"This Isn't What I Wanted" + "time Passes Slower Without You" With Midam!!! Make It Angsty!

"This isn't what I wanted" + "time passes slower without you" with Midam!!! Make it angsty!

here it is! long and angsty, hope you like it!

[8:34 p.m.] ever since midam went on to produce, his popularity has definitely skyrocketed. before, it was you and him in your small little world. now, you can’t go out anywhere without the flash of some camera or the sounds of squealing girls. and it’s true in the beginning you weren’t really bothered. not until what you saw in this past week.

midam has been gaining more confidence when it came to females- more so his female fans. one day, you came home after running some errands when you hear midam having a conversation with some girl on your couch, rather close to one another. she said, “time passes slower without you, Oppa.” you cringed at the shrill voice and cleared your throat loud enough to catch their attention. the smile on midam’s face dropped when he saw the fury burning in your eyes. “you,” anger evident in your voice as you point at the girl, “get out of here. now.” the girl, flustered, looked between you and midam. when she didn’t budge, you yelled, “get the hell out of my house, now!” flinching, she got up and bowed to midam before scurrying out of the room. you slammed the door shut and glared furiously at midam, who seemed to mirror your emotions.

“what was that about, y/n?” midam looked hurt, and that made you even madder. “why are you bringing skanks into my apartment, midam? I’d like to hear what that was all about!” “when I was outside the apartment, she came to me and got hurt asking me for a signature. I told her I’d give her a band-aid, and she just didn’t leave after that. what else was I supposed to do?” scoffing, you sneer, “is this not your home, too? you could’ve told her to leave. you didn’t even need to invite her in, you could’ve just given her the band-aid.” sighing, you can feel the pounding in your head begin to arise. “you know what, midam, I’m gonna leave for a few days. your popularity has gotten to your head, and it’s gotten out of my and your control. this isn’t what I wanted, but until your fanbase calms down, we’re gonna need to take a break. I’m sorry.” and as you head to your room to grab a suitcase, teary-eyed and pounding head, midam stands in silence, looking at the floor and breathing heavily. the small little world you two built was already in shatters, and now, all you needed was time to put the pieces back together.

aHHHH i cry a little inside every time i read your writing???? you're one of the few rare gems who write quality content for pdx101 and i couldn't be more grateful. could i please request for something fluffy with seungyoun and "is that a challenge?"

my heart, I’m so touched. I’m sincerely thankful for the wonderful feedback, and I’m really glad you liked it! and the seungyoun request: I just finished that one, sweetums! check it out, https://sweetdejun.tumblr.com/post/186432782898/7-with-seungyoun-pls

it’s all so pretty and I-

Kalank (2019)

dearest byungchan, 

take all the time you need to focus on your health! you worked hard on pdx101 and we are proud of all your achievements. please know that alices will always be here to support you! remember that, no matter what, you come first. your health and your happiness are what’s most important. alices aren’t going anywhere so please get lots of rest!

we love you and take care, byung💕

💛alices💙

3 + jinhyuk

okay this one hurt, like really. but it’s done. i’m sorry if angst wasn’t what you had in mind for this one, but I just,,, I had to write it this way. regardless, I hope you like it.

3. how much did you hear?

[1:59 p.m.] the production crew usually let the trainees leave the dorms on sundays, to take care of whatever they needed to- be it visiting their families, running errands, anything of that sort. on sundays, jinhyuk usually went to your house and you two would spend the day together, and then he’d spend the night and leave early the next morning to report back to the dorms. today, jinhyuk was here, too. it’s been around an hour or so, but he’s been sitting in your shared bedroom for some time now, with the door closed. curious, you went to the door and gently knocked. after no response, you opened the door, to find him sitting on the edge of the bed, phone pressed to his ear, and his shoulders shaking.

“please, jinwoo, please do not give up on your dream. you are one of the most talented people I’ve met. you have so much potential it’s incredible. no matter who tells you what, never give up and remember, hyung’s always here for you.” his voice began to waver and crack in the last words, so he cleared his throat. your heart broke hearing this. you knew all about jinwoo and jinhyuk’s relationship. jinhyuk truly cherished him like he was his younger brother, and you saw the relationship depicted accurately on the broadcasts, too. when jinwoo didn’t make it to the next round, you called jinhyuk after the broadcast ended, consoling him. he kept his guard up, even then. but now, the poor man was in a vulnerable state, and it absolutely tore you to pieces seeing the scene unfold in front of you.

“alright, jinwoo, I’ve got to go, but take it easy, alright? and as I said before, if you need anything else, give me a call, okay? bye.” as soon as he hung up the phone, you went and sat next to jinhyuk, who had his face in his hands and let out small whimpers. you held him in your arms, running your hand across his back, rubbing it softly. he wrapped his arms around you once he had calmed down a bit. “how much did you hear?” his thick voice vibrated from your neck. “it doesn’t matter, what matters is you’re hurting right now. and it’s my job to bring you comfort, and ensure that your mind is put to ease. you were so brave on the broadcast, baby, you didn’t shed a tear. but you’re only human, and it’s only natural for you to show your emotions and not bottle them in. I’m glad you’re getting to let it out now than letting it sit in your heart and boil over.”

jinhyuk lifted his head to look you in the eye. you took in the sight of your boyfriend, eyes puffy and bloodshot, nose red and yet he managed to still look flawless. “that’s not fair,” you pouted. jinhyuk tilted his head to the side a little, a quizzical look on his face. “how do you look this good, even after crying? ah, I look like a whole clown after crying.” hearing this, jinhyuk laughs a little. “hey, are you agreeing? you’re supposed to say that I look great, no matter what.” you reply jokingly, laughing along with him and for a couple minutes, nothing but the symphony of you both’s laughter is heard in the room. jinhyuk rested his forehead against yours and said, “thank you, y/n, for everything; for being here, for making me feel better, for being in my life. I love you.” “I love you too, baby.”

lbh, not having jinhyuk in the final lineup is a huge loss.