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EXO Chanyeol - Out of the shell

Suzy : Hi guys. I was still thinking about write somw fic so here it is. 

Hope you enjoy :-) Ask box is open ;-) :-) ____________________

The birds were singing. The sun was gazing through the curtains. Everything seem so peaceful. Nearly everything.

Finally you opened your eyes. You were so tired, the pounding in your head was unbearable. You realised that you were in your bedroom. You sigh in relief.

Yesterday you went clubbing with some of your friends and you decided to loose yourself and did drink a little bit.

Ok. You were so drunk that you don’t remember what exactly happened yesterday. You just remember one thing that you saw your crush to be there too. You sigh again, looking up at the ceiling.

‘Did he see me?’ you thought to yourself. It’s been four years that you have a huge crush on him.

PARK. CHAN. YEOL.

Yeah. You have a crush on this tall freaking handsome boy with oh so husky voice that makes your legs wobbly everytime he talks. Unfortunately, he seems like he even doesn’t know your existence!

'Hate my freaking life!’ you slapped yourself on the forehead making the pain more unbearable that wasn’t even possible. You wonder what you did all night.

“Okay. I have to wake up.” you said and starting to sitting up when you did realise a few things.

One. Why were you naked?

Two. Why is your bedroom in a mess like a tornado went through.

Three. Why are the men clothes on your floor. The men clothes!

“Oh no no no! _____! Don’t say that I did something what I think that I did!” you speak to yourself. You slapped your cheeks few times, rubbing your eyes so hardly that they started to hurt, pinched your hands few times but the men clothes weren’t gone, you still weren’t in your so childish hello kitty pyjamas and your room wasn’t so tidy like before.

'Like I am a tidy person.’ you thought to yourself. You grabbed something to cover your body that was the man’s shirt because you were too lazy to go straight into the closet and it was big enough to cover your whole body to your thighs.

You slowly went out of the bathroom to check your whole apartment and you heard the water from the shower. You quickly grab the nearest thing which was the shoe on the floor and quickly went to the bathroom doors. Deciding whether to open the doors and scare the man to death or wait for him to get out when suddenly the door opened. You were so scared that you started to scream causing the intruder scream too. You hold up the shoe and starting to beat him.

“Yah! What are you doing here in my apartment huh?” you shouted at him, beating him at the same time.

“Yah! _____! That’s me. Please stop that!”

You recognised the familiar voice and immediately stopped. There he was. Park Chanyeol standing just with the towel around his waist, the water still dripling from his hair looking at you confused and with fear at the same time.

“C-Chanyeol! What.. w-hat are you doing here!” you asked him maybe the most stupid question. It was obvious right?

“Uh…I was taking the shower if you don’t mind. I didn’t want to wake you up from the peaceful sleep so I just slipped from the bedroom. But what are YOU doing here with the shoe in your hand?” he asked you amusingly.

You looked at your hand realising that you’re still holding that shoe so you quickly hide it behind your back, blushed slightly looking down to your legs.

You scratched your neck and said : “Hm…I thought that you were some intruder that was so perverted and slept with me. I was so shocked when I saw the men clothes in my room.” you looked at him innocently.

"Aha. You thought someone broke into your house and slept with you?” he asked, his lips in a smirk.

“ Yeah. I know it’s weird but you know. I was so shocked that I didn’t think clearly on the first place. I am so sorry that I beat you.” you said a bit ashamed.

“That’s okay. But why you would were the intruder’s shirt. Or you wanted to seduce him?” he asked you causing to look at him with your jaw dropped.

“W-what are you talking about? Of course not!” you were out of words. You slapped him on the arm making him laugh. His question surprised you. You didn’t think about that. You just put it on to cover yourself. His laugh didn’t stop making you sigh. You turned around and went into the bedroom again, leaving him and the shoe on the floor.

“Hey _____, don’t be mad at me. It was just a joke!” Chanyeol said and followed you.

You sat down and looked at him. “Chanyeol. What did happen yesterday?” you asked him.

He raised his eyebrow and asked : “You don’t remember?”

“Okay. I think that I was too drunk to remember that, right?” you said, crossing your hands.

“Yeah. That’s true.” he said and sat down beside you, looking at you.

'Please just don’t say that I did something stupid!’ you thought to yourself, looking down at your swinging legs. Only God knows what happened yesterday. And Chanyeol.

“To say the truth, I don’t remember it too.” he said. You looked up at him shocked. You were looking at him, looking for some hints that he was joking. But you found nothing.

Suddenly, he cracked into the laugh. You grinned at him and starting to slap him on his arm. “Yah! Tell me the truth!” you shouted at him.

