Whoa, It's An Update!

Whoa, it's an update!

Hi there! Just wanted to check in, I've been pretty busy lately!

I know I don't exactly update regularly, but the past few weeks have been especially distracting for me, and that's been reflecting in my post schedule. I'm hoping to change that and start updating more regularly. Maybe even daily!... Okay fine, I couldn't type that with a straight face. But I will try to post regularly enough to seem like I'm not dead half the time, even if it's just a single post on Twitter. This goes for the music blog too, which has been dormant for several months now; I'm hoping to have a new song up by the end of the day.

Secondly, I'd like to get back into my hobbies again. I haven't been so busy that I don't have time to enjoy them, but I've been falling out of my hobbies in favor of other kinds of time-wasting. I'd like to change that, but I can't seem to get myself back into it, so I'm going to try something new: I'm going to start doing Let's Plays and streams in the future. It's something I've been wanting to try for a while now, and hopefully it'll refocus my attention on games and level design, rather than refreshing the same eight websites over and over. I'm certainly not starting this today or anything, but hopefully I'll start sometime next month.

Finally, as an update on the paranoia/depression posts, I started seeing a counselor about my issues. We're working through finding the root of all the problems I outlined, and it's going quite well. If nothing else, it's good to rant about my problems and mental musings to someone every week.

Thanks for reading my blog! You're why I keep writing. ^_^

A friend is carrying a large stack of objects, obviously struggling.

Me: Do you need help with that?

Friend: No, I've got it.

Me: ...Let me rephrase that - would you LIKE help with that?

Friend: That would be REALLY nice, thank you.

Do I have to clarify this every time...?

Light vs. Dark

I'm noticing a strange relationship between what a community says it is and how it actually acts. Having snooped around on the Internet quite a bit, it's disturbing to see this trend hold true everywhere I look.

There's these dark corners of the world where the people are broken and twisted and hurting. These outcasts from society are left to suffer by themselves. Yet, despite their own conditions, they treat each other with honor and respect, and do their best to help each other through their messes. It's a certain dignity rarely seen in society at large these days.

Then there's a disturbingly large amount of religious communities (especially Christian), who are supposed to be beacons of light and goodness, that do the opposite. They have this righteous and elite attitude not unlike nobility, and expect others to fall in line. Instead of being helpful and loving and caring, they push others away, saying "you must be this holy to enter" like it's some sort of club. Not that they have to care anyway; life is already set up for them, they don't need to worry about anyone else!

Obviously there are counterexamples to this, but these are the general trends - the "dark" places are showing more love than the "light." Why is this? I'm not saying it should be the opposite - I'm glad there is love in the world at all, especially in the darkness - but shouldn't the light be showing an equal amount of love or more? Like, you know, we're supposed to?

Instead we lapse into whatever's comfortable, taking pride in our own self-worth and scoffing at anything we find reprehensible without doing anything to change it. We have the opportunity to help fix what's broken, and instead we cast it aside like it's garbage? For shame!

For anyone who's looking at me like I'm a hypocrite simply by typing this and yelling at the world while sitting on my own high horse... to paraphrase my dad, you can't preach at people without doing some self-examining of your own first.

Custom tracks in Mario Kart 8.

It's happening.

“All people dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind, wake in the morning to find that it was vanity. But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, For they dream their dreams with open eyes, And make them come true.”

D.H. Lawrence (via vaatividya)

I've gotten this at least three times over the past few days

Person: So what do you watch on TV?

Me: I don't really watch TV.

Person: Oh, so you watch, like, anime and stuff? That's cool.

Me: ...that's still TV, you know...