Keeping Everything Inside

keeping everything inside

thoughts and feelings

my mind's running wild

moving so fast I can't tell what I'm thinking

problems of mine, others and the worlds

it's too much for a little girl

books to make my head blank

music to drown out the noise

to keep the monsters away

but they don't

when I'm alone and going to sleep

they don't stay away

no,they come to play

make my stomach sick

my mind race

but there's no finish line

two pills to go away

to go numb and dream the night away

only for everything to come back the next day.

PTSD

I have PTSD.

I can't stand loud noises.

I heard my mom being hit.

now I flinch at the sound of banging.

I saw my mom being choked.

now I feel scared and threatened.

I was yelled at.

now I feel like I will scream and cry when it's loud.

I was forced to eat.

now I have a bad relationship with food.

I got judged for my body.

now I have body dysmorphia.

I always smiled to hide the pain.

now it makes me sick, so I rarely smile, I frown.

I have PTSD.

things stick to the people you hurt.

fuck you.

What if they had matching outfits? 😳

My plants have been dead for a while but I haven't removed them because I forget I have them....

Checked up on my succulent children Ive had for two years

Turns out one (Bob) died months ago and the other (Raph) is fake

I might be the worst botanist known to man I’m

I have a theory about the shatter me series

You know how in the first book she's still in the asylum? And there are cracks in the walls. And then when later in the book, Adam tells her that he touched her while she was screaming and later in the series in restore me, we discover that she can project her power into her voice and when she screams she can create destruction. I'm thinking that she created some of the cracks in the walls. Tell me your thoughts.