Well, Ig It's Time For Me To Talk About One Of My Favorite Lores And Streamers At This Point.

Well, ig it's time for me to talk about one of my favorite lores and streamers at this point.

Fit MC of 2B2T and his tragedy.

Honestly, when I watched the launch of QSMP I was full on Philza watcher. I never knew Fit before, but I was charmed by his voice, humor and friendship with crow father. And honestly I never even expected any lore from him, so when his first lore stream happened I was pleasantly surprised! So, I really want to express how much I love Fit's lore. It's not in your face and has a lot of subtle hints and build up. Honestly, it's not an essay but rather an expression of true admiration of masterful story telling in form of incoherent ramblings.

(I'll try to compose it, but I can't promise it'll always be coherent)

So let's start with quick review of his lore. FitMC of 2B2T is, evidently from the oldest anachy server. It's described as wasteland, where you can't trust or be trusted. Once he was approached by a person, whom Fit can't remember. It was a contractor who sent our favorite war criminal to the Qsmp with a mission to steal player data. Everything up from there is in vods.

Well, it is a great start, isn't it? At this point we have a very sad start. Practically no trust and emotional connection to anything. The eternal destruction, explosions, deaths and betrayals don't teach you anything different. So once he came to the server, I imagine, Fit didn't care about anything but mission. Player data and that's all, but right from the start this mindset started to change because of the greatest misfortunes of any mercenary or a 2b2t player. Emotional connection.

So now let me break this up into some sections.

Philza: you really thought I won't bring him up? As a greatest (platonic) Fitza/Wallflower duo enjoyer or just a Phil watcher, I couldn't leave him out of this post. I really think that Fit's learning started with crow father. From the start we know that they're at least are acquaintances. But throughout all this months they grew into something more. Philza's trust is hard to get, but if you get it this'll be worth it. Yet Fit got it. Throughout the good old days of Qsmp, when everything was easier, Fitza always were together. No matter was it a life threat or a camping trip with kids, they're with each other. Trusting to each other enough to letting each other in eggs' homes. And after feces hit the fan, it didn't change. A person, who was taught to never trust a soul and to survive no matter what, was standing there, saying "I'm with you, Phil" In the midst of attack. The trust between them is just incomprehensible. A paranoid hardcore survivor and a war criminal, with a lot of secrets and separetion anxiety, became best friends. If anything goes South for Phil, Fit'll be spying, controlling situation. If a wise crow ever starts loosing his sense of reality, this soaked in blood hand will lay on his shoulder, reassuringly. And it isn't one sided. If Fit needs anything Philza instantly passes him it ("You're too good to me"). Phil shares everything he can with Fit and even trusted the Dream to him. And Fit even had a small separation anxiety attack, just cuz Phil was gone for a few seconds. They are so close, Fit even considered letting in Phil on his purpose, Aaaaah... They're gonna be the death of me. Philza learned Fit friendship/ platonic love.

"You [Phil] and I [Fit].... We walk into churches and they burn just by our presence."

Ramon: the baby boy made in heaven by God himself. There's so much to be said here. Once again, coming into the island, Fit never expected to connect with someone, especially to have a son. After having a rocky relationship with Spreen was left one on one with a child. The absurdity of situation is just as laughable, as ironic. A man, who's hobby was killing kids with no back thought, was now stuck with a child, having no idea of how to raise him. And, honestly, he did pretty good! He gave Ramon freedom, but always was here, close enough to help if needed. Of course he wasn't the saint, yet he always tried to be as honest as he could, even letting him on the "Family secret". Ramon loves his dad, and it's obvious by how he helps Fit with his job, building him a communication with his contractor. The little one even taught this cold person to be kinder and more open. They only have each other. And Fit is ready to do anything if it means he'd get to leave with his baby boy by his side. Also I don't wanna hear a scrap about 2b2t historian not caring about his son's disappearance. He does. After behaving and distancing himself from his past antics, he decided to burn the ship, where Ramon lost his first life, just to avenge his baby. He visits his sons house every stream, looking if maybe he came back. If you want any prove of how much they care about each other search Ramon's graduation. They made each other better and their love is just aaahhh. I love them. Ramon taught Fit parental love.

"Baby boy, made in heaven, by God himself.."

PacTW: the last, but not least, Pacman himself. Oooh, love, oooh, lover boy.... Now, I haven't watched a lot of their interactions, but from all I've seen they're suuuuper in love/crush. All those little glances to each other, protection, quality time... Honestly, I think these two videos explain everything. They trust each other and at least have a crush on each other. And once again, there're a lot of small moments that prove this point. Fit having a small panic attack over not seeing pac for a few seconds and even helping to find Walter Bob and Mike. And Pac, no matter how much he loves Mike, didn't drop Fit after the latter was accused of being a traitor. Love is blooming, and even though it's "baby steps" These are still steps. It takes a lot to relearn trust and especially this kind of intimacy, when all you knew before was war, betrayal and lie. And thus Pac taught him love and trust.( I'm not big on shipping but every time hide duo hug my life gets a little better).

