I Wish I Knew How To Sculpt. It Must Be An Amazing Feeling To Create A Human Being Out Of Clay With Your

I wish I knew how to sculpt. It must be an amazing feeling to create a human being out of clay with your own hands.

Storm Chasing Photography / Tornado - Mike Mezeul

Sometimes I feel like I'm not cut out for a relationship or I want too much from the other person and then I feel like I'm missing out on the greatest experience of my life but also sometimes I think there's no such thing as love because I only see it when I watch a rom-com or read a love book, then I think I'm ready for anything and I'm young, I have nothing but time but I think I'll never fall in love because I believe that men in this generation have no idea about real love, its all about lust to them. I know i shouldn't think about it as much as i do but i cant help it therefore i'm always in a loop.

Today, two girls were brutally murdered in my country. The killer threw one of the girls' heads down and then jumped to his death. Today I realized again that no matter where I go or what I do, I will never be safe. I'm stuck in a fishbowl and men always watch me. They can take me out at any moment and kill me, but I can't do anything. No matter where I go, I am not safe. Why can't I experience the comfort of life like a man?

How do I let go? I feel like I'm stuck in life and have no control over my brain/emotions. I can't even keep a journal to express my feelings because I feel vulnerable or somehow cringe. It's so bad that even when I talk about something that doesn't really affect me I get teary-eyed. I have so many emotions that I keep bottled up inside, they want to come out at every opportunity. I know what I need to do to fix myself but I don't know how to do it.

Amazing Spider-Man 101 (Gil Kane & John Romita, 1971)