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Reactions/headcanons (all)

when another member interrupts // @blu-joons

when they are jealous // @chiyuv

when u pull out a kiss // @lovienikitty

when you give a stolen hoodie back // @atrirose

when theres no seats left // @sseastar

when they feel clingy around other members // @enblvsh

when they get teased for being whipped for you // @blu-joons

Reactions/headcanons (hyung line)

when u sit on their lap while they r by the computer // @wonscafe

suprising them at a fansign // @ethereal-engene

taking care of their sick S/O // @ningningsplushie

pda infront of other members // @ningningsplushie

Reactions/headcanons (maknae line)

suprising them at a fansign // @ethereal-engene

pda infront of other members // @ningningsplushie

as boyfriends // @ningningsplushie

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Jungwon

Smaus

baefy for a week // @wonzone

mc-enemiez // @246sn

deal // @gothsunoo

boyfriend application // @maiwon

get it together, jungwon // @choibinn3

luvbot // @enhabot

chipped glass // @cersworld

if we’re both single // @winwonies

loving you // @oddeonu

feelings asside // @jungwoniics

dimple boy // @hooniesdreams

on the other side // @yangism

new beginnings // @koakyuu

a project and a guitar // @giyyuzz

all clear! // @amakumos

dear class president // @wonwoosh

catnapper // @meijiamikas (wont let me tag??)

the language of flowers // @soobnny

mystery player // @odxrilove

idol crush // @enhas-bestie

Imagines/drabbles

lost cause // @yeongwonie

with love, jungwon // @enloveclub

she looks just like a dream // @koakyuu

new beginnings // @koakyuu

morning kisses // @kisswon

interruptions // @goldenhypen

sweet tooth // @sunoona

Heeseung 

Smaus

you, me and the moon // @linoragi

dimension:dilemma // @chiyuv 

sugar daddy // @jayflrt

catch us, dispatch // @jalnandanz

hate that // @heesplanet

whats your number // @jalnandanz

Imagines/drabbles 

epiphany // @yoongimooni

heart eyes // @t5u

candy hearts // @shuadaisy

always you // @tyunsie

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sim jaeyun; paper butterflies.

pairing: jake x reader / sim jaeyun x reader / jake sim x reader

genre: fluff

synopsis: where your boyfriend is adorably in love with you.

trigger warning(s): stress, insomnia (mental health in general)

word count: 0.9k

a/n: i had the random motivation to write this, so i did. short but i rlly like it

it was like any other school day, you felt dead walking along the hallways as people were chatting, making their way to their next class or at their lockers.

"morning baby" a familiar voice said from behind, followed by an arm snaking around your waist from behind. you looked up to your side to find your one and only boyfriend with his little puppy smile.

you smiled, he then gave you a kiss on your upper temple. "rough night? did you stay up late again?" he said, rubbing his thumb where his hand was placed on your side, pulling you closer as if you weren't already pressed against his body.

"no bub, just tired"

he was well aware that you have been overworking although he's told you not to. its the last year of highschool and you're more stressed out then ever. and it's not just school. of course it's draining, even for him. but he knows its not just that. you haven't been feeling your best with everything else as well.

he sighed, moving his hand away from your waist to rub your head. "don't overwork yourself baby" he then rest his head on yours as you both made your way to your first period. "mhm"

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it was during your last period. you had your head rest on your palm, looking up at the board.

school's been hard on you, and with everything else going on in your life it was hard to concentrate at school. making it a habit to catch up late at night because of your insomnia. leading to sleepless nights.

ever since you told him about your insomnia, jake would text you late at night to make sure you were asleep. and if you weren't, he would facetime you so you had some company.

but other nights, you feel stressed out and when you begin to overthink and unable to go to sleep, you'd decide to study to distract yourself. which would usually go on past midnight. during these times, you wouldn't face time jake although he insists, because he needs sleep and you really don't want to bother him.

you zoned out, but came back to focus when a hand slid a folded piece of paper in front of you. it was jake of course, he was your seat mate.

you took the piece of paper and gently unfolded it. you smiled immediately.

