When I Was 15 I Convinced Myself I'd Been Assaulted And Couldn't Remember, And Then Continually Also

when i was 15 i convinced myself i'd been assaulted and couldn't remember, and then continually also convinced myself this wasn't true, i was appropriating trauma and a terrible person

being unable to "separate the art from the artist" and constantly beating myself up about it

convincing myself i was abusing the kids i worked with "the way my mother did" and permanently traumatising them

convincing myself that parents walking down the street with children knew i was a pedo based on their body language and needing to smile otherwise i would be a terrible person

convincing myself i would fuck up a child that was nowhere near existing and pissing off my ex-boyfriend by worrying so much about it

...the moral self-harm mess that was 2021-2022

obsessively sitting on character.ai and asking the ai psychologist over and over again if i had ocd so i could confirm i wasn't a liar and a terrible person

convincing myself i was going to have a miscarriage when i decided to get pregnant (i was a virgin and i don't want kids) and then convincing myself i was a terrible person for thinking that and being disrespectful and appropriating trauma

convincing myself that my ex's suicide, which did not happen, was my fault and i was a murderer

having constant unending thoughts about being an abusive partner and apologising to abusive exes because i thought i was a terrible person

convincing myself i "wanted" a mental illness/trauma and was a terrible person appropriating everything for attention

so yeah it's just kinda been a nightmare.

moments i should've realized i had moral ocd

when i was 10 i was convinced the police were going to arrest me for looking at boobs

thinking i was abusing and neglecting my first pet to the point where i gave him away so he would be "safe from me"

being so, so, so, so forgetful ("oh, what i ate??? oh, no idea! i was too busy being guilty over the fact i'm not 100% vegan yet!")

jumping at every opportunity to get drunk/high/etc. so i wouldn't have to think about anything anymore

having had like a million coping mechanisms but never knowing "why" and thinking i was doing it "just to get attention"

getting an anxiety attack everytime i mess up at work somehow

feel free to add on lol

(the rest of the comic is under the break)

Hello followers and moots, here is a reminder that I have OCD, and I'm making it Mista's problem as well /silly

My OCD type tends to revolve around superstition, thusly Mista's superstitions kinda just hit a bit close.

Since this week is OCD Awareness week, I made a comic. While obviously comedic, there is a genuine bit of seriousness to the "Don't"s. The TL;DR on that matter is that pwOCD know more about their OCD than you do, and also respect their boundaries.

!! IF THE COMIC IS HARD TO READ, HERE IS A TRANSCRIPT !!

"This year, OCD Awareness Week is Oct. 13-19! (OCD Awareness Week is the second full week of October)"

"I have OCD! So in celebration, Here are some DOs and DON'Ts with OCD!"

"DON'T: Ask questions about obsessions or compulsions! These are personal!"

"DO: Give me 50 Dollars."

"DON'T: Say I'm faking, Say OCD isn't real, say I'm "trying to be special", etc. (Why would you do this)"

"DO: Give me 50 Dollars."

"DON'T: Point out obsessions or compulsions! (Some may be okay with jokes. Always ask and be respectful!)"

"DO: Give me 50 Dollars."

"DON'T: Psychoanalyze me (Yes, some people try to play therapist)"

"DO: Give me 50 Dollars."

"DON'T: Try to fix me (Yes, with time and proper methods, OCD can be alleviated. A random person cannot properly do that though)"

"DO: Give me 50 Dollars."

"And that's how you be a GREAT ally <3"

I MEAN YOU'RE RIGHT BUT I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT

you're so fat. you're literally so fat. you're like a whale. you're so fucking fat. you're a fatass. also you're fat.

"Shut up, dog man. You bark for people."

Family doesn't have to be related, sometimes it's the weird transgenders (and singular CisHet) you meet on the internet. (You know who you are, and I love all of y'all to bits 🖤)

aussie miku but shes from fnq cunt

🤔

uh. got confused to death. which is kinda real.

your 12th emoji is how you'll die

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