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𝔻𝕒𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕖𝕕 - 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟜 - 𝕟𝕔𝕥 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕦

𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟛 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟝

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟜 : 𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕪 𝕗𝕠𝕦𝕣

𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕧 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕟𝕖𝕩𝕥

𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

❈★ 𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕟 ★❈

@conwunder

𝔻𝕒𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕖𝕕 - 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟚 - 𝕟𝕔𝕥 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕦

𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟙 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟛

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟚 : 𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕪 𝕥𝕨𝕠

𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕧 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕟𝕖𝕩𝕥

𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

❈★ 𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕟 ★❈

@conwunder

𝔻𝕒𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕖𝕕 - 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟠 - 𝕟𝕔𝕥 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕦

𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟟 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟡

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟠 : 𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕪 𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥

𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕧 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕟𝕖𝕩𝕥

𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

❈★ 𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕟 ★❈

@conwunder

𝙳𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚈𝚘𝚞 - 𝚌𝚑.𝟸 - 𝙷𝚊𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜

𝚌𝚑.𝟷 | 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 | 𝚌𝚑.𝟹

𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟸 : 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚘𝚏 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚖𝚎

“Good morning,” Donghuck smirks. “have fun last night?”  

You sit silently seething with rage, looking away from him, trying to figure out what really happened while you were drunk. 

“Why are you being so quiet now?” he asks with that smirk still plastered on his face. “I mean, you were screaming all last night.”

“What the hell did you do to me?” You snap.

“What? You were begging me for it,” Donghyuck laughs. “Don’t you remember, baby?” He reaches up and gently caresses your cheek. You instantly smack his hand away and without thinking you attempt to smack his face. “You asshole,” you scream, fighting back tears.

Donghyuck grabs both of your wrists, pinning them down above your head, “does this feel familiar?” he asks with his classic shit eating grin on his face. “Or do you need me to refresh your memory?”

That comment crosses the line, he went too far. You now remember everything you despise in that man. “You asshole,” you yell as you struggle to break free from his grip. Donghyuck couldn’t help but laugh, amused by your reaction. He releases your wrists assuming you sustained enough embarrassment for one day. You quickly hop out of bed, realizing you were still completely naked.

“I don’t mind looking at you like this,” Donghyuck winks.

His words were disgusting but you couldn't think of a comeback for something so foul. You grab your clothing, quickly dressing before running out of his room with your shoes still in your hand. You slam the door behind you as you exit, hoping it'll deter Donghyuck from following you but unfortunately, he does whatever he wants and is closely behind. 

You spot a younger man that you don’t recognize sitting alone in the garage, eating what appears to be cereal. Although it doesn’t make a difference to you who he is or what he hears, all you know is you need to get as far away from the asshole as possible. 

“Get me two bowls for cereal,” Donghyuck orders as you feel him grab your wrist from behind, stopping you in your tracks and forcing you to face him. “Where the hell are you going?”

“It’s none of your business,” you snap, not wanting to look at him. You harshly pull your arm away, attempting to walk away.

“Hey, I’m talking to you nicely here,” he huffs, quickly grabbing your arm again.

“And why are you all of a sudden being nice?” you ask, starting to get angrier. Angry isn't the best word to describe what you are feeling but it's close enough. “Why? Trying to be my knight in shining armor? Huh? Who the hell offers breakfast after a night like that?” You pull your arm away from his grip once again.

Donghyuck, becoming irritable, looks around searching for the right words. “No, I’m not trying to be a fucking hero. I just need you to understand that I will kill you if you tell anybody about what happened.”

‘The nerve of this man’ you thought. Who does he actually think he is?

“Don’t you worry,” you say before thinking it through. “An embarrassing night like that…I wouldn’t dream of reliving it by telling anyone.”

You turn and walk away leaving Donghyuck behind lost for words. No one ever talks to him that way, he can't believe that you have the balls to do it, and so eagerly as well. You walk down the street attempting to order an Uber.

When you finally get home to the safety of your dorm, you want to kiss the floor. You had never been so happy to be at home. You immediately undress, turning on the shower. You step inside your shower hoping to erase all of the memories of your drunken mistake. You feel disgusting by both your choices and actions. How could you have made such poor decisions? How could you allow yourself to get so drunk that you didn’t even know you were with the man you hated the most? It wasn’t Jisung, it was Donghyuck the whole night and this was something you now have to live with from here on out. You're finding it difficult to handle the emotions any longer and the floodgates begin to open up. Tears start to stream down your face and you fall to the floor of the shower, the hot water burning your skin as you sulk in your self-loathing. Once the water gets cold, you turn off the shower, dry your tears, and attempt to pull yourself together. You throw on some lounging clothing and lay down on your sofa. You know you should attend class but must avoid Donghyuck at all costs.

