Max Verstappen X Fem! Reader - Angst, Major Fluff

Max verstappen x fem! reader - angst, major fluff
Word count - 1.3k
TW! Self harm talk, panic attacks, mental health
CW! Smut ish
if youâre struggling, you can always dm me, please get help, you are not alone and do not read this if you feel as thought youâre being triggered. I used to go through this and the idea of a character helping me through it calmed me down so i hope that does the same for you.
TW UNDER THE CUT
Max and I closed the gap between our mouths, tongues battling for dominance as he grabbed my wrists and pinned them and myself down on the bed, I moaned as he lifted up my shirt and took off his. His tongue went down from my neck to my chest, then he unclasped my bra and started swirling his tongue around my nipples, smirking as he played with them.
âSuch a pretty girl, taking it so wellâ he grinned looking up at me. I was gasping for more, trying to speak but unable to, he left his spit all down me creating hickeys.Â
âM-maxâ I let out softly, âyouâre doing so well schatâ he comforted me peppering kisses on my waistline, teasing me, my panties getting wetter by the second.Â
âMax do something please!â he himself couldnât wait, rock-hard erection facing my way, he gave in with the teasing.Â
Max and I met at my older brother daniels house a year ago, we started dating around 3 months ago but I always felt like it was the wrong time as he was my first and I really wanted it to go slow.Â
He used both of his hands and spread my legs apart, taking off my jeans. He was about to take off my underwear when he suddenly stopped. I looked down, confused and then thatâs when it hit me.
I hadnât even thought about it until now. I am so stupid, I quickly got up and grasped onto my jeans which were on the floor. Hot tears were running down my face, he looked at me with a face of guilt.Â
ây/n... You know I saw it rightâ he mentioned looking down at my thighs to see the recent cuts, I felt my throat close up as I just stared at him.Â
âIâm sorryâ I muttered with all I could.Â
ây/n, please donât cry we are going to get through this together, please just come here.â he held his arms out and embraced me, letting me cry into his shoulder silently. It was nice, nice to have someone who cared about me, someone who loved me.
âLet me run you a bath, I am going to the store, I will be back soon,â The dutch said as I looked up, smudged mascara leaking down my face. I nodded, I was so lucky.Â
time skip 5 min
Max had put on the bath at the hottest temperature which he knows I love, he had folded my pyjamas next to my bed leaving them there for me to soon come back after my bath. He put on a candle and kissed my forehead.
âik ben zo terug schatâ (I will be back soon sweetheart)Â
I hopped in the bath. A million thoughts flooded my mind as he left. How could I let him find out, he probably left for good, he saw how ugly I was underneath my clothes. I probably need to go on a diet. For fucks sake he's an f1 driver, I donât even know how Iâm with him. I started breathing at an unnormal pace when I heard someone barge in. I couldnât breathe, I looked at max and then curled up putting my head into my hands.Â
âSchat youâre okayâ max held my hand and sat on the bathroom floor comforting me. Heâs too good for me. God must have really been enjoying life the day we ended up together. I took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. His ocean blue eyes. They were like a sea, I could get lost in them, and they always made me feel safe as if I were home. I love him, oh my god, I love him.Â
We hadnât said it to each other yet, I just realised, I was deeply in love with the man sitting here right next to me, watching a naked me in the bathtub trying to not have a panic attack. Only someone who loves you would do that.
âCome here, get upâ Max gestured. He held my hands out and lifted me out, tilting my head up with his fingers. He grabbed a warm towel off the rack and dried me off. I put on my pyjamas and walked out of the bathroom to find a candle-lit room, aircon blasting on full, tv on ready to put on the grinch and a bunch of my favourite chocolates along with a cake mix.Â
âIf youâre feeling up to it we can bake a cake and I was thinking maybe we could watch a movie or show of your choice. I also got you a hot chocolate with extra whipped cream and red and green Christmas-themed sprinkles even though itâs September just how you like it.â he pointed to the mug on the table.
I was speechless, I donât think anyone had done something like this for me before. I jumped on him pushing him on to the bed grinning. âYouâre perfectâ
I jumped under the covers, grabbing the 10 massive blocks of chocolate he got me as I offered him one and he declined.
I tilted my head and then realised due to his job he had a daily calorie limit.Â
âFuck the diet max, it doesnât even matter,â I said, suddenly he tried to protest opening his mouth and so I shoved a piece of chocolate straight into his mouth. He looked enraged as if he wanted to spit it out but then he started smiling going in for more.
