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B-but I'm so comfy, I-I don't know if I can get up today chief-
Girl you need to get out of bed faster than this
How’s life at this obesity weight? Is it hard operating daily?
Being morbidly obese has its cons, my hip constantly hurts, my ankle hurts, my knees and lower back hurts, my feet hurt if I stand more then 3min. I’m limited on being active I can’t walk very long or hard.. stairs are a huge bitch to me... cant run it’s more a slow walk my thighs prevent me from sprinting... I recently went to a MLB game this past week and the walk to the seat was a massive under taking. I’m constantly afraid that I’ll loose balance and roll my ankle badly. If it’s hot and humid my ass is so big I get chub rub and that’s painful as well. I can sky dive in too fat, I’m too fat to play sports and hike very fare and I’m too fat for other stuff too hehe... but oddly enough i love it!
Sharing a few insights from Life with an Overhang… A few people have reached out to me about what’s life like with an overhang now. I always had more of a ball belly, but when I added about 20 lbs in less than a month early in 2021, it was almost overnight that my belly dropped into an overhang.
Here are a few of my own experience after the belly “dropped”: - You will outgrow clothes fast: When it really dropped, it was almost overnight that XLs went from fitting well to being way too small. Wasn’t gradual at all - all the sudden, one day, nothing fit properly anymore. - Your Pants Button and Waistband will Disappear: I remember the first time going clothes shopping. I had to lift and adjust my belly to button a simple pair of pants. Honestly, it was a pretty shocking experience at first, but now it’s my everyday. - Overhangs Like to Say Hello: Frequently I’ll head into the bathroom at a restaurant to discover I’m hanging out the bottom of my shirt. Sometimes this is intentional, but often it’s not. And you don’t even realize it’s happening until someone says something or you catch your reflection. - Inflate / Deflate: At times, it feels like you have a balloon connected to you. You’ll wake up in the morning with it deflated, loose, and pretty jiggly. And after a massive eating session, you’ll look a few inches bigger - round, firm, thick. - Big Meals Cause Your Belly to Drop More: Nobody really warns you about this stuff, but after a large lunch or dinner, a full belly will drop more. You’ll quickly see your shirt start to rise as it inflates - Even Small Snacks Make a Difference: When you carry excess weight in front, even a small snack will make it stick out even more - Energy Levels Remained the Same: At my current size, I really didn’t see a drop in energy. Biggest shift was that I had a lot more hanging off the front of me. But I never really felt increased loss of breath or reduced daily activities. This may change with another 50-100 lbs, but for now, it’s just fun to carry more. - Libido will Evolve: Every person is different, but in my own experience, my libido skyrocketed as a result of gaining. Seeing my reflection was an instant turn on. - You will play with it all the time: It’s like your own full time fidget toy. I catch myself playing with it all the time. And it’s not even intentional - sometimes it just happens unconsciously. - You’ll Want to Show It Off: My own experience again, but the bigger I get, the more I want to naturally show it off. When I was athletic, I’d love wearing form fitted clothes. Now at my size, I have no issues with wearing something a little too tight - Your Junk will Disappear: This happened a lot sooner than expected, but as your overhang develops, you’ll quickly lose sight of your junk while standing. You can still see it sitting or laying, but standing is a different story - Gravity will Take Its Toll: Once the overhang started to develop, I noticed most of my gains grew the lower belly. Yes, I see other parts getting bigger, but for the longest time, I wore the same exact pants size. I just had a lot more going on above the pants. - You’ll Naturally Want to Eat More: I often find myself ordering more food out because I love “feeding the overhang”. I’m not more hungry… I just love the aftermath of a big meal. Love feeling large and showing it off. - Pride and Confidence: Another unexpected benefit, but I found myself more confident about my body as my overhang started to grow. There is a degree of satisfaction that I simply cannot explain.
Another unexpected benefit that I like to show off is that my overhang can hold a towel in place without a problem. I do this at the gym all the time, but I love wedging a hand towel under the overhang as a courtesy cloth while getting ready. I can even walk around with it in place. Definitely gets stares, but I kinda love doing it.
Again, these are all some of my own experiences with growing an overhang. Would love to know if other gainers had similar experiences. What else have you noticed about life with an overhang than wasn’t there before?
“I just don’t know where all this fat came from!? I swear I don’t eat that much!”