“Okay okay. I will. Just please stop beating me!” he recovered from his laughing routine and cleared his voice.

“Okay. Yesterday we met in the club, you confessed to me.” he said now seariously.

“What? I confessed to you?” you were shocked again.

“Yeah. You did.”

'Oh my God! I am dead!’ you thought.

You were so embarrassed. How could you confessed to a guy that you like. No! You LOVE him! And that’s the problem. He’ll never date a girl like you. He’s everything that consists the word ‘PERFECT’ but you were just an average girl which is gonna be his fan and admiring him from afar.

You were still looking at your legs when you felt fingers on your chin causing you to look at him.

“Do you want to know what happened here?” he asked you nicely. You weren’t sure if you wanted but you felt that you nodded and gulped hardly.

“You were so drunk that I insisted driving you home. When we arived you were still sleeping so I caried you up. I put you on your bed and before I went away you holded my hand and said : I LOVE YOU. I turned around to looked at you but you already kissed me on the lips.” he said, looking at you.

You were so ashamed and looked down but his fingers made you to looked at him again.

He looked deeply into your eyes and said : “You know what happened next?”

You shooked your head and waited for him to start speaking again.

“I did make a love with a girl that I love.”

Your eyes widened at the realisation of his words. You looked at his eyes finding the sincerity and love.

“Y-you love me?” you asked him.

“Yeah. Since I first saw you at the library. You were reading a book at the corner of the library. You looked so beautiful and stunning. I did want to go to you but I was just a coward to go and introduce myself to you.” he confessed.

You were so taken aback by his confession that you didn’t realise you were crying. He gently wiped your tears with his thumbs and kissed you on your forehead.

“I am so glad that you confessed to me _____ or I wouldn’t be able to be here beside you. I love you!” he said and hugged you tightly.

“I love you too Oppa!” you said and smiled at him. He smiled back and kissed you lovingly. His lips were so warm and soft sending electricity through your body. He broke the kiss making you press your forehead with his. You looked up at him and pout.

He noticed that and asked : “What happened Jagiya?”

'Omg! He called me JAGIYA! Oh ma feelz!’ you thought.

“Oppa. I am just sad that I don’t remember our first love making."He laughed making you smile and blush a bit.

"Jagiya! I didn’t know that you were that perverted!” he smirked at you.

“Yah! I am not perverted!” you denied. He didn’t say anything and kissed you passionately making you out of breath.

“Let’s change it than.” he said huskily and kissed you again.

Seems like you’re not gonna admire him from afar anymore.

somehow I got 95/20 on an assignment

I hope they never fix it and leave it this way forever

AQUARIUS - Does It in the Water (January 20 to February 18) Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a fighter, but will knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. PISCES - The Partner for Life (February 19 to March 20)  Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to others but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be. 5 years of bad luck if you do not share this post.  ARIES - The Aggressive (March 21 to April 19) Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny… Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an Aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be ‘Right’. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world. 16 years of bad luck if you do not share this post.  TAURUS - The Tramp (April 20 to May 20)  Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self-centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. GEMINI - The Twin (May 21 to June 20)  Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very good at confusing people. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosy. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. CANCER - The Beauty (June 21 to July 22)  MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer’s love is one of a kind… Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative person, most are artists and insane, respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An ultimate freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most Cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a fighter, but will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to! 12 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. LEO - The Lion (July 23 to August 22)  Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. VIRGO - The One that Waits (August 23 to September 22)  Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. LIBRA - The Lame One (September 23 to October 22)  Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, funny and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with… you might end up crying. Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. Faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Very creative. A hopeless romantic. 9 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. SCORPIO - The Addict (October 23 to November 21)  EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad Luck if you do not share this post. SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One (November 22 to December 21) Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not share this post. CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover (December 22 to January 19)  Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy, but when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs in sports, especially Gemini’s. Likes to cook but would rather go out To eat at good restaurants. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not share this post.

Show me your love! - EXO Sehun for now :D

Suzy: Hey guys. How have you all been? :) I am so sorry that I did not post something but with my health problems I do not have time for this. But don’t worry. I am starting the new story, still thinking about if there’s gonna be more chapters or not. So guys if you like it just send me a message if you want a SEQUEL! Love you everybody! :) Enjoy the story! ♥♥♥

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“I’m sorry!”

These two words. The heart-broking two words were the last that you heard from his lips. His lips which you miss so much. You were used to feel them on your owns. Which were always whispering you the sweetest things you have ever heard. They were music to your ears which you have listened to always when you were in his embrace that was so heartwarming, when you could always smell his scent from his chest when you two cuddled, he caressing your hair and having his hands around you protectively. You were so happy with him, these little things still surrounding you in a big bubble of memories just don’t make you to forget him but making you craving for him more. 