I put on an old Christmas movie that was based on german folklore it was called Krampus and I watched it every Christmas.
âDo you wanna talk about it? The scars?â max askedÂ
âI donât really like to talk about it but I just feel like I can never stop, I always tell myself it will just be one more time, I just always doubt myself and I don't know whyâ
âI used to struggle with it y/n, I know this amazing therapist and promise me that you will allow me to get you help.â he held up his pinky finger
âI promiseâ I smiled
2 HOUR TIME SKIP
The movie ended and it was 3 am, I looked up, and max was playing with my hair. âWhy do you like me?â I asked, the nighttime adrenaline making me say things.
âAre you kidding y/n?â Max scoffed, I felt afraid, did he not like that Iâd asked? There was an awkward silence for a minute.
âI love the way you belt out your heart to songs, I love your smile, I love the way you dance whenever Taylor swift comes on and you sing songs about heartbreak right in front of me, I love how you always cheat when we play monopoly and say because youâre the bak manager you can rob the bank, I love how much you care when animals die in movies, I love how you play with my hair when we fall asleep, I love how you always think of other, I love how you dress, I love you cookies, I love your music taste, I love when you play supermax in the car on full volume, I love how you hate my dad, I love you speak your mind, I love how you read fanfiction about me infront of me, I love how you listen to the issues i have, I love when you get in my f1 car and talk about how you will beat me, I love how you think that if we have a family you want the child to be like me, I love⌠you.â Max let out.
Tears welled up in my eyes, âI love you tooâ
He kissed me softly and hugged me.Â
I love Max Verstappen.
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M. Verstappen || Christmas presents

In which: Max and family celebrating Christmas trying to convince y/n to get their daughter and kart and itâs all just fluffy
Genre: fluff
Requested: yes - no
Warnings: mentions of Christian Horner, max being too cute for this world, pregnancy , abortion, Jos verstappen
DECEMBER 24TH 2022
When max had found out you were pregnant 8 months into your relationship it had been a rocky path for the both of you. The questions on wether to keep it and wether we would be good parents as max travels around a lot for his job. It was a lot to take in.
Maxâs career was only really just flourishing and making the decision had to be one of the toughest things. Jos hated the idea, believed it would ruin maxâs whole racing career but considering max was madly in love with you he mustered up the courage to say he wants to keep it just as you were about to drive to get the baby aborted
But looking back on it youâre extremely happy that youâd decided to keep it. On June 3rd 2019 Amelia Jane Verstappen was born and the 2 of you couldnât be any happier.
âMummy mummyâ you looked down to see a girl with dirty blonde hair and y/e/c eyes, starring right at you.
âYes schatz? Whatâs upâ you kneeled down onto the kitchen floor moving a strand of Ameliaâs hair behind her ear
âCan we make Chrissy cookies for Santa tonightâ you giggled at the fact she wasnât able to make out the word Christmas but nevertheless went along with it
âOf course we can my dear, we also have to make some for the reindeersâ you smiled picking her up and lifting her onto the kitchen bench where she sat cross legged
âOkay, can you please pour this cup of flour into the bowlâ you asked the 3 year old who was having a hard time with the glass measuring cup, you helped her hold it making sure she wouldnât break it
Suddenly Amelia poured all the flour in making the powdery substance go everywhere, especially both of your faces
âEMMYâ you said horrified with her in a fit of laughter âmama you look like a ghost itâs not Halloweenâ she started laughing as I tried wiping the flour off my face
âWhat happened hereâ max started wheezing as he sat in the entrance of the door way in a white t shirt and Grey sweat pants
âDaddy!â The little girl exclaimed grabbing the air indicating for max to pick her up
Max ran over to her and then put her on the couch grabbing a blanket.
âschatz can you please make some hot chocolateâ max asked sweetly
âYouâre Lucky i love youâ I rolled my eyes
âHold on, My Cookie helper has ditched me. Emmy you wanted to make cookies and now youâve left mummt to do it by herself!â I exclaimed pouting
âTough love mamaâ the little girl laughed god she was so sassy and she got it from her father. max smirked looking toward me about to loose it.
âHey, der weihnachtsmann schaut dir zu!â Santa is watching you
I finally finished making the cookies and popped them in the oven, Emmy had made a mess decorating them. Sprinkles and icing were everywhere.
