A Lot Of People Ask Me What My Biggest Fear Is, Or What Scares Me Most. And I Know They Expect An Answer

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

Ok so I’ve been burned so many time by (YA) novels and other media about romances that were portrayed extremely poorly that I’m a complete and utter pessimist when it comes to reading/watching/playing anything romantic, but The Wayhaven Chronicles exceeded all expectations completely. 

What I expected from the A romance: A being a complete asshole and the Detective having to suffer through it silently (YA novels have ruined me cause they’re all written like that), a little pining, little to no feelings.

What my dumb ass GOT from the A romance: A being a dummy who can’t just talk to people like a normal person because?? How does one do that??? Even though they actually mean well. The Detective is a badass who puts them in their place when they act rudely, A constantly being cautious of not taking advantage of the Detective (y’all know the scene I’m talking about), a whole shit ton of feelings and pining, uhhhh 1000 blessings from God.

What I expected from the N romance: Sickly sweet conversations about N’s concern for the Detective borderlining on patronizing (I blame YA novels again), N being very…inexperienced.

What my dumb ass GOT from the N romance: N being one SMOOTH, SUAVE, SOPHISTICATED OPERATOR, 100% was NOT prepared for but LOVED, Uhhh, mutual respect and friendship and admiration and support, and 1000 more blessings from God.

What I expected from the F romance: F constantly quoting memes, never taking anything seriously, flirting with anything that moved even while flirting with the Detective, maybe being a tiny bit inconsiderate of the fact that the Detective might want more than flirtation (not maliciously intended).

What my dumb ass GOT from the F romance: F being a consistent source of camaraderie and honest friendship, not just flirtation though there was plenty of that good stuff, my good sir, F thinking critically about how to use their abilities to protect the Detective, F being SO CONSIDERATE of the Detective’s feelings, well-being, adjustment to the supernatural, and HOLY GOD how much they care about wanting to do right by the Detective, Venus the Roman goddess of love gave me a thumbs up.

What I expected from the M romance: M being a complete asshole who cares a ZERO amount for other people’s thoughts and feelings and is derisive towards the Detective (the typical YA ‘bad boy’), presses a sexual advantage over the Detective even if the Detective makes it clear they aren’t interested. (This happens all the time in media)

What my dumb ass GOT from the M romance: THEY CARE! They try to pretend they don’t, they really do, but every time you show concern for victims or softness for other people M scoffs out loud but they MELT inside! TOTAL MARSHMALLOW M. Heavily flirts with the Detective but isn’t creepy or over the top about it, honestly more feels than I was prepared for, OW, I got a high five from Aphrodite the Greek goddess of love after flirting with M ten times.

Uhhhhhh so yeah please play The Wayhaven Chronicles, this was my review of the game (I didn’t want to bring up any plot points because I CAN’T SPOIL IT IT’S TOO DAMN GOOD I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR HOW MUCH I WAS GONNA LOVE IT) so please buy the game and play it, you won’t regret it, I promise!

little honey bees 

chellerrific replied to your post:

sits up grabs ur shoulders Mollymauk is an ENTP…

DEF one of the two accept no substitutes please share the rest of your thoughts because i may or may not have already been thinking about this (your surprised face)

“I’ve never seen a group of people more in need of a good time in my life” - opening line of ENTP trying to sell you Fun, because there is no hotter commodity.

The ‘patronize’ pun he pulls on Beau is 100% xNTx wordplay. Also Tal’s saying on talks that Molly doesn’t like Beau because she’s kinda apathetic-sarcastic (which is of course SUPER hypocritical, and also very ENTP)

Again, an ESTP would have -actual charisma -an actual fashion sense (that COAT)

The most bothered Molly got was when People were Stupid. “oh dear, we’ve been found out, our VERY CLEVER plot to destroy our OWN SHOW with a zombie has been discovered, whatever shall we do.” I think an ESTP would be far more pissed about the “going to prison” part (YOU’LL NEVER TAEK MAH FREEDOM), whereas the ENTP would be WAY more pissed that people are making such an OBVIOUS, BORing assUMPtion.

papaer somniferum. . .

Realistic Self-Talk

This too shall pass & my life will be better.

I am a worthy and good person. 

I am doing the best I can, given my history and level of current awareness.

Like everyone else, I am a fallible person and at times will make mistakes and am committed to learning from them.

What is, is.

Look at how much I have accomplished, and I am still progressing.

There are no failures, only different degrees of success.

Be honest and true to myself.

It is OK to let myself be distressed for awhile.

I am not helpless. I can and will take the steps needed to get through during crisis. 

I will remain engaged and involved instead of isolating and withdrawing during this situation.

This is an opportunity, instead of a threat. I will use this experience to learn something new, to change my direction, and/or to try a new approach. 

Other people are responsible for their reactions to me. 

I can stand anything for a while because I am resilient. 

In the long run, who will remember or care? 

I see all things through the eyes of compassion.