You look down at your phone, debating on whether you should call your mom when you hear people talking. Their voices are so clear that you wonder if people are on your balcony.

“Oh come on Yeji, I’m so sorry.”

That voice sounds so familiar. But it's not possible, it just can't be him.

“Please don’t be mad at me. I’ll make it up to you, I promise.”

You slowly sit up. That’s Donghyuck’s voice. But why is he on your balcony? You creep outside, noticing Donghyuck and some girl on the balcony next to yours.

“And how are you planning on making it up to me exactly?” Yeji asks, with a smile on her face. You can tell she was enjoying teasing him, which makes you feel something that you cannot explain.

“I’ll do whatever you tell me to,” he smiles back.

You lean over the railing trying to act natural, but you can't deny that you want to see what's happening.

“Oh I’m so sorry,” the girl says while looking at you. “I didn’t know you were fully moved in or we wouldn’t have been so loud.”

You are caught off guard and don't know how to respond. You want to play it cool and not show the wrong emotions or act suspiciously.

“It’s ok, she’s the one who well…” Donghyuck says getting closer to the girl and whispers. You can't hear what's said which makes you uncomfortable.

The girl smiles politely, “Well I’m Yeji. I’m so glad I finally get to meet my new neighbor.”

You smirk, knowing Donghyuck must be worried about how this is going to play out. That alone brings you joy. “I’m Y/N. I didn’t realize that Donghyuck would be able to get a girl like you.”

He wraps his arm around his girlfriend’s shoulder, “You always do this, Y/N... you go after men who are already taken.”

You take an exaggerated breath before speaking, “I wish the best to you two,” you smile before walking back inside of your apartment. The smile instantly drops from your face, once inside.

You plop back down on the sofa, dozing off to sleep in no time. You wake to the sound of your phone going off, after seeing that it's your best friend calling, you silence the call and continue to lay in silence. You aren’t ready to confess anything to your friends, if you say it out loud there is no more denying the truth.

After a full day of self-loathing, you decide to get up. You have to try to distract yourself from everything bad in your life. You get dressed and head over to the university pool to get some much needed exercise.

You are hoping to have the pool to yourself. Most students are either studying or drinking by this time of the day. But as soon as you walk out of the locker room you realize your expectation is shortly lived.

“I can do it myself,” Jisung whines. Even though he rejected you, you still can't shake your feelings. You still want him and you still want him to love you.

“Don’t be so stubborn,” Karina says. “I want to do it for you.”

“I’m not a baby, Karina,” Jisung insists.

“I didn’t say you are,” she snaps. “Now give me your arm.”

“Fine,” Jisung hesitantly agrees, putting his arm out for Karina to wrap with an ace bandage.

You walk towards them, listening to their little exchange, suffering in silence.

“See, it’s so much better when you let someone else do the wrapping. It gets tighter,” Karina explained, looking at Jisung with so much love in her eyes. 

“Thank you,” Jisung smiles. “You always take such good care of me.”

“That’s only because you take such good care of me,” Karina giggles, placing her hand on his leg.

You watch as the jealousy continues to grow. You can't stop thinking about that night.

“Because the only person I have feelings for is Karina,” Jisung stated.

You feel the tears welling up again and you have to look away. This is too painful. You sit on the pool's edge and slowly lower your body into the water wanting to wash away the memories. All the little moments you shared with Jisung running through your mind. It hurts so much, you want to forget it all.

Donghyuck spends the evening attempting to show his girlfriend how sorry he is for standing her up the other night. He feels guilty for a multitude of reasons but is only able to express the guilt for abandoning his beloved girlfriend.  They end their evening inside her dorm room. Yeji is busy doing her nighttime routine as Donghyuck sits alone on her bed, patiently waiting. His phone goes off, signaling he received a text from his friend, Jaemin.

JAEMIN: Don't forget tomorrow is Jisungs birthday. You can’t bail on us

Donghyuck exhales out of frustration before setting his phone down on the bed next to him. He looks at his girlfriend, almost afraid to tell her of his prior engagement. 

“I had so much fun with you tonight, muffin,” Donghyuck smiles, trying to ease into the bad news.