"wanna come over to my place after school? mum's making ur favorite today because i asked her to. and layla misses u :( "

when he mentions layla? and his mom cooking? you couldn't say no.

you looked over to him to give him a nod, he smiled and made half a heart with his fingers, just enough for you to see it, but below the desk. how cute.

"focus" you whispered, he then made a sad face at you, you held his hand that was making the heart to put it on your lap as you went back to focusing on what the teacher was saying, having to let go when you realized you had to take notes.

not even 5 minutes later you heard a whisper. "baby look, i made you something" you were ready to give him a little scolding for not focusing but he then handed you a paper butterfly, making you smile widely, admiring it.

you looked over to him to see what he was doing, only to make eye contact because he had been looking at you the entire time. "how'd you make this?" you looked at him laughing a little bit. putting your hand out for him to give it to you.

"i maybe learnt it from my mom, specifically to make one for you" he said shyly, but at the same time proud with his little puppy smile.

ughhhhhh what is he so cute for

normally, whenever he got bored in class, he'd fold little paper hearts and slide it over to you, or write small notes, which you treasure and you've put every single one he gave you in a box. every time, it would make you happier no matter how you were feeling. but this time it was a whole butterfly he made from his notebook paper.

he spent the effort to learn small cute things to do for you and it's literally the cutest thing ever.

"does it look okay? that one's my forth attempt" he said, making you laugh. "oh it's more than okay, jake, it's perfect." you replied. "and i would pester you with kisses right now, but we're in the middle of a class"

"aw bummer, i should've given it to you after class then"

"no worries, you can get them after class"

"i should make you these way more than i planned to if this is my reward, might as well make another one right now" he said teasingly leaning a bit closer to you, making you embarrassed.

"oh you shut up."

"i love you too" he said giggling, knowing that it made you feel a lot better.

gosh you can't explain how much you love this boy. he treats you so well, making sure you feel okay and always trying to make you smile every time you're not alright, he's always there to accompany you and his ears and arms are always open whenever you need it. he's there to comfort you by hugging and giving you little kisses.

he may give you paper butterflies made from notebook papers in real life to show his random affection towards you, which is literally the most adorable thing ever, nothing can ever compare to the butterflies he gives you on the inside every time you're around him.

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lee heeseung; autumn heartbreaks.

pairing: lee heeseung x reader

genre: angst, lovers to strangers

synopsis: where the only person you could ever imagine loving, breaks your heart.

trigger warning(s): n/a

word count: 1.3k words

a/n: this stayed in my drafts for weeks, decided to work on it today and here we are. ITS SO CRINGE I CANT HELP IT

yours and his life was once all about each other.

morning picnic dates but he forgets to pack the strawberry jam,

coffee dates during fall when he'd wrap his scarf around your neck even though you already had one but it was only another excuse to pull you in close and give you a kiss, he'd smile cheekily right after pulling away. oh how you loved his smile.

library dates during finals week because he insisted on helping you study,

waking up every morning to see him already staring and admiring your features with so much love in his eyes. "morning, doll" he'd always say every morning with a soft smile as his hand reaches out to your face to move your hair from your face delicately

kissing on his rooftop during new years eve as fireworks lit up in the night skies

those days where you'd get into little quarrels and he'd always show up at your doorsteps with snacks in his hands, especially banana milk and chocolate. and you'd always end up forgiving him because you could never seem to stay mad at him.

taking your dog out on walks around the park and stopping by some food stands to get some churros,

baking chocolate cupcakes, dancing around your kitchen island and swaying side to side with his hands on your waist and yours on his shoulders as he plays his playlist that he made thinking of you in the background. staring into his eyes made you want to give in whatever you had to make those moments last forever.

those glowing bambi eyes that once felt like they held a thousand galaxies behind them. his gaze that was once so full of love whenever he was with you, was now all dull and felt as if there were no emotions in him at all.

your worst fear was that he'd fall out of love.

your worst fear was that one day, heeseung would find someone else that was better for himself, someone he loved more. and no matter how hard you've tried to be his ideal type, no matter how much you've always tried to be that someone, he was out of your league.

you've always been there for him, you've seen every side of him and stuck with him no matter what. you showed him all the love you ever could to anybody, and yet that somehow wasn't enough.

you weren't enough.