I had made the hot chocolate for the 2 of them and then Emmy went off to bed hoping for Santa in the morning.
As I was about to finish cleaning up max came over and hugged me from behind. Peppering my neck with kisses.
âDu bist sehr schĂśnâ you are very pretty max whispered making my heart flutter
Every time I stared into those eyes of his my heart fluttered just like a teenager in love.
I turned around and kissed him as he propped me up onto the counter.
âYou know.. Emmyâs gone to bedâ he smirked at me, I started shaking my head and refused
âNo no no no, itâs late, Santa comes tomorrow. I have a few jobs to finish up but get into bed and Iâll be there soonâ I kissed his nose as he rolled his eyes unravelling himself from my waist
Just then I got a notification on my phone. âYou have missed your period for one week, are you pregnantâ I read the message and my stomach dropped
I had missed it but max and I were being safe so I was really confused. Maybe thatâs why I had been feeling sick in the mornings lately. Or maybe I was reading too much into it.
I walked into the bathroom, pregnancy tests on hand always just to be safe. I peed on the stick and god the wait felt like an eternity.
The timer went off the the test sat there in words it had said âpositiveâ I took another 2 to be sure, all with the same reply.
I grabbed a box from the cupboard put the test inside and put a little note âto max: merry Christmasâ
I put it under the tree and now the night awaits
DECEMBER 25TH 2022
I woke up with max and his body wrapped around me as Emma jumped up and down on our bed âmama mama mama daddy daddy itâs chrissyâ she was shouting and screaming
âIt is too! Letâs go see what Santa broughtâ max said smiling at his daughter
Oddly enough I saw a massive box and a smaller box in terribly wrapped paper under the tree that I definitely had not put there i tilted my head in confusion as Emmy ran toward it
She ripped it open and it was a racing cart along with maxes helmet from when he had won the first world championship
âMaxâ I slapped his shoulder, we had agreed to not to get her a cart until she was 7 which theoretically was the age she can first start driving
âBut sheâs so cute look at herâ max whispered back looking at the blonde with the helmet completely drowning her head. âIâm just like daddyâ she laughed âmax sheâs going to hurt herself!â Max just laughed and said âwell she will be learning from the world champion so chances are slimâ
Max went over and helped her, showing all the parts of the kart. She has gotten a couple gifts from uncle Charles, uncle Daniel and the rest of the drivers as they had all loved her
I saw max pick up the box I had put out last night that was labelled to him, he raised an eyebrow and then opened it. His face had dropped and then looked at mine for confirmation, i just nodded and he came over and kissed me and then my stomach
âEwwwâ Emmy showed a face of disgust
âEmmy youâre going to be a big sisterâ max said with eagerness
âHuhâ she asked
âSheâll get it laterâ max shrugged but then smiling back at me pulling me in for a kiss
âHow long have you knownâ he looked up at me, âsince last nightâ
âYou shouldâve told me, I wouldâve bought 2 kartsâ he laughed
I rolled my eyes
âMummy can I have pancakesâ emmy asked politely
âSchatz let mama rest, I will cook the pancakesâ max picked her up
âBut your pancakes taste ewâ she fake threw up and I laughed
âHey theyâre not that bad!â Max rolled his eyes starring at me
To be honest I couldnât have had a better Christmas, right here with our happy little family.
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Afar || M. verstappen

Summary: Max has been so busy with f1 it seems heâs forgotten about the girl at home waiting for him
Genre: angst
Warnings: max being a dickhead, no happy ending
Max X fem! Reader
It was nights like this, the nights Iâd sit in the dark on the couch watching tv, waiting for max to come home. Iâd sit in pity, god I didnât even know where he was anymore.
Tonight was our Third anniversary, I feel so stupid for even trying. I looked around at the dinner I had made for us, the candles, the effort into making the house look nice.
Now I was here 2:26 am, no sign of max, no calls, no texts. I was sitting, Mascara running down my face, crying in the dress I had been saving my money to buy especially for tonight.
But it was all for nothing. Everything was for nothing. I was on my second glass of red wine when I heard the door open to see a tipsy max walk through the door.
âY/n?â God I hated that, he stopped using pet names, he doesnât even know me anymore.