Oh yeah.. it just “magically” appeared and has nothing to do with all the donuts and cakes you snack on at the office. All those beers after work and quick Mcdonalds trips have been adding up, Porky. Soon that belly will be even bigger and hanging even lower before you know it. You’ll never be skinny ever again 😈
thought daughters pls help me out here
so tomorrow is my grandmas birthday and she’s turning 82 or something and i always draw my family members something for their birthdays but the thing is my parents separated a few months ago and my dad has been very cruel to my mom and my (step) siblings so i hate him and his parents (my grandma whose birthday is tmrw) were so mean and careless
now the question is: do i draw her something?
the thing is she’s old and also she had cancer and went to chemo therapy but she’s okay now also when my parent were still together i would call her almost every week and ask her how she’s doing, just checking up on her, i would write her postcards from vacation and after my dad left i didn’t anymore and she never called me either so we didn’t talk for a few months
also when my parents were still together she was so mean to my older siblings and never treated them as her (step) grandchildren bcs they weren’t their sons kids and she always preferred my cousins over me and my brother
but after all, it’s always been like this and she’s just a woman and she’s old and she always loved my drawings
i mean my mom would probably get a bit mad and i don’t have much time left the thing is just do i want to turn bitter and not give my grandma a birthday present?
she gave me printer paper and ink for my birthday lol but i asked for it. not my brother, my dad, my cousins or my uncle ever give her and my grandpa presents for their birthdays and i’ve always been the only one but i don’t want to be the nice person that never stands up for herself anymore even tho it’s just a drawing
anyways if anyone reads this far, please help me out i’m struggling <3
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Aether x Sodo, they're (not so sweet) lovestory
Warning: Mental health issues, character has trauma, rape hinted
Everybody in the ministry always thinks that Sodo only has 3 moods: loud, aggressiv or horney.
That's because he rarely shows his kind and loving side because of his traumas from the past. Being small isn't optimal for a life in hell, where you have to fight for food and other stuff. Being small isn't great to fight bigger, bulkier ghouls off during mating season. He was often forced to "mate" with partners he didn't want. Usually the pack would protect a small ghoul against bigger enemies.
But other than Rain, who was basically a kit and still with his parents when he was summond, Sodo didn't have a pack or family. So when it came to defend himself he started to act aggressive all the time, and because of his age he forgot what it meant to be kind or loving.
But when he was summond he quickly developed the desire to mate with Aether. With shock he realized that that meant that he loved him. He went to the only person who had earned his trust besides of Aether: Terzo.
Terzo then started to "teach" him love again, with Omega as a translator, because some things are different between ghouls and humans.
After his first ritual his hormones went crazy and he asked Aether out. Aether said yes and so they went on dates every now and then for 3 months, before Sodo finally told him his whole story. They're was a lot of crying that night, a lot of comfort and tissues.
But they managed to establish a relationship, and soon after that they mated each other.
Nowadays siblings and ghouls often wonder why Aether chose to mate a ghoul this aggressive and loud, while Aether was calm and full of love.
What they don't know is that in private, when there's only Sodo and Aether, the small ghoul is so full of love, caring, calm and sweet to him nobody would believe him. Every now and then Sodo has a mental breakdown when his trauma overwhelms him, or he has nightmares, but Aether is always there.
Sometimes he shows this side to his other band mates which are also they're pack. But that is still rare. He's softer to them than to strangers, but still.
The oc artist experience is drawing your character and being proud of how they turn out, and then moving onto the background and going through all five stages of grief over a tree and some grass.
So, a serious life update.
I have been working double shifts at my job just to make the hours I need to cover all my bills. And recently, the store I work at came under new management. With this, a lot of people have quit because it’s a very religious, close minded store, and the new owner and some of the workers clash heads. One of the ones that quit was my boss/manager.
It was today that I was approached and asked to slowly take over as manager to replace the one that left. I said yes.
A little of it is perhaps spite. That manager who quit absolutely hated my fucking guts and did little things to piss me the fuck off on purpose. They had confirmed this a couple times to other workers who told me. Not only having them come up to me and say it to my face. So, a little of it is spit, but also a lot of it is to try and help out genuinely as best as I can.
It’s also here that I ask myself, is it worth it? It’s an old mom and pop shop and honestly… the majority of me wants to help run it just so I can pay bills, but this store isn’t where my heart is… it’s being creative.
As an INFP, you can guess just how much I so badly wish to prioritize my creativity and passion to show off everything I’ve been working on… but can’t. With the long hours I’ve been working and new roles at work, I’m struggling…
I’m picking at my projects, many that I have started and unable to finished, and I’m getting little bits done here and there. Last month, I procrastinated so bad it was embarrassing… but I want to make this month better, different, productive!
With all that being said, I’m taking it one step at a time and hope that I can get something done by the end of this year. If not, I’ll keep trying.
To all of you reading this, thank you for taking your time to do so, I wish you all the best of luck and much love.
Here's a good rule of thumb that I am posting for myself. When choosing the LED light color, do NOT pick cyan/lightblue! It will stimulate the chemicals in your brain to be awake and you will not be able to fall back asleep
(tldr: I hate blue lights)