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you find yourself waiting on your boyfriend to get home safely again, and hes late, like he's always been.

heeseung's been tired lately, you can't really do anything about it since its been stressful at work for him and of course you wanted to treat him well especially during these hard times. it was the least you thought you could do.

you made plans of what you were gonna cook him day to day, made plans of how you were gonna shower him with gifts and movie nights, you made sure to make the bed, did his laundry although he insists, did everything at home despite your study schedule and made sure he was comfortable as soon as he got home.

just as you were done cooking something up in the kitchen while waiting for him to get home, the apartment door opened.

"heeseung! you wanna watch a movie together? look i made ramen and some-" "y/n, we need to talk"

your heart dropped. his tone was unusual, sending an uneasy feeling to your guts.

you stared at him in concern, the look in his eyes were unreadable.

"we can talk about it over some ramen," you gave a warm smile as you walked over to arrange the table, hoping that looking away could cover up the fear you had deep down because you could guess the words that he was going to mutter out next.

and you were saying whatever for for him to not say it even if you already knew.

"let's break up" he said in monotone, looking away from your figure avoiding eye contact.

you froze in place and turned to look at him and all you could mutter out was his name

"hee..."

"i'm sorry"

"is it something i did? i promise you i can fix it if you'd just tell-"

"its not something you did y/n,"

"then.."

"i.. i fell out of love."

he fell out of love. and all you could reply back that day was "oh."

you swore you saw tears in his eyes, all he could say in context to why were just his apologies.

why was he crying? he's the one hurting you most and he knew it. yet all he could spill out were his apologies that would never fix anything.

four years worth, and all he could say is sorry. no better explanation. just his useless apology.

after that he just left. leaving you in tears with the heavy burden on your chest. you hated him for that but all you had to blame was yourself. were you not good enough? did he find someone new? all those questions hanged around your mind.

he just left you alone in your apartment and from that day on, everything you did reminded you of him, all those memories haunted you everywhere you went or did and all you could do about it was cry yourself back to sleep for god knows for how long.

its been a year since it all happened.

your bestfriend, ryujin convinced you to move out of you apartment and helped you pick yourself back up. staying in that apartment would only lead to endless days of skipping meals, classes and crying yourself to sleep. whatever you did was just going to end up in tears and breakdowns.

you've been better and managed to pull yourself back together and focus on your studies. you worked a part time job in a cafe with ryujin and heeseung wasn't much of a burden for you anymore. the thought of him still made you feel heavy and hurt. but at least he everywhere you looked now didn't remind you of him.

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[9:30 PM]

it was just like every other weekend, you took up an extra shift since you were free. you closed up the cafe, now on your way home to your shared apartment with ryujin. it was autumn again, leaves were falling and it was cold, cozy. you tucked your hands into your coat as you walked down the streets, street lights lighting up the path as you walked along it quietly, admiring the autumn scenery as the cold wind lightly blew on your hair.

reminded you of that winter night two years ago when you were the happiest, with him of course.

the memories lingered in your head and instead of crying like you used to, it made you feel heavy, but those memories made you feel warm and you managed to smile upon thinking about it.

you can't help but miss the way he'd gaze at you, you missed his gentle hands moving your hair away from your face, you missed the love you felt in his gaze whenever he looked at you. but now, those loving eyes were no longer meant for you.

you treasured every single second with him, and you genuinely loved him. and you can't lie to yourself, if he was to call you and told you to come over right now because he wasn't feeling okay, you'd definitely find yourself running back to him with no second thoughts. he still owned your heart like no one else's.

but now, at least he's happier and thats all that really mattered to you.

he fell out of love. and there was nothing you or himself could do about it. it was what it was.

he was out of your league, and no matter how much you tried to be enough for him, you just weren't the one.

it was nice while it lasted, you experienced what love felt like and how much it could hurt.

it hurts for you to think about it and you dread thinking about it, but he wasn't yours. no matter how much you loved him and cared for him,

those loving eyes just weren't yours.