âMax, Iâve been waiting for 6 fucking hoursâ I pointed a finger at the candle lit dinner
âWhy? You never told me we had a date night? Donât fucking blame this on meâ he accused and I just laughed
âReally max? Itâs our anniversaryâ I looked at his blank face, he couldnât think of a reply
âWhere were you max?â Tears were now welling up in the eyes as I gave him a stare
âI was outâ he muttered, I rolled my eyes and gave a huff, I could see the guilt washing over on his face. He was about to answer but Iâve had enough.
âMax I canât do this anymore, do you even love me anymore?â I questioned, all the rage coming up
âOf course I do! I love you I promiseâ he was trying to defend himself but someone who loves me wouldnât stand me up, someone who loves me would care for me.
âNo you donât, youâre always at work max, I only ever get to see you on 2 days of the weeks and you spend those partying or something!â The tears were now streaming down
âYou canât tell me what to fucking to with my life y/nâ he was angry
âYou donât Call Me âBabyâ, or âSchatzâ anymore, also Iâm not telling you what to do I just wish youâd acknowledge meâ I whispered
âYouâre so dramaticâ he rolled his eyes and laughed at me
âYouâre not the man I fell in love withâ he looked pale, he had nothing to say
âI canât do this, us, we arenât meant to be togetherâ I walked past him. He grabbed my arm.
âY/n, baby, no, we can get through this, itâs just a small fight, Iâm sorry Iâm sorryâ
âJust fucking leave me aloneâ I whispered, walking out the door to leave him drowning in his sorrows.
âY/n please stop we can try againâ he shouted as I hopped in the cab I ordered around 5 minutes before our fight.
âGoodbye maxâ the cab driver stayed silent, understanding what was happening.
đď¸ (time skip) đď¸
âItâs okay y/nâ I sat in the arms of my bestfriend Isabelle
âWas i the problem?â I questioned rhetorically to myself
âNo y/n, he was a dickhead, youâre fine and amazing, now I have ice cream so do you wanna watch tv?â She passed me a tub of chocolate chip cookie dough and we ordered takeout.
Max POV
how could I let someone that I love so much just walk out the door. I let the love of my life go. How could I be so fucking stupid.
I was left in our shared home. Her perfume was still lurking around the place. The onyx shadows mimicking her as if she was still here but the house was silent, empty.
Itâs like a piece of my heart was ripped out. The feeling inside me was hollow. Felt like I had nothing left. The one thing that helped me, cared for me, celebrated with me, got me through my downfalls.
I miss her already, i miss her laugh and her smile. I want her back. I want her back so so bad. I would give anything for just one last kiss. I regret it
I Moped down to the floor, vodka in hand. Tonight was something I didnât want to ever remember.
đď¸ (time skip) đď¸ (1 month later)
Y/N POV
It was race weekend, and as much as I hate to admit it, I need to see him. I want to see him, so every Friday Saturday and Sunday I spend watching him, my love.
I spend my hours watching him from afar.
care for you || C Leclerc

Summary: Charles finds out about your mental health almost a year into dating
Charles X fem! Reader
Warnings: Bulimia, self harm, body dysmorphia, mentions of medication, panic attacks
Genre: angst, fluff
If you are dealing with this you are not alone, contact someone, a therapist, your legal guardian, teachers, friends, you donât have to suffer in silence, youâre loved. This fic is purely to comfort others struggling. If youâre triggered do NOT read
âMon amour, do you want to come out tonight with max and I for dinner? Kelly might be thereâ your boyfriend of 8 months had looked at you
âIâm okay, I had a big lunch go have funâ I whispered, kissing Charles on his cheek smiling as he put on his cologne.
âYou sure? Make sure to treat yourself whilst Iâm goneâ he kissed me on the lips and clutched my face as he walked out.
I looked down at a notification on my phone, it was from Instagram, a post of Charles and I together. I scanned the post as I looked at the comments.
âSheâs such a slut she doesnât deserve Charlesâ
âcan she kill herself alreadyâ
âSheâs so fatâ
The last comment made me feel Ill, Iâve been trying so hard to get the perfect body. I cant do this anymore, I donât want to do it anymore.
CHARLES POV
As I walked into the restaurant and spotted max I also spotted Kelly placed down in a seat next to him the couple smiling at me
âHi guys! Sorry y/n couldnât make it she said sheâs had massive lunch, she went out with you right Kelly?â I questioned
âOh um she didnât eat lunch? She said sheâd had a big breakfastâ I raised and eye brow, she was at mine for breakfast, she didnât want to eat cause she was running late for a meeting
Suddenly I felt ill, had she been starving herself? No, she canât be, she ate lunch with me yesterday. I felt my breath hitch.