“Me too,” Yeji returns the smile. “Dinner was delicious.”

“It really was,” he nods. “So...tomorrow is Jisung’s birthday.”

The smile drops from Yeji's face as she turns around in her chair to look at him. “Ok and?”

“Well, I’m going to take Jisung out for his birthday with the boys. We gotta do something special for him this year but you can come with, if you want,” Donghyuck explains.

“No, that’s ok,” Yeji sighs. “I have a project that I need to work on with Yuna anyway so I’ll just go over to her place. You have fun.”

“Do you want help?” he offers, displaying a goofy smile.

Yeji laughs, “I want to do well on the assignment so it would probably be best if you didn’t help.”

“Hey,” Donghyuck grins. “I’m doing a lot better in school these days.”

“Yea I know, but it’s your friend’s birthday, you don’t want to be tied down with your girlfriend and miss it,” Yeji insists.

“Ok fine, how about this,” Donghyuck starts. “Tomorrow night, I won’t stay out long. Then, we can meet back here for a little cuddle time.”

Yeji smiles widely, nodding her head in response. She stands and walks over to her bed, sitting down next to her boyfriend. “I’m really tired, I think I’m ready to go to bed.”

Donghyuck smirks, pulling the covers down ready to climb inside the bed, “yea me too,” he says eagerly.

“Nooooo,” Yeji state. “You know you can’t sleep in my bed. We’ve talked about this.”

“But baby, we’ve been together for over a year now…”

“Are you saying that I’m not worth waiting for?” Yeji asks.

“Of course you're worth the wait but how much longer are you going to make me wait?” Donghyuck whines.

“I don’t have an answer for that,” Yeji sighs, lightly pushing him off her bed so she could sleep alone.

Donghyuck leans down and kisses her forehead before crawling on the sofa and attempting to get some sleep.

Emotions are a bitch, and currently you are dealing with an infinite amount of them. The heartbreak alone would be hard enough but now you added self-pity, loathing, and shame to the slew. 

You walk around the university grounds aimlessly, simply looking for a distraction of sorts. You end up standing on the bridge of hope, looking down at the water below. You stare down fixated on the currents and how peaceful the scene is. You move closer to the edge…

𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚟 | 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 | 𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝

𝔻𝕒𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕖𝕕 - 𝕔𝕙.𝟚𝟘 𝕡𝕥.𝟙 - 𝕟𝕔𝕥 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞 𝕤𝕞𝕒𝕦

𝕔𝕙.𝟙𝟡 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕡𝕥.𝟚

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟚𝟘 : 𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕪

𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕧 | 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 | 𝕟𝕖𝕩𝕥

𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

❈★ 𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕟 ★❈

@conwunder

𝙳𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚈𝚘𝚞 - 𝙲𝚑.𝟷 - 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢'𝚜 𝚊 𝚋*𝚝𝚌𝚑

𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 | 𝚌𝚑.𝟸

Pounding shot after shot, beer after beer, anything it takes to forget. To forget all of the hurt, pain, and flat out disappointment. Why won’t he love you? What was wrong with you? You knew you  could make Jisung happy, happier than anyone else could ever do. Why couldn’t he see this? What was so great about her? You fight the tears back and continue to drown your sorrows in the free flowing liquor, the only thing left to find solace in. 

Somehow you ended up in the bathroom hugging the porcelain throne, uncontrollably spewing all of the contents in your stomach. You knew you were over doing it tonight, but you couldn’t control yourself. Emotions were something you never handled well. And this, well this night was probably one of the worst nights of your life.

You closed your eyes, instantly reliving the awful events from earlier in the evening.

Jisung was climbing out of the pool, glistening as the water beamed off of his perfectly toned body. He was total perfection and you couldn’t deny or contain your feelings for this man any longer.

“I love you, Park Jisung,” you blurted out before realizing you actually said the words. 

Jisung’s head dropped. You knew he’d be surprised by your sudden outburst but ultimately you hoped that he would respect your determination, slight desperation and that alone would win him over.

“Don’t,” he stated, bluntly. “You’re wasting your time.”

That was when the dagger was shoved deep into your chest. You were able to feel all of those earth shattering emotions as if it was the first time. You reopened your eyes, a tear escaping, streaming down your cheek. The vomiting continued until there was nothing left. 