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traffic light

pairing: lee sangyeon x female reader

genre: angst, slight fluff, lovers to exes

word count: 1.6k

a/n: this is my first fic, it’s inspired by the song, ‘traffic light’ by sara kays, and any feedback is very greatly appreciated ^^ (there might be some grammatical errors as english is not my first language.)

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nishimura riki; photobooths (2)

(2/2) three words, eight letters.

previous part - (1/2) cotton candy.

pairing: nishimura riki x reader

genre: fluff, angst if you squint hard enough

synopsis: between two best friends who don't realize their feelings for each other just yet.

trigger warning(s): abit of swearing, ferris wheels?

word count: 1.7K

a/n: the ending to this im not really satisfied with but its been in my drafts for so long i've gotta just :D

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[6:55 PM]

it was starting to get dark, you were walking with a bunny plushie in hand that riki got for you at the balloon popping stall, and with riki walking right beside you of course. looking around to see whatever interested you both next.

for riki, he was just in his own world, going wherever you led him.

what was he thinking of? the moment you decided to name that bunny after him as soon as you had it in your hands with no hesitation, and that caught him off guard for a bit. now you're just going to have a bunny in your room named riki.

and of course, back at the cotton candy stall, when the lady called you both lovebirds, it made him feel a certain way.

that same feeling he gets every time you called him cute. or whenever you fixed his hair for him, whenever you brought him banana milk randomly, whenever you feed him random things, whenever he did something wrong on purpose just so you can do it for him instead.

that same feeling he always gets when he's around you.

his act of service, his constant teasing, his little gifts, his little notes he'd usually write you whenever he was bored in class, a lot of them contained with drawings of bunnies and funny looking strawberries cause he knew they were your favorite things, or just notes telling you that he liked your outfit that day.

the way he takes you places whenever he knew you were stressed or when you needed it, when he appears at your doorsteps whenever you texted him telling him that you weren't feeling your best, when he tries to compliment and make you feel better when you're down although he's bad it it, thats his love language.

yours was physical touch, like when you'd play with his hair, which he loved, when you'd drag him around by his hand or when you hug him when you're feeling down just for comfort.

your clinginess, like when you unconsciously hold his hand when you're in public places, when he's playing games with controller in hand but you're bored so you'd always end up laying on his lap, watching the screen although you don't understand anything that's going on, but since it's riki playing it, you're interested

your patience for him. he'd make mistakes and instead of getting annoyed over it, you'd calmly tell him to try again and would help him with it. whether with homework, cooking or anything you both decided to do together. or when he's feeling down and stressed, your arms and ears are always open for him. you're always there to listen and hug him whenever he needed.

your constant scolding whenever he purposefully did something wrong so that you'd do it for him instead, he'd enjoy it whenever you were mad at him just because he thought that its cute.

he loved everything about it.

he knew how you liked your coffee, what you wanted your pancakes with and how many you'd usually eat, your favorite colors. he knew when you'd get nervous just by how you fiddle with his hands, how you loved it when he'd comfort you by giving back rubs, hand rubs or head pats. just like you did for him. he knew every single tiny detail.

you don't know how much of an impact you took upon this boy, and he wasn't against any of it either as he loved every second of it.

whatever the other did, you both have no hesitations to give it a try too.

this was alot of emotions for a boy to keep to himself. it was the first time he felt like he wanted someone to know how much he liked them. which was why this whole date-like after school amusement park thing was a good idea. he was going to tell a girl that he liked her on her favorite ride in an amusement park, where it all started. he planned it all out 2 weeks prior.

why did it take two weeks when this whole idea popped into is little head in the span of 10 minutes? it's because he's nervous, he's never confessed to anyone, ever. and like the perfectionist that he is, he wanted everything to go as planned.

"riki look! a photo booth!" you pointed.

"y/n, no more pictures" riki replied, dragging his feet.

"i just want some pictures i can put in my phone case. its so blank right now, see?" you said, extending your arms and showing the back of your phone case directly at his face.

and with that he was already convinced, to miss the chance to get his face inside that clear phone case of yours? anything.