"Baby steps, chat. Baby steps. (Puts roses Pac gifted him)"

But, why did I call Fit and his fate tragic, and then just list all the good interactions Qsmp gave him. After all he experienced at 2b2t , this island seems like a heaven. But, Fit was, is, and forever will be stranger at the paradise (this man is way too good at presenting lore. Even music gives us soo much things to think about... I love it.). No matter how much Fit loves people around him and feels this being reciprocated, he'll never have this full closure. He knows and believes that once everyone knew his mission, they'll hate him. Even people I listed before. He'll never be fully honest with anyone (apart from Ramon), and no matter how people love him. Fit truly feels for Baghera, when she told him about her past and her fear of telling it to BBH. It is literally what he struggles with. This dialogue has a lot of good foils and parallels. The fear of their past, full trust/ forced lie, darkness/ light, and eventually positive outlook. Baghera was eventually able to trust Bad with her secret, yet Fit wasn't. But this paradise spoiled this war criminal. It made him more trusting, more social. Fit can't now be alone, cuz he connected with people. This server, though is full of secrets, lies and danger, is still a paradise. A heaven on earth for a lonely man...

So the last part of this long ahh post is about his desire. The one thing that convinced Fit to go to qsmp. Freedom. Which he doesn't have. By making this deal with Contractor he fell into the trap. He must to find this player data, or else he'll return to the world he tried to escape. For forever. With no way out. But once he came to the server, Cucurucho will never let him go. So he's now in double trap. Yet the biggest trap is Ramon. He's prepared to sacrifice everything for his baby boy, and can't leave the island without him. And without Ramon Fit wouldn't be able to contact the contractor. So in creating connections, Fit traps himself further.

I can't really call it a character analysis, but it's all I see in Fit's lore. A very lonely war criminal, that got so tired of distrust and destruction, that he agreed on a spy mission. But once his mission started he learned how to love and care, that he trapped himself further. Love isn't a miracle that saves you, but it's a very useful tool. Once you learn to understand and reciprocate it, life may become better. (Sorry, it's super cheesy, but I think it encompasses Fits character very good) .

Fit is a spy. They're not supposed to have a family and love, because they can't stay for long. And I think at first, Fit saw everything and everyone as just a means to an end. Just the player data. But after all that has passed he can't be the same. He has a son, friends and a possible love interest. Will he be able to still continue his mission? Will he still betray them and they're trust? I don't know.

But I now I love how cc! Fit does his lore. It isn't so in the face and doesn't affects other, yet it is so layered. Everything is so important down to the music choice aaaaagh. I don't even pretend to analyse everything in his lore like contractor, memory loss, head aches and ect.

I just love it. It's marvelous.

Ok, fellas, are ya ready for the part two of my Fit post?

Actually, @sundropsimp (sorry for tagging) gave me this idea and made me reciprocate on something I thought about for a long time, but never got the chance to speak about. So, I might see some deeper meaning in nothing, but I think qFit tries very hardly to separate himself from 2b2t.

Like, instead of destroying he repaires/builds; instead of hiding and going from place to place, he stays, makes himself his forever home; instead of distrusting, he finds friends and even a son. He desperately tries to better himself, yet there's one interesting thing.

Remember in my last post abt Fit I listed three specific people. Philza, Pac and Ramon. I think they're a very crucial people in his life, a pillars that help this veteran to grow and progress.

But the moment he lost them all, he jumps right back into his old habits. Once there was a stream where Fit went to the ship, where Ramon lost his first life, and burned this place to the ground. Why do I call it strange, if Fit is quite chaotic? Well, it's because smt in this moment felt different. Then after some long time he was truly alone. His son was kidnapped, so was Philza (or he wasn't online, can't remember), and Pac wasn't on server to keep Fit company. He wanted to let his frustration out and in doing so he regressed to his old self. Convincing himself it's a normal reaction, fighting and mocking his enemies (not jokingly as usual, but like very hard) and burned this ship to the crisp, laughing. I dunno if it was intentional or not, but I feel this moment shows how easy it is for Fit to return to his 2b2t self without his loved ones. I don't think it was intentional, but I like it.

(Also, as a (platonic) Fitza enjoyer and Fitpac fan I adored their venture together today. Like, Fit and Pac seeing what a bad state Phil is letting him join, even if it meant no date for them. And then they three watched a sunset together and hugged.... They're just too precious to me.)