You wiped your mouth with the sleeve of your hoodie. You know how utterly disgusting that is to do but there is literally no one left to impress. You accept the fact that you are going to be alone forever, so why even try at this point. You push yourself up using the vomit covered toilet as support, stumbling out of the stall. Everything was spinning, and you knew full and well that you weren’t walking straight. Anyone with eyes would be able to see that you were clearly intoxicated. The door opened and there he was. You slightly fell towards him, uncontrollably.

You lay comfortably in the bed, sprawled out, finally happy in your state of semi-unconsciousness. The door slowly opens, the squeaking hinges disturbing your peace. You open your eyes, quickly getting out of bed and stumbling towards the man who entered the room. You are still quite intoxicated and still aren't stable on your feet. You stumble and fall into his arms.

“Where am I?” you ask, trying to stand up on your own.

“My room,” he says with a visible smirk on his face. “I took pity on you since you looked like a drunken dog.”

“Were you worried about me, Jisung?” you ask, placing your hand onto his shoulder in an attempt to stabilize yourself.

“Oh you…” he sighs, grabbing your waist. “You’re still drunk, aren’t you?”

“Jisung,” you whisper, staring deeply into his eyes. “May I ask you something?”

You quickly drop onto your knees pulling the boy down with you so he would still be eye to eye.

“Will you be mine?” you ask, desperately. “I’ll do my best to value you.”

He didn’t respond but the look on his face told you that he desired you too. You stare deeply into his eyes, searching for the confirmation you desperately want and need. You pull the boy onto the bed, hopping on top, straddling him between your legs. You lean down pressing your body tightly against his, you want more than anything to be able to press your lips tightly against his. For some reason, he still didn’t resist. You inch closer, slowly shutting your eyes waiting for the moment your lips would finally meet.

One day ago…

Park Jisung was standing in front of a book shelf in the university’s library.  He was peacefully scanning the books, obviously searching for a specific title.

You smiled when you spotted your crush all alone. There was no one around to get in the way and you could have some much needed alone time with the one man that drove you absolutely insane.

“What book are you looking for?” you happily asked, surprising him as you walked up from behind.

“Oh,” Jisung smiled when he realized it was you. You noticed his cute bunny reaction and how uncomfortable he became in that moment, clearly showing he has some sort of feelings toward you. “Just a book to help with basic calculus. I’m not doing so well in that class.”

“I’m great at calc,” you boasted, with a huge stupid smile on your face. “Let me help you with that.”

Jisung froze for a moment before speaking, “no, it’s ok. Someone already gave me a list.”

You watched as Jisung quickly started to walk to another shelf. You took a deep breath before following again. 

“Who? Dr. Karina?” you huffed, trying to hide your disdain but failing miserably.

Jisung slowly nodded, turning to look at you with a little smile on his face. Even though you knew he had a slight connection with her, it still stung. You’re selfish and you wanted him all to yourself.

“Jisung…she may be better than me at school shit,” you smirked, trying to make seductive eyes in his direction. “But I’m quite talented at other things.”

Donghyuck walked around the bookshelf, forcefully placing his body in between you and your ‘love’. 

“Talented at being annoying?” he hissed, staring intently into your eyes. “Can’t you see that my friend doesn’t want to talk to you?”

“It’s none of your damn business,” you growled, cocking your head.

“I am your senior,” Donghyuck snapped as he flicked your forehead with his fingers. It caused you to wince but only because you didn’t expect him to touch you.

“Am I supposed to be scared?” you asked, displaying a visible scowl on your face.

“Hey Hyuck,” Jisung said, grabbing his friend by the arm to pull him back. “You’re disturbing the other people in here, let’s just go.”

Donghyuck glared for a moment and you were waiting for some unnecessary, unneeded words to come out of his mouth but to your surprise he silently turned around and followed Jisung. Before he was out of sight completely, Donghyuck turned to make eye contact while pointing a forceful finger in your direction. “Leave my friend the fuck alone.” He stared for a moment longer for impact then turned and disappeared out of sight, leaving you standing alone very aggravated. For some reason Donghyuck had an issue with you and you didn’t understand why. You never did anything to him personally and yet he was always so nasty. But you weren’t going to let some asshole deter your feelings for the man you knew was your soulmate.

Donghyuck followed Jisung out of the library and then the two boys went their separate ways. Donghyuck had a lunch date with the only thing that made him happy these days, his loving girlfriend, Yeji. He practically ran to the lunch table where they meet almost every day, smiling eagerly when he saw Yeji already sitting at their table.