"didn't you just have a picture of that one k-pop idol you were obsessing over for weeks?" riki said smiling a bit, looking down at you.

"well yes, but i've looked at that same photo card too much it got kinda boring."

he remembered vividly how you were squealing at him over it about a week ago.

"alright, fine" he said in a stern tone, but was jumping around inside "but it has to be in there for at least 5 months".

"okay okay fine! let's take four sheets worth so we both got two sheets each okay?"

"alright."

and there he finds himself taking pictures with with you and riki the bunny in your arms. and that character hat he came to like because every once in a while you'd turn back to tell him that it looked cute on him.

riki being riki, he was awkward.

"smile a a bit won't you, nishimura?" you poked him, placing your chin on his shoulder staring right at him. he looked back down at you. gosh if he had to count how many times him heart rate accelerated today just because of one person.

snap

"alright just get your chin off me it hurts" he giggled and grabs you by your face to lift your head up

snap

"yah!" you tried grabbing his whole face too but it was more of a struggle with his hands blocking you view. at that point you both have forgotten you were taking pictures.

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[7:15 PM]

you brought out your phone and popped off your phone case to settle the pictures in the right spot.

he really made to that phone case of yours, he thought.

popping it back on, you lifted your phone and started taking pictures of the view.

"y/n"

"hm?" you looked up, he was taking photos of the both of you.

"i'm sending these to my mom, she just texted me"

"send me them too"

after he was done, you handed your phone to him. "could you take a couple for me?"

he smiled, knowing what to do.

the lighting on your face was just perfect. and you couldn't look even more adorable with that bunny on your lap.

he started clicking, but of course, he couldn't miss this chance.

"here you go" he handed you back your phone

"riki these are all you!" you said swiping through them rapidly. he really just spammed the button didn't he

he laughed, "alright alright, i'll take you some" you handed it back but he brought out his instead

"no no, i feel like the lighting on my phone looks better, i'll airdrop them after"

smooth.

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"i miss the feeling of being on ferris wheels" you said.

you knew damn well the last time you were on one was with him and it didn't end well.

"me too" he replied with a smile, looking back out to see the view.

nervously thinking of the right time to say the three words that he's practiced in front of the mirror in his bedroom countless times making sure he won't mess it up just for today.

the atmosphere was a lot different from when you both were last here, more lights, more lively, more stalls.

"riki?"

"y/n" he replied. you froze, not being able to mutter out your words. chanting in your head that it's now or never and that you can't keep chickening out when the timing is perfect. but nothing seemed to come out of you mouth.

three words, eight letters was all it took and yet it was so hard to say. being too scared of rejection, too scared of the outcome. you can't handle the thought of him ghosting you again. god knows whether or not he's going to ghost you or just cut you off for good.

it was just silence. you two were just looking in different directions, staring out of the ferris wheel.

again, you failed to say how you felt towards the boy. again, you tried changing the topic.

"people look like ants from up her-

"i like you, y/n"

"what?"

"i like you" he said, with no hesitation looking straight at you now but you were too nervous to look into his eyes right now. what the fuck.

"i do too riki"

"i don't mean it in a friendly way y/n." you paused to look at the boy, he continued, "i mean in way that means you make me feel things whenever i'm around you. i like you a lot, y/n"

"i like you too, riki."

your heart was thumping in your chest it felt like it was going to burst. you weren't on a roller coaster, it was just a ferris wheel but yet the excitement was incomparable. he confessed before you did.

thats when you realized that those pictures you took from the photo booth were also in his phone case.

riki was never the type to say or do these things, which took you by surprise. he just said he liked you.

like, like like you.

it was minutes of just looking around after that. to riki, this was new, never once in his life has he confessed and god if he was along right now he would be jumping around because he did it, and he didn't fuck it up.

"so, you wanna grab coffee tomorrow morning?" he said looking out

"yup"

"8?"

"yup"

he smiled looking down

the awkwardness was so thick, you could cut it with a knife.

what mattered at that moment though, was that it happened, you confessed. or he did. after years, it finally happened and you didn't get rejected, which is a big relief. it wasn't all that bad after all.

character hats, cotton candy stalls, bunny plushies, photobooths and ferris wheels. three words, eight letters. it all worked out.

