of the time.

I know that whatever my exact illness is, it isn’t “that bad.” As in, it’s not going to kill me. It just feels like I’m dying most days. And some days I couldn’t care less about that.

But tomorrow will be the same as today. I’ll get up, go to work, and mask until I go to bed. Then the feelings will come rushing back and all I’ll want to do is cease to exist. I don’t know how to change. I don’t know who I am without my sickness. These monsters in my mind are the only ones who have never left me.

I just want to be okay. Even just for a minute. Sixty seconds of peace. Is that too much to ask for?

Why are my knees like this? Can they stop being like this please?

Every time I see one of these comics, I think about how nice it would be to have this type of relationship. Someone who accepts me, even when they don’t understand something. Someone whose love and respect for me is actually unconditional. Someone who doesn’t try to change me… well, now I’m crying.

I love everything about these comics. The simple art style and dialogue work so well to create something beautiful

100,000,001 is divisible by 17. Fuck you.

Pansexual, not gay, but I think I still count

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Adding this to those transmasc/transfem anthro lion siblings I made a while back

movie with a twins crossdressing/swapping identities plot but both siblings have to stop at some point and have a serious discussion because they both realized they’re trans and they need to figure out if this means they should just a) swap identities forever and transition in secret but as a different person or b) give up the act and just transition normal style