“Sorry I’m a little late, babe,” Donghyuck said before kissing his girlfriend’s face and taking his rightful seat next to her.

“It’s ok, Hyuckie,” Yeji smiled, not looking up from her phone. She was always distracted with her phone, never seeming to pay him enough attention but just the fact that she was his was enough, for now.  

“I was in the library with Sung and that annoying bitch was harassing him again,” Donghyuck explained to his clearly uninterested girlfriend. “Jisung is too nice so I had to step in.”

“Oh ok,” she nodded.

“If she was a guy, I would have knocked her out for the way she was acting,” Donghyuck continued.

“She just follows her heart, Hyuckie,” Yeji whined, finally setting her phone on the table, momentarily.

“But…” Donghyuck exhaled slowly out of frustration, pondering how to word what he wanted to say properly without upsetting his love too much. “Jisung made it clear that he doesn’t like her.”

Yeji smiled, gently touching Donghyuck’s cheek, “Well, I remember there was once somebody who was coming to see me every day, regardless of what I said.”

“No, that’s not the same thing,” Donghyuck argued with a goofy smile on his face, just happy that she touched him. “You weren’t annoyed by me, were you?”

“You’re right,” she smiled while nodding. “But I will get annoyed if you don’t take me out to a wonderful dinner tonight.”

“Tonight?” Donghyuck repeated which she nodded in response. “I have plans with Jaemin and friends.”

Yeji turned away, crossing her arms and pouting, “you told me that you would have more time for me after your report was finished.”

“How about this?” Donghyuck said readjusting in his seat. “I’ll be at your place before ten. I promise.”

“I don’t believe you,” Yeji continued pouting as she picked up her phone again.

“But I promise,” he insisted.

Yeji smiled, shaking her head no, “I don’t believe you.”

“I promise,” he repeated again and she shook her head again, playfully.

“So are you coming tonight?” Donghyuck asked while looking down at his friend who was hanging onto the side of the university’s pool.

“Oh boy,” Jisung winced at the thought, reaching up to scratch his head while contemplating his answer. “I don’t know, I have practice early in the morning so I probably should just stay in tonight.”

You started walking out from the locker room, noticing the two boys talking. You weren’t trying to eavesdrop but you needed to talk to Jisung and you definitely didn’t want to do it with that asshole, Donghyuck, there.

“Oh come on,” Donghyuck whined. “You don’t need to practice, you’re already the best we have. Plus you NEVER hang out with us anymore.”

“You ALWAYS use that as an excuse,” Jisung rolled his eyes before taking a dramatically deep breath. “Fine, I’ll go.”

Donghyuck clapped his hands, victoriously, “that’s what I’m talking about. I’ll get ready and I’ll see you there. Okay?”

“Yes yes,” Jisung nodded, clearly irritated but still smiling at how childish his friend can be.

Donghyuck turned around, seeing you standing there, patiently waiting your turn to talk to Jisung. His demeanor instantly shifted. You still didn’t understand why you had that kind of effect on him but that wasn’t important at the moment. Donghyuck headed over in your direction and you weren’t sure what was going through his mind but if looks could kill, you certainly wouldn’t be taking another breath on this planet.

“Hyuck, stop that,” Jisung ordered about to climb out of the pool. “She’s here to practice, that’s all.”

Donghyuck stopped for a moment, turning to look at Jisung then back at you. He looked as though he was going to say something, ignorant, you're sure but, for some reason nothing was said. He stormed off, without even saying goodbye to his friend. Jisung stared at Donghyuck, making sure he continued to leave before lifting his body out of the pool. You watched as the water dripped off of his perfect figure. He grabbed a towel from the bench and started walking in the opposite direction of where you were standing.

“Hey Jisung,” you called out, silently panicking because whenever he looks at you, you can feel your body losing control.

Jisung slowly turned around, “what?” he asked.

“Can I be honest with you?” you wondered as the panic really started to set in. You felt antsy and scared but also excited because deep down you truly believed you already knew what the outcome was going to be.

“What’s up?” Jisung asked, smiling so sincerely he looked like he was ready to laugh.

Laugh at you? That can’t be, Jisung isn’t the type of person to laugh at someone in this situation.

“I love you, Park Jisung,” you blurted out before realizing you actually said those words.

Jisung’s head dropped. You knew he’d be surprised by your sudden outburst but ultimately you hoped that he would respect your determination, slight desperation and that alone would win him over.