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one, two, three, four times too much - l.hj

pairing: lee jaehyun x female reader

genre: pure angst

word count: 1.6k

note: i do not condone cheating at all, this is just purely made up and it's a fiction only.

one.

'babe i'm home!' hyunjae's yell was heard throughout the shared apartment of him and his girlfriend.

ever since that time that hyunjae bumped into her on her first day at work and messed up her clothes, so he offered her his coat.

and that's how they ended up together, until now.

not forever.

'hi babe' seola greeted her boyfriend with a smile on her face.

hyunjae greeted her with a warm hug, which to her, isn't that warm.

the smell of a sweet, floral scent filled up her nostril, which is a huge contrast to his usual woody cologne. a dark bruise, hidden away under his ears, and a faint red lipstick stain on the collar of his shirt, which didn't go unnoticed by her.

with a small frown on her face, seola still displayed a solemn smile.

'i made dinner, your favorite.' 'really? this is why i love you babe.' he said cheerily, dropped his bag and went to the kitchen.

seola went to take the bag and place it neatly on the drawer, when she saw something slipped from the bag.

it was a red lace underwear.

with a pessimistic expression, she grabbed the bag and tried to ignore whatever she just saw.

trudging back to the kitchen island, she sat beside her boyfriend, who was happily munching away the food.

but she can't get what she saw earlier off of her mind.

hyunjae, who noticed her gloomy expression quickly asked, 'babe are you okay?', making her break from her trance, 'yeah, i just,' taking a deep breathe, she tried forming a sentence, 'are you cheating on me?'

with that, hyunjae quickly dropped his food, his eyes pleading for her not to leave him, 'i'm sorry babe please. you know i love you right? i truly do, please don't leave me, that will never happen again.' he begged.

seola was puzzled, he really did cheat on me...

'it's fine, i forgive you.' she said softly. hyunjae was over the moon, his heart filling with relief.

there will never be a second time. hopefully not.

two.

mentally and physically strained from the hectic amount of work today, seola returned home rubbing her bicep in discomfort, she expected to see the love of her life there in the living room, welcoming her home with a happy smile that could light up her mood.

but instead, the familiar scent that she smelt a week ago, came back rushing back to her the moment she stepped foot inside of her home.

there was no sight of hyunjae, that is until he leapt from their shared bedroom.

'babe, i didn't know you were coming home this soon.'

'it's 10:37PM jae...'

'oh really? haha,' he awkwardly rubbed his nape, 'i didn't look at the time, sorry.' he said.

seola slowly scanned her boyfriends appearance.

messy bed hair, wrinkled shirt. that's okay, its 10PM he could've just gotten out of bed, seola tried to convince herself.

until she spotted that darn bruise, marking his collarbone that he tried to hide but failed miserably.

walking further in, she saw 2 wine glasses, of which the wine bottle beside it is his favorite one. a bright alluring red colored lipstick on one, looking as if someone had just taken a sip from it.

not taking her eyes off from the sight she slowly parted her lips to ask, 'did you invite someone here?'.

hyunjae had a haunted look on his face, 'uh, yeah, mom was here you know. she likes to surprise visit at random time. she really wanted to meet you but you weren't here.'

seola hummed as an answer. 'doesn't she hate sweet perfume?'

hyunjae panicked even more, calming himself to answer 'dad bought it for her recently and you know he forget things a lot, so he forgot that she doesn't like sweet scented perfume. she must've felt bad.' he quickly rapped, trying to keep a stable expression and voice.

'ah...' seola replied cheerlessly, letting a million of scenarios seep into her brain.

'i'll go to bed first.' she said looking at him dead in the eyes, basically saying -i know that's not the truth- and he perfectly understood that.

three.

the couple laid in their bed, comfortably cuddling with each other, when hyunjae's phone rang.

'ah, sorry babe i gotta take this real quick.' he told her softly before picking himself up and went outside of their room.

seola was never the type to stick her nose in anyone's business, but what business does her boyfriend has to keep him so busy, even during their free day.

slowly tiptoeing her way to the close door, she pressed her ears on it to eavesdrop on his conversation.