Thinking again about the parallels between qFit's past and present. Because currently, on the island, it's very clear that he isn't exactly like everyone else; he's too untrusting and untrustworthy, he's less than a good man, he's hiding things and may hurt anyone if it seems necessary. He never stopped being the person he was in the wasteland.

And yet, back in the wasteland, he had the opposite effect. He wasn't like other people; in the sense that, despite being a griefer and a murderer, he was a better person than everyone else. He wouldn't destroy unless he needed to. He wouldn't kill without a good reason. Compared to the other citizens he was a fucking saint. He would preserve history and tell people's tales and show marginal care for others; and was mocked for it.

There was one particular happening that makes me so soft for him as a character and shows his complexities so much. During a base hunting stream, a good while ago, he found a home. A small colonial home with a little manicured lawn and a guest bedroom and a postbox. Beside the postbox there was a note inviting people to leave a letter to the owner, and to stay in the spare bedroom if needed. Where most people would have destroyed the home, Fit explored it. Where most people would have ravaged the chests of all of their valuable items, the only thing Fit stole was enough resources to make a book, in which he wrote a thank you note and left it to the homeowner.

The thing is, he knew the home would eventually be destroyed. He must have. Once one person finds a base, everyone else finds it, he knew that full well. He could have taken the credit; blown it sky-high. But he didn't. He had a choice, and chose to honour a person's home while it still existed.

One of the most compelling aspects of qFit's characterisation is you can easily claim he's past the point of redemption because of all of the terrible shit in his past, that he'll never stop being the person he was in the wasteland and so on and so forth. And you'd be both wrong and right.

He is fucked up, he is hauling a mountain of past sins around with him, he does have a whole lot more to stand trial for than most other islanders. But he'll never stop being the person he was in the wasteland; the patient, careful, astonishingly empathetic person he's always been. It was a lot more noticeable back then. It still stands now.

Maybe he really was made for a greater purpose. Maybe the island gave that to him. Maybe he was always meant to be a father, and a friend.

I believe in bollas....

Okay, I really want to share this.

It is a bit unusual for me, since I like to post only about my hyperfixations, but I want to share my love of musicals.

I love musicals sm. I enjoy songs, stories and especially symbolism, that can be put in. Not only in characters designs or lyrics, but in music.

I know it's the whole point, but finding connections between characters and instruments is so rewarding.

Recently I stumbled upon Death Note the musical. I knew of it since 2020,cuz of "They're only human", but now I've listened to half of the English concept album. There are no words in any language to express how good this musical is. The songs are total bangers. And they all have something in common. Light (the main character) and L (the antagonist. FYI the antagonist≠the villain) have their assigned instruments, that usually pop up when the character starts singing: electric/bass guitar and piano respectively. I'll explain why it's such a good symbolism.

For people who don't know Death Note, Light Yagami is a high school student, who stumbled upon a note book (aka Death Note) that allows him to kill people, whose name he wrote in a book. He starts to kill criminals, in the name of his own justice, which interests the police. L is a detective who has a great detective abilities. He starts to chase Light, whose criminal name is Kira. Ofc there are more to the plot, but in short this is the plot. They are each other's antagonist.

So why do their instruments matter? Basically, it all comes down to how they work and what they represent.

At first electric/bass guitar and piano are in no way similar. Piano is a classical instrument, which is present in many different musical styles, but is mostly associated with opera, classical musicals ect. This places L on the motal high ground and differentiates them as good and bad. But honestly, it all comes to details. To play a guitar you need to strum the strings, and to play piano you need to press the keys. Still very distant, aren't they? Yet when a person presses the key, a small hammer punches the string in the instrument, thus making the sound. This little detail makes so much sense plot wise. Despite all the differences, L and Light are very similar. They both are loners, incredibly clever, and sometimes use the same methods. Both Kira and detective are no strangers to gamble on other's lives (killing innocent for getting in the way/being close to find out his personality and using an inmate as a bait to roughly locate the killer). I'm in no way, shape or form a musician. I don't play any instrument, but I find this stuff amusing. Through only instruments the directors both opposed and compared. I love theatre...

Didn't go to education due to some health issues, so here's qsmp art dump.

First time drawing him from head to toe. Some action practice also. I love him with all my heart.

I tried to play with perspective, but it outplayed me. Anyway first time drawing Cucurucho, Jaiden and Cellbit (he looks the worst honestly...)

Philza dump. He's my main and I'm with him till the end. I consider myself a dead crow, cuz I'm never in chat and can't usually catch his streams. Also Fitza/Wallflower duo, my beloved.

I recently found out about "String master" From "Rudolf Affaire Mayerling" And it is so Cucurucho coded. Like, I'm not even joking.

"Let them plot, let them plan

Let them think they’re in control

When I bid them to be with me

They are with me heart and soul

Let them fret in the end

They will get what they deserve

To serve

The master of the strings"

I think you get my message.