Why he left me? Why?

These similar questions were haunting your brain everyday, every night. It was like a nightmare. You just can’t live without him. He was your everything. He was your happiness, your oxygen for breathing. Now, he was gone. You have nothing. Your heart is broken, your body is soulless, you’re missing the most important things for your living. Will you survive this everything? If you will, how? How will you at first move on? How will you start to enjoy the life again? How will you love again? Will you be alone on this fight to get over him? Or will somebody help you? 

It’s really difficult to answer these questions. Maybe you won’t even find the answers. It’s like you were stuck in the bubble. Everything about him is still surrounding you. Your memories, his presents for you, his clothes. 

Even now you were in your bed, wearing his big T-shirt that he used to wear always that he stayed at your place.

‘It’s gonna last for a long long time.’ you thought to yourself. You were still thinking about him. It was almost two weeks but the pain is so unbearable. You can’t do nothing else than be like this. Still in your thoughts you heard the ringing from your door.

“Are you serious?” you shouted to the door. You groaned and threw the blanket over your head. Of course the visitor didn’t leave and decided to annoyed you until you finally get up and open the door. You cursed under your breath and kicked angrily your blanket. You went idly to the door and before you know who was there you shouted : “What?!”

“Whoah whoah whoah…Don’t be so rude on me! I’m your bestfriend!” it was Sehun, like he said, your bestfriend since the kindergarten.

“Urgh…what are you doin’ here!” you asked without saying hi and letting him in.

“Ok. You weren’t at school almost for two weeks, you aren’t picking up your phone and…OMG! You look awful!” he said after seeing your face properly. In fact, you were a total wreck. Your hair was a mess, you have circles under the eyes, your ex’s T was on you loosely. You even didn’t eat these two weeks properly so you were like a hanger.

“What happened to you?” he asked, his hands on your shoulders and looking at your face in every angle. You just stood there lifeless, didn’t know what to say. When you just think about the reason, your heart ripped again, your voice stucked in your throat, tears again starting to flow.

“Oh no no no! Don’t cry ____! What happened, just say it to me. You know you can tell everything to me.” he said soothingly, brushing your tears of your cheeks with his thumbs. You know that you can tell him everything. You just don’t want to tell him this. Because it was the fault of you. He had warned you before but you didn’t listen to him.

“Come on ____. If you’ll keep it away from me, I will still find out. But I want to hear it from you. I don’t want to hear that from anybody else, just from you. If you will keep it you will get hurt more. I don’t want you to be hurt. Just say it loud, you’ll gonna feel more better.” he said looking straight into your eyes. Those eyes that always make you trust him.

You calmed down a bit, took a deep breath and started : “He…H-he broke up with me.” you almost whispered. You felt that Sehun tensed up and his hands fisted into a ball. He started to get angry and that worried you. When he’s angry he’s like a different person. You were startled when you saw him angry for the first time and you didn’t want to see that person again.

You hugged him tightly and said : “Sehun, please calm down. I am scared when you’re angry. Please calm down…” you whispered.

After feeling your warm embrace his tensed shoulders dropped and he released his fists. He took some deep breaths and take your hand to let you into your bedroom. He sat you comfortably on your bed, threw a blanket over your shoulders to keep you warm and sat down beside you.

He looked at you and said : “Ok. Tell me everything about that.” he took your hand and made circels with his thumb.

You took a deep breath and started : “H…H-he…” your voice cracked. Your eyes were filling with tears again and your voice stucked in your throat. Sehun hugged you tightly and whispered sweet things with his smooth voice calming you down.

“Shh…that’s okay. I’m here with you. It’s alright.” You calmed down. took some deep breaths again to start.

“H-he said, that he found someone who loves more than m-me. He said that he l-loved me but he do love more that girl. J-just he founded someone better than me!” you shouted and felt like your heart shattered into pieces again. You were crying so loudly, you wanted to all of the pain go out of your heart. It was so unbearable.

“Shh…come on. I’m right here. It’s gonna be okay. I am here with you.” Sehun whispered into your ear soothing you with circular motions on your back he was doing with his hand. You cried a lot on his shoulder, hugging him so tightly, afraid that he would left you.

“P-please stay here with m-me.” you said.

“I’m not going anywhere. I stay with you and be there for you. Forever.” he said and still whispering you the sweetest things until you felt asleep in his lap.

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DENG! It’s the end for now. Just one question for you guys : DO YOU MIGHT HAVE SOME IDEAS WHO HER EX IS? Is one of the exo members…so if you have an idea just inbox me :]

Here’s one little gift from me! Good night!

love

“I’m in love with you. And all your little things.”