California Living. Blessed To Live In A Beautiful State. Blessed To Be Able To Wake Up And Enjoy This
California living. Blessed to live in a beautiful state. Blessed to be able to wake up and enjoy this beautiful day 🙏 blessings all around.
Today was a good day.
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Someone said something to me today and it really hit me hard. Someone told me that my mind understood what happened but my emotions are still trying to catch up to understand it too.
I understand that how people treat you isn't how they feel about it, it's how they feel about themselves. People can't give what they don't have. Eve though your actions have made it very clear to me the liar and coward that you are. It still doesn't take away the pain you have caused. In your quest to not hurt you, you hurted me instead. I was collateral damage for your lack of sympathy and kindness. I was collateral due to your traumas and lack of emotions.
In the end having understood that I still hope you deserve what you deserve. I have no sympathy and kindness for those that couldn't showed me the same. Not while I have given so much to you in the past. I have given my love, time, energy, intentions, my heart, my soul, my body and my money towards you. All to be played, lied to, disregarded, disrespected and ghosted by someone who can't give me the same in return.
I hope you have a mediocre life. I hope everything you do is mediocre. You're mediocre who deserves mediocre. I hope this guilt, shame and regret haunts you forever. Hope that bitch makes you miserable cause you'll never find someone like me ever again. I'm too high price for you.
Some days I missed you. I missed our connection, our communication, our time together. I want to reach out hoping to get a response from you. Hoping you missed me too. Miss us. But than I remembered what kind of person you have become and I hate myself for missing you when you don't even miss me.
I still care while you don't. I still miss while you've moved on. I still love while you love someone else.
It's almost 4 months and some days it still feel fresh. Like the lie and betrayal just happened yesterday. You're so heartless and cold.
Everywhere you are I hope...I don't know what to hope or wish for you because in this moment I don't hope or wish nothing for you. Call be petty, call be bitter...whatever I don't care today.
Today I'm putting my feelings and emotions ahead of yours and whatever is happening or not happening to you I don't care.
You shouldn't matter today or ever again. I didn't matter to you than nor now, therefore I should treat you the same as you did me.
