Here Before Vashti Bunyan

Here Before vashti bunyan

Completely agree. I'd be able to afford more care for the strays that are apparently attracted to me. I'd be able to afford a home where I could be stable. I'd get an electric bike so I could get to more places. But I'd still work jobs. I LIKE working. I just wish it wasn't necessary to do to just barely survive.

Yup. And you pick up some bad self-defense mechanisms as well. Realized that I've started guilt-tripping people with my suicidality. But at the same time, those people kinda deserved it. (If you get a text that someone is about to kill themselves and don't go looking for them for 10 hours, do you really care?) Though then that carries over into future relationships, so it's something you've got to work on fixing. Sigh.

It’s weird how everyone hating you when you’re nine years old still affects your self esteem when you’re 26 like yeah nobody came to my birthday party but that was like 17 years ago why is it stopping me from going to a gay bar

Imortality sucks because of the world we currently live in. Why would you want to live forever when you can barely live as is?

Maybe in a better world, but as of now it would suck.

"immortality sucks because all your friends die" all your friends die anyway. those we do not mourn are those who mourn us.

"immortality sucks because you forget who you are" we always forget who we are. do you remember who you were at four years of age? who you were at fourteen? "who i am" is a shadow cast on the wall.

"immortality sucks because" skill issue. skill issue. skill issue. give me your liver

Are you interested in checking out other soul takes? (Soul takes are fangames on the pervious fallen humans). I got a list I can share!

Here's the first part-

Cyan Soul

PK!Undertale Cyan - https://gamejolt.com/games/PKUndertalecyan/891042

Undertale: Wonders of Patience - https://gamejolt.com/games/WondersOfPatience/873353

Undertale Bold and Benevolent - https://gamejolt.com/games/UndertaleBnB/824599

Orange Soul

Undertale: Wildfire - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertalewildfire/868658

Undertale BRAVEHEART - https://x.com/UTBraveheart

Undertale: Brave Beginnings - https://gamejolt.com/games/Undertale-Brave-Beginnings/876174

Undertale Bold and Benevolent - https://gamejolt.com/games/UndertaleBnB/824599

Blue Soul

Undertale Blue - https://gamejolt.com/games/Undertale_Blue/869356

Undertale: Blue Legacy - https://gamejolt.com/games/Very_cool_undertale_blue_game/881195

Undertale Integrity - https://gamejolt.com/games/utintegrity/869156

Undertale Siren Song - https://x.com/UTSirenSong

Undertale: Kindred Spirits - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertale-kindred-spirits/145217

Purple Soul

Undertale: Kindred Spirits - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertale-kindred-spirits/145217

Undertale Purple - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertalepurple/869765

TM!Undertale Purple - https://gamejolt.com/games/TMUTP/907838

Undertale Magenta - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertale-magenta/871713

Green Soul

Undertale Green - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertaleGreen/878738

Undertale Mint - https://gamejolt.com/games/Undertale_Mint/910700

Undertale Kindness - https://gamejolt.com/games/UndertaleKindness/874628

Undertale Green (By Migs) - https://gamejolt.com/games/undertalegreen/161268

Yellow Soul

Undertale Yellow (COMPLETED) - https://gamejolt.com/games/UndertaleYellow/136925

Undertale Ivy’s Justice - https://gamejolt.com/games/ivysjustice/894376

These fangames seems to have the most promise, can't say for sure they will make it to full release tho. Maybe one of them will catch your eye in the mean time.

I haven't had the time, patience or motivation to play video games for a VERY long time now. My backlog of games I own but haven't even touched is big ngl.

But sharing these for anyone who's looking for something like this.