“Don’t,” he stated, bluntly. “You’re wasting your time.”

“Why?” you asked, heartbroken, not only by his words but also the tone. “Karina likes you. And I like you too. Is there any difference?”

Jisung hesitated for a moment, “there is. I like her, not you.”

“Can’t you just give me a chance?” you pleaded, trying to hold back the tears that you could feel forming in your eyes. “I promise you, I’m going to make you like me one day.”

“You can’t do that because the only person I have feelings for is Karina,” Jisung stated, sounding more confident in his words than he has ever in the past. 

You wanted to say more, you wanted to ask what was wrong with you but the words wouldn’t come out. Jisung slowly turned and walked away leaving you behind broken into little pieces. He didn’t seem to care in the least and that hurt more than his words could ever.

You make your way to the local bar where everyone from the university hangs out. The only thing to do at this point is to drown your feelings with as much alcohol that you can consume. Shot after shot, beer after beer, anything it takes.

Donghyuck was sitting at a table across the bar with his friends. Happily drinking in their own world.

“Come on, make a toast,” Jaemin said, raising his glass up signaling for his other friends to join him in the act.

“Alright alright,” Donghyuck said, raising his glass. He cleared his throat dramatically before speaking. “Here’s to all that wish us well and those that don’t can go to hell.”

“CHEERS!” everyone shouted out in unison, clicking their glasses together before chugging their full pints of beer.

“Mark is paying for today,” Jeno announced.

“Of course, my mom gave me a lot of money last night,” Mark boasted.

“Your mom?” Chenle asked. “Don’t you mean your sugar momma?”

“Yea same thing,” Mark shrugged, confused by the difference.

Jaemin zoned out of the conversation, noticing Donghyuck chug his entire beer. “Are you in a rush?” he asked.

“Indeed I am,” Donghyuck nodded. “Right now my girl is at home sulking.”

“Whoa what is this?” Jeno asked, with judgment written all over his face. 

“You’re drinking with friends, not with a bunch of girls,” Chenle laughed, joining in on the judgment.

“Right,” Soojin chimed in, amused by her friend acting whipped.

“The thing is,” Donghyuck smiled, sitting back in his chair while folding his arms across his chest. “Single people like you couldn’t possibly understand my situation.”

“Ouch,” Soojin gasped, placing a hand on her chest, pretending to be insulted. “You’re hurting my feelings.”

“You’re not the only one who has someone,” Mark chimed in. 

“That’s right,” Chenle nodded with a shit eating grin on his face. “Mark has his mom.”

“That’s right,” Mark boasted, proudly. “I have my sugar mommy.”

“It’s sugar momma,” Donghyuck laughed. “And that is not the same thing.”

“What about Jisung?” Jeno asked. “I thought he was coming?”

“Yea I texted him,” Soojin said, pulling her phone out to make sure she didn’t receive a text back. “You better call him, Hyuck.”

Donghyuck picked up his phone to call his friend to find out where he was at. “Hey, where you at?” he listened to his friend’s explanation on the other line, with the occasional “uh huh” signaling he understood. “Alright man, get some rest, I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” He disconnected the call, placing his phone down onto the table, trying to hide the mix of emotions he was feeling. He smiled at his friends who were currently staring at him, waiting for an explanation. “Um, so Jisung isn’t feeling well so he’s just going to stay home tonight.”

“Awwww he always bails on us anymore,” Mark complained.

“Leave him alone,” Soojin snapped. “The championships are coming up soon and he does need some rest.”

“What are you his mom?” Mark asked, rolling his eyes.

“I’m sure as hell ain’t your mom,” she laughed.

Donghyuck looked around the bar, annoyed by so much at this point, his eyes caught yours when you just happened to look up from your own battle.  You cocked your head, refusing to look away. That asshole did not want to mess with you, not the way you were feeling tonight. But he was refusing to look away. Maybe it was to prove a point, whatever the reason you didn’t care.

You cocked your head and lipped, “what the fuck are you looking at?”

“WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!” Donghyuck yelled, standing up abruptly. Jaemin quickly grabbed his arm, pulling him back down into his seat.

“What’s going on?” Mark asked.

“Calm down, Donghyuck,” Jeno ordered.

“Why were you staring at her like that anyways,” Jaemin asked.

Donghyuck didn’t respond, he sat silent slowly sipping his beer. 

