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Trying to grasp the situation Kimuri moved a hand to his jaw wincing on the pain as he tried to grasp just what was going on. Lunarre’s words barely registering for him. The air was getting less heavy meaning…they were moving away from the malevolence. But…

That wasn’t the right way. He needed to go further, a place with that much malevolence must have something related to what he’s looking for!

...Maybe...it was a risk he was willing to take.

Breathing deeper he looked to the ground as it moved. 

“…You’re going….the wrong way,” he muttered as he tried to steady is groggy mind. Internally wishing he had an arte to help himself right now. But healing wasn’t fully on his side.

It took Lunarre a moment to realise what the seraph’s words meant, and when he did, he exploded.

“You want to go back to the dragon?!” he shouted. “Are you fucking insane? No way in hell!”

Righteous anger. Lunarre knew the feeling well, but it was tinged with unease. He didn’t know if he could restrain Kimuri if the seraph got his strength back and decided to fight back. Right now his control over the situation was balanced on Kimuri remaining out of commission until they were far, far away.

Fuck. He hated this. Why was he going so far for one crazy old half-blind seraph? Since when had he lost sight of his vengeance? He hadn’t felt like this since...

“Just... shut up and let me concentrate!”

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sentence prompts ➝  poetry starters

‘  life— the thing that happens to us.  ’

‘  you owe no one your forgiveness.  ’

‘  how’s that for a happily ever after?  ’

‘  silence has always been my loudest scream.  ’

‘  when I die, do not waste a minute mouring me.  ’

‘  “no” is short for “fuck off.”  ’

‘  you shine brighter than all the starlight there has ever been or ever will be.  ’

‘  i bet you regret making an enemy out of me.  ’

‘  we cannot control what we remember  ’

‘  i don’t even believe in people.  ’

‘  it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are  ’

‘  i am a world of uncertainties disguised as a girl.  ’

‘  whatever it is that stirs your soul, listen to that. everything else is just noise.  ’

‘  i like the disaster of the night sky, stars spilling this way and that as if  they were upturned from a glass.  ’

‘  resist much, obey little.  ’

‘  be patient and tough; one day this pain will be useful to you.  ’

‘  i am a dreamer with empty hands and I like the chill.  ’

‘  i deserved someone who was willing to stay  ’

‘  you’re everywhere except right here and it hurts  ’

‘  time doesn’t obey our commands  ’

‘  girls like her were born in a storm.  ’

‘  only the brave and the broken are kind in this world.  ’

‘  people aren’t born sad; we make them that way.  ’

‘  some people are born with tornados in their lives  ’

‘  there is nothing scarier in their minds than a girl who knows the power of her flames.  ’

‘  tell them to be proud of every bit of themselves—  ’

‘  some are made of witchcraft and wolf and a little bit of vice.  ’

‘  these scars have never diminished your worth, they are the stories that make you whole.  ’

‘  and you say you are broken, but broken mirrors like you create the most beautiful patterns of light.  ’

‘  but what could you possibly see in her?  ’

‘  everything, I see everything in her, because the stardust that makes her is the same stardust that makes me.  ’

‘  did you really think she was a tender flower you could trample upon, and damage her very soul?  ’

‘  you clutter my mind  ’

‘  i close my eyes and see infinite galaxies  ’

‘  i long for a life i have control of  ’

‘  and all i have now are memories that feel like dreams  ’

‘  don’t be afraid of getting hurt  ’

‘  you have to fight to be alright  ’

You can delete this if it's too strange, but I suffer from depression and recently thoughts of suicide have made a nasty come back, I've been crying for 3 days and while I won't act on the thoughts they are there. I know Lunarre isn't exactly known for kindness, but could I have some encouraging words from him? I love him and it would make my day. I'm sorry if this is weird and dumb please delete it if you don't like it.

“The mind’s a wicked thing, isn’t it? It plays tricks, twists things, makes you see the world as a dark and evil place. A bit of good old anger, sadness and so on is good - healthy, but take it from me that if you keep it in, it grows and does more harm than good. 

That’s when you need others to help you see things as they are, not what the bad thoughts say they are. It’s tough, and more often than not you might think it’s better keepin’ it all in, but take it from me in the end even the people you wanted to protect by keeping quiet get hurt, because they love you and want more than anything for you to be happy. Family and friends would happily take on your troubles to help you see ‘em packing. When you all pull together, that’s when the magic happens. Corny, yes, but true. 

I was all alone, I only had pain and anger for comfort at night. I thought it made me stronger, I thought that’s what I really wanted from my life. But it was only after gaining that power that I realised I’d robbed myself of the thing that gave my soul peace - a family. I was so afraid of screwing up and lettin’ the boss and the others down, I kept it all to myself, and when it all got too much, I... well, I let the feelings consume me. 

All that time I could have talked to somebody, told ‘em how I felt, got them to understand, but I didn’t. I shut myself away, and then I ran away. For a time I thought I was satisfied with the power I got, but as I said the feelings that had caused me to become that creature did nothing to heal the pain. Being apart from others and stewing on them, finding crazy ways to forget it, only increased the ache of the loss of the thing I wanted most.

I got that back from other people - watching them all struggle against the odds, all bandin’ together, helpin’ one another, I felt hope I hadn’t felt in a long time. I felt I could still kick the asses of the demons that I thought had beaten me. They helped me realise what I was missing - companionship and purpose. Helpin’ Sorey and the others gave me purpose, and being around them made me remember how good it felt to be around other people. It’s wonderful to know there are others who are there for you and who’d do anything for you.

That’s why you can’t hide yourself away with those thoughts and those feelings. It’s times like these where the people you love need you just as much as you need them. You can band together and kick the butt of those thoughts. They can give you perspectives and options you might not have even thought were available to you. That way, no matter how many talks or tears it takes, you can breathe easier, you can feel a little lighter each time, and get back the strength you need to give those thoughts the what-for.

Because if I’m anything to go by, anybody can do it. The strength’s inside you, and no matter what life throws your way, you can throw everything you’ve got right back at it. Visualising that helps some - visualize kickin’ the shit out the depressive thoughts, crumpling them all up like pieces of paper and throwing them in the garbage. It helps get the confidence going, and that’s just one step you can take. One of many. You can do it!

Sometimes you need the help and support of others, and there’s never any shame in that. As long as you are happier for it, it was all worthwhile.

That’s all from me for now - hope I’ve said some things and given you some peace of mind. Don’t worry, and don’t be afraid to ask for help - be that from me or others. Your happiness matters - your life too.”