'-wait for me to be there alright? i'm with her right now. i'll find an excuse. stay there and don't be naughty. keep on-' that was all seola heard before the sound of his voice slowly disappears, indicating that he's walked away from their bedroom door.

she despondently walked back to bed and covered herself with the cover, soon a tear trickled, then two, then three, the waterfall of tears pooled on her pillow as she sniffled, stuffing her face in the plushie-that he bought her on their first anniversary- trying to keep the sobs hidden.

their bedroom door creaked open, revealing hyunjae.

'i'm so sorry babe, i promised that we'd have the whole day together but there was something urgent that came up at work and they needed me to-' 'just go.' she said groggily, cutting him off without lifting her face to look at him.

he placed a gentle peck on her forehead before picking up his car keys and leaving.

one more chance lee jaehyun, one more chance.

four.

four times. four times that she's caught him and turning a blind eye on it. four times of him doing it with no conscience that he might be hurting her the slightest bit. four times of her washing away his stained collar.

this last time really pulled the trigger. she walked into his office, to see another woman,

on his lap, her lips all over him.

seola was quick enough to close the door just as she opened it.

four fucking times that she'd been betrayed.

seola had had enough. she doesn't want to confront him, because why should she? it's not like he's gonna change. once a cheater, always a cheater.

with her luggage packed and hyunjae asleep, she planned to leave him in the middle of the night. until he woke up, patting the side of his bed and having no presence of his girlfriend beside him.

or is she even his girlfriend anymore?

'babe?' he opened the bedroom door, sleepily rubbing his eyes until her got a clearer view of what was in front of him.

'what are you doing..?' he asked, glazed at the sight of his girlfriend's luggage, and her dressed up.

still not turning around to meet him in the face, seola quickly blinked away the tears that threatened to fall.

'let's break up.' she quickly say before pulling her stuff with her.

hyunjae hurriedly and confusedly ran to stop in front of her.

'seola, baby, why? what's wrong? why are you doing this? please stop joking, it's not funny.' he rapped, bug eyed glancing at her every feature.

seola stifled a chuckle. 'you know what's funny though? finding out that the person you love so dearly, cheating on you. forgiving them many damn times cause you still love them and expected a change. but that didn't happen.' slowly looking into his now guilty eyes.

'baby please, let me explain, we can work this out hm? please i won't do it anymore.' hyunjae dropped on his knees, begging for forgiveness which leaves a pang of pain to her already shattered heart.

'four times lee jaehyun. four times. i gave you four chances and you decided to throw it away like it's nothing. i kept forgiving and forgiving, but don't you know that i'm suffering? everyday i kept questioning myself, 'am i not pretty enough, am i not skinny enough, am i too dumb, too clingey' i question all about me,' seola stopped mid sentence to take a deep breathe, 'jae-ah,' the name felt bitter in her mouth, 'you know i still love you, i will always do, i know that for sure you can change for the better.' she smiled softly, hands cupping his face, wiping away the tears that adorned the pretty face that she fell in love with.

slowly removing the ring from her finger, hyunjae panicked even more, 'no no no no no, seola please, please, don't do this please don't take it off, i swear i can be better. i'll cut her off. i won't talk to any girls if you want me to okay? please don't do this i'm begging you!'

forcefully grabbing hyunjae's hand, dropping the promise ring that he gave her that she never once took off ever since the start of their 5 year relationship.

the shape of the ring engraved itself into the skin of her finger, the longer she stared at it, the longer she wanted that ring back on her finger, but she knew she had to give it up.

walking away with her luggage, she closed the door of their apartment, hearing his broken sobs and whimper made her want to run back to him, to tell him she still loves him, to tell him that she still forgives him.

'i still love you lee jaehyun. we'd meet again in the future if we're really destined for each other. but now, four times is too much.'

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a/n: phewww i'm writing this at 12:03AM lolol im glad i dont have school tomorrow. i apologize if some part is a little weirdly written as i am currently lacking braincells, and english isn't my first language. i welcome all criticism <3333