“I’ll be back, I gotta take a piss,” Donghyuck said before standing up and making his way into the men’s room. As he was peeing, he thought he heard the sounds of someone vomiting. When he was done he turned and noticed you in your current state of despair while hugging the porcelain throne. Donghyuck almost offered you help but he knew you would deny any assistance, especially coming from him. He turned around shaking his head, walking to once again join his friends.

“Alright guys, this is my last drink,” he smiled, sitting down in his seat.

“Cheers,” everyone said in unison and clinking their glasses for the last time of the evening.

“Actually, you guys should stay,” Donghyuck announced, looking around.

“I think we’re done anyways,” Soojin said, looking at everyone else who were also nodding their heads.

“Let’s all leave together,” Mark smiled.

“Yea next time when Jisung can come, we’ll party till the sun comes out,” Jaemin suggested.

“Yea ok,” Donghyuck nodded with a small smile on his face, appreciating how good of people his friends were, at times. “So I’m done for today, my girl is waiting.”

“Alright,” Chenle said, waving goodbye, “we’ll see ya.”

You finally stumbled out of the bathroom, heading towards the exit. You had more than enough and you just had to get home. There were shady looking men standing near the door. Normally you wouldn’t trust going around guys like that but in this state, the only urgency you felt was to get the hell home.

“Hey sexy lady,” the one man smirked, aggressively grabbing the crotch of his pants. “I have something you would like.”

“Ugh,” you responded with total utter disgust. If you wouldn’t have already vomited everything in your stomach, this surely would have made you get sick.

“That’s no way to talk to a man, bitch,” he growled, grabbing a hold of your wrist. He squeezed so tight you were certain it would leave bruises.

You instinctively smacked him across his face, “fuck you.”

Without hesitation the man smacked you back causing you to fall to the ground. He walked towards you snarling, “yes, I will be fucking you.”

Donghyuck ran over shoving the man, “back the fuck up,” he growled.

“Who the fuck are you?” the man snarled.

“I’m her friend and I’m taking her home,” Donghyuck announced, helping you up off the ground. “Come on, let’s go.”

He wrapped his arm around your waist to hold you up so he could guide you outside.

“You’re helping me, Jisung?” you asked.

“You drank way too much,” Donghyuck induced. He let go of you and pushed you onto your car that was sitting in the parking lot. “Get home yourself, my girl is waiting for me.”

As Donghyuck started to walk away, you panicked.  “Hey where are you going?”

Donghyuck didn’t respond, he turned around once when he reached his motorcycle to see you slowly fall down the side of your car onto the ground. Your eyes felt so heavy and you were just over this night. You leaned down laying your head on your gravel pillow. Hopefully something happens to you during the night and you wouldn’t open your eyes in the morning. It has to be better than dealing with these awful feelings.

Donghyuck turned to get onto his motorcycle, hesitating. Even though you two didn’t get along he'd feel guilty if something bad happened to you. He turned, walked over and picked you up off of the ground with little to no resistance. He gently placed his only helmet on your head making sure it was nice and tight.

“Jisung, thank you for this,” you mumbled as you climbed on the back of his bike. 

Donghyuck grabbed your arms, placing them around his waist, “hold on tight, ok?”

“I’ll hold on to you forever, Jisungie,” you said, resting your head against Donghyuck’s back. You close your eyes, feeling like you're in a dream, holding onto him with everything you had left in you.

Donghyuck pulled the motorcycle inside a garage on the outskirts of town. He quickly hopped off and turned to assist you. He pulled the helmet off of your head, placing it back onto his bike. He then helped you off, so you wouldn’t lose your balance and fall.

“Is this your home, Jisungie?” you ask, playfully hitting his chest. In your mind you performed this move seductively but in reality you look like a buffoon who is clearly way too intoxicated.

Donghyuck shakes his head at the state that you’re in then helps you up a set of stairs leading into a bedroom. He attempted to drop you onto his bed but you pulled him down with you. You’re not going to let him go that easily. He quickly sat up and you followed suit, wrapping your arms around his neck.

“Won’t you sleep with me?” you begged. You would never beg for something like this while sober but clearly you weren’t thinking straight. Donghyuck attempted to pull away with a grunt of fake disgust.

“Why are you disgusted by me?” you asked, attempting to stare into his eyes. “Huh, Jisungie?”

Donghyuck panicked, pushing away from your grip, “Yes I am,” he grunted, pushing you back onto his bed. You wanted to sit back up but your body wouldn’t cooperate, you started to fall victim to the sandman.