Max Kelly and I had dinner together and it took like what seemed forever. I said my goodbyes and hopped in my car. My mind was racing. I couldnât think straight.
Was y/n okay? I donât know maybe she just wasnât hungry.
I opened the door to our apartment, she wasnât in the living room, food wrappers and containers were left around the kitchen, loads of them. I opened the bedroom door, still empty. Thatâs when I saw it, the most perfect girl doing something so horrible it made my stomach drop.
Y/N POV
After reading those comments something inside me just broke, I kept scrolling, it was addicting but it was all people just telling me what a horrible girl I am.
I am trying, i am trying to be perfect but itâs so hard, it really is.
Out of nowhere I find myself raiding my fridge eating everything in sight I can, I found myself indulging in cake, biscuits, pasta, cookies, everything. It lasted for hours too. The worst part is I wasnât even thinking about the consequences
Tears welling up in my eyes, my throat close up as I sank down onto the kitchen floor, cookie in hand, sobbing.
I took a walk of shame to the bathroom. I stuck my fingers down my throat and sobbed, the burning throat in the back of my feeling. Feeling worthless until my stomach felt empty.
âY/n? Mon ChĂŠrie? Where are -â I saw Charles, mouth agape at the sight he was looking at. My bloodied wrists, vomit in the toilet, chocolate around my face, crying my eyes out
âAyâ, he ran over rushing to the floor, I grabbed his shirt as my mascara stained it.
âY/n you cannot do this to yourself it is not healthyâ he whispered hugging me tight as I let out a sniff in response
âIâm sorryâ I quivered âno youâre not, why would you be sorry y/n. Donât be sorryâ he pulled me even closer
âLetâs talk about this, go sit on the bed.â My heartbeat rose, I donât really know if I wanna talk about it
âIâll be backâ is he planning our breakup? Does he think Iâm too mentally Ill for him, oh my god, heâs going to leave me
He came back with a self aid kit in hand, sitting down on the bed with me grabbing my wrists
âIs it okay if I lift up the jumper?â He asked softly as I nodded
He grabbed disinfectant, cleaned them and wrapped a bandage around it.
âMon amour, why are you doing this to yourself? Please be honest with me, have you eaten today?â He held my hand staring directly into my eyes.
âYesâŚâ I bit my lip waiting for his response, âthrowing it up doesnât count as eatingâ he looked down at my wrists
âThen no but I promise Iâll get better â i lied
âNo, not without help, youâre so perfect mon chèrie, I love you so much, youâre so pretty and kindâ he cuddled into me
âIt needs to stop, please promise me, I will pay for your therapist and you can tell me when youâre dealing with this stuff.â He looked at me and pleaded, a lot
I let out a laugh and nodded my head.
âI love you, I thought you would leave meâ I kissed him
âNever, not in my life would I even think about that, 8 months in and I can already see what our kids will look likeâ we both had a laugh
âWhy, can I ask what triggered it? If you donât mindâ he looked at me
âWell um Fans of yours have been making comments and I just-â
âMon amour, who am I dating?â He raised an eyebrow
âMeâŚâ
âRight, so those fake fans can fuck themselves, Iâm not dating them am I? I picked you cause youâre the most amazing woman Iâve ever seenâ he said so calmly
âI love you so so muchâ I made out with him my hands lost in his soft brown hair
âIâm glad, cause I care for youâ
Hii I have a request for Eddie Munson from stranger things, reader and Eddie are in a relationship but Eddie hang out a loooot with his friends for D&D ( Reader is friends with them too ) and reader feel upset and sad because he doesnât pay attention to her and maybe some days later she tell him about how she feel
Thanks :)

Of course I can!! i donât normally write stranger things or Eddie munson in particular but iâll try and let me know if anything is wrong or if i need to edit!! this is honestly just a dabble nothing too special
As always, english is not my first language!!
Warnings: Nothing honestly just fluff

The basement was dimly lit, filled with the sounds of laughter and the clatter of dice rolling against the table. I sat on the worn couch, surrounded by the chaotic energy of my boyfriend, Eddie Munson, and his friends as they dove into another session of Dungeons & Dragons. Eddieâs animated storytelling was captivating, and I couldnât help but smile at how his eyes lit up when he described the perilous quests and mythical creatures.
But as I watched him, a familiar heaviness settled in my chest. I loved seeing him passionate about the game, but it often felt like I was watching from the sidelines. His friendsâMike, Dustin, Lucasâwere fully engrossed, hanging on his every word, while I felt like an afterthought, the girl who just happened to be there.
âOkay, everyone! As you approach the cave, the air grows thick with tension. You can hear the distant growls of the beast lurking within,â Eddie announced, his voice rising dramatically. The guys leaned in closer, captivated.
I fidgeted with a snack from the table, trying to muster the courage to join in. âEddie, do you think we couldââ
âShh! This is the best part!â Dustin interrupted, eyes wide with excitement.
I bit my lip, retreating into silence. It was moments like this that made me feel invisible. I watched as Eddie laughed with his friends, their camaraderie a warm blanket around them, while I sat apart, feeling the chill of exclusion.
Later that night, after the game had wound down and the friends began to leave, I stepped outside into the cool night air. The stars twinkled above, but all I could think about was the emptiness I felt. I knew it was silly to feel this way; D&D was a huge part of Eddieâs life. But why did it have to take up all of his attention?
A few days later, I found myself in the garage with Eddie, who was strumming his guitar. The familiar sound brought me comfort, but I still felt a knot in my stomach. Taking a deep breath, I knew it was time to voice my feelings.
âHey, Eddie?â I said, leaning against the workbench. He looked up, a smile breaking across his face.
âHey! Just working on a new riff. You wanna hear it?â
âMaybe later,â I replied, trying to sound casual. âCan we talk for a minute?â
His smile faltered slightly. âSure, whatâs on your mind?â
I took a seat on an old crate, fiddling with the edges of my shirt. âItâs about⌠us.â
Eddieâs expression shifted to one of concern. âWhat about us?â
I hesitated, searching for the right words. âIâve been feeling a bit left out lately. You spend so much time with the guys and D&D, and I get that itâs important to you, but sometimes it feels like Iâm not really part of your life.â
His brow furrowed as he processed what I was saying. âI didnât know you felt that way. Iâm really sorry. I never meant to make you feel excluded.
I took a deep breath. âI love seeing you happy, but I miss having more time with you. Just us. It feels like we donât get enough of that anymore.â
Eddie leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. âI get it. Iâve been so caught up in being a Dungeon Master and making sure everyone is having fun that I havenât been paying attention to what you need. Iâm really sorry.â
My heart softened at his sincerity, but I still felt vulnerable. âItâs just that sometimes, I feel like Iâm just here, you know? Like Iâm cheering from the sidelines but not actually part of the game.â
He nodded slowly, his gaze intense. âThatâs totally fair. Iâve been focusing so much on the campaigns that I didnât realize how it was affecting you. I want you to be a part of it. You should come play with us.â
I looked at him, surprised. âReally? You think I could keep up with your wild adventures?â
âAbsolutely! Youâd be a fantastic player,â he said, his enthusiasm contagious. âWe could create a character together. Itâll be fun! I promise Iâll make time for us to hang out, just the two of us, too.â
I felt a rush of relief wash over me, and I couldnât help but smile. âYou mean it?â
âDefinitely. I want to make this work. Youâre not just my girlfriend; youâre my partner. I need you in my corner, both in and out of the game.â He reached for my hands, intertwining our fingers.
âThank you, Eddie,â I said, squeezing his hands. âI just want to feel like I matter to you, like Iâm more than just a spectator in your life.â
âYou matter so much to me,â he replied, his voice earnest. âYou always have. Iâll make sure you never feel left out again. How about we plan a night where itâs just us? We can grab some pizza, and then I can show you the campaign Iâve been working on.â
I laughed, feeling lighter. âPizza and D&D? what a date.â
âExactly! And I promise to give you the best adventure ever.â He grinned, his eyes sparkling with excitement. âJust wait until you meet my dragon! Sheâs fierce.â
âOkay, but if she tries to eat me, Iâm out, would much rather you eat me out,â I teased.
âoh yeah? iâd like that princess,â he said, his tone playful. âAnd who knows? Maybe your sexy badass character will end up saving the day.â
As we sat there in the garage, the sunlight streaming through the open door, I felt a warmth blossom in my chest. I knew it wouldnât always be perfect, but we would navigate this together, one day at a time
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I donât know how accurate this was⌠i havenât watched ST in a while⌠i hope you enjoyed though i felt the need to add a few explicit references itâs just who i am đ¤