Donghyuck watched you for a few seconds while he took off his jacket, throwing it onto a chair in the room. He walked outside of his bedroom leaving you alone in his bed, walking back downstairs to the garage. He pulled his cell phone out of his pants pocket, seeing that he had twelve missed calls. “Fuck,” he grunted before dialing back the girlfriend that he loved but stood up to help the girl that he couldn’t stand.

“What the hell, Hyuck, where are you?” Yeji asked immediately once she answered the phone.

“I’m at home,” he hesitated. “Well, it’s kind of a long story but I can’t come over tonight. I’m really sorry, baby.”

Yeji sat silent, not understanding his reasons for why he didn’t want to see her. 

“Are you mad at me, baby?” Donghyuck asked, holding his breath, scared to hear her answer.

Yeji exhaled deeply before responding, “no, I guess not.”

“Really?” Donghyuck asked, surprised.

“I’m really tired, I’m just going to go to bed now,” she sighed as she quickly hung up her phone.

“Goodnight, baby, I love you,” Donghyuck expressed before realizing the call was already disconnected. He attempted to call her back a few times with no answer. “Damn it, I shouldn't have helped her. I should have just left her there.” He grabbed a beer out of the fridge and chugged it, then another, and another. By the time he was finally done drinking, he wasn’t quite as upset. He made his way back to his bedroom where you were still laying in his bed. You heard the door close, waking you from your slumber. You stretched out, rubbing your eyes, in shock that Jisung was here with you, wherever here was. You stood up, stumbling over towards your love, reaching out for him, “where are we?”

“My room,” Donghyuck responded, fighting off your advances. “I took pity on you since you looked like a drunken dog.”

“Were you worried about me, Jisung?” you asked, placing your hand onto his shoulder in an attempt to stabilize yourself.

“You’re still drunk, aren’t you?” Donghyuck snapped, grabbing your waist.

“Jisung,” you whispered, staring deeply into his eyes. “May I ask you something?”

“No,” Donghyuck snapped, pushing you out of his comfort zone.

“Please,” you begged.

“What is it, damn it, ” he asked annoyedly, grabbing your shoulder, pulling you in closer to his face, trying to show you how irritated he currently was. “If I was Jisung, what would you ask me?”

“You,” you whispered, wanting so badly to kiss him. “I want you, Jisung.” You dropped down to your knees pulling the boy down with you so he would still be eye to eye.

“Would you be mine?” you ask, desperately. “I’ll do my best to value you.” There it was the moment you have been waiting for, you move closer, inching your lips towards his.

“I’m not…” Donghyuck starts, attempting to pull away from you but you were not going to give up that easily. You pull the boy onto the bed, hopping on top, straddling him between your legs. You lean down pressing your body tightly against his, wanting more than anything to be able to press your lips tightly against his. “Sto…”

“Please,” you quickly interrupted him. “I’m begging you, give me just tonight and I won’t bother you anymore.”

Donghyuck didn’t respond, you stare intently into each other’s eyes. You could feel that he did want you at that moment. You slowly lower your face closer to his, gently placing your lips against his. The taste of beer stained his lips but that was the best tasting beer you ever had in your life. You could feel the passion while he kissed you back which only drove you more insane. You made your way to his neck, lightly kissing and sucking, playfully teasing him. Donghyuck turned his head, blocking you from his neck, forcing your lips to meet again. He gently rolled you over, crawling on top of you. He pulled away, lifting his shirt up over his head, throwing it onto the floor. You sat up, needing to feel his lips again, grabbing at his belt, attempting to get it out of the way. Donghyuck let out a slight chuckle at your struggle, pushing your hands away and loosened the buckle and his jeans. He slid out of the unnecessary clothing kicking them onto the floor as well. He gently removed your clothing, throwing them onto the pile with his. He lowered you back down onto his bed, running his hand over your smooth skin. This was the moment you have always wanted and it felt perfect.

The morning light peeked through the blinds, disturbing your peaceful sleep. You open your eyes and even though your head was throbbing you are still ecstatic. You finally had your chance with the man you love and you are positive that after what you two shared that Jisung is going to be yours forever. You feel his hand lightly touch your hair which makes you smile.

 “Jisungie,” you whisper before turning over to look at your love. Your smile instantly drops from your face. “What the fuck,” you panic, sitting up and covering your still naked body with the sheet that was on his bed.

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