This Keeps Me Alive

this keeps me alive

cw : fluff, soft bkg, if you're single you'll feel more single :3 ! !

pairing : bakugo x gn! reader

bonus arya :another repost from my now deleted blog ! ! <3

bakugo is in love, he knows he is in love and he also knows he's down bad. everything, every fucking thing you do makes his heart twist in a way he couldn’t really pinpoint, and butterflies had war in his stomach.

you are like a drug, and he is hooked. someone who at first bakugo dismissed as an 'extra' is now the person his whole life revolves around. at times he thinks about times he didn't understand the stinging feeling in his chest when you were dating stupid shinsou in second year or sparring with deku.

but now he is mature and he realises it is because his heart has belonged to you from the second you told him to , "tone it down blasty, you're hurting my brain."

and now when you are finally his, his to love, his to hold - not stupid deku's or purple eye bags' - bakugo finally understands what impact you actually have on his life since the very beginning.

it is physically impossible for him to sleep without you, no matter what, he just couldn’t.

waking up with you besides him, made his heart soar.

he affectionately kisses you on top of your head gently running his fingers through your hair, snuggling in your warmth while you're in his strong arms sleeping.

he tries his hardest not to coo at how perfect you look even when you were sleeping, with messy hair and drool running down on the side of your mouth.and when you stir mumbling something incoherently, he pats your head and whispers, "sleep sweets, 'ts still early."

however you're sleep now long gone, you look up at your boyfriend giving him the sleepiest smile ever, "hi." you say groggily looking up at his illuminating face.

"hi, did you sleep well?"

"mhm" you hm resting your head even deeper in the crook of his neck, while he runs his finger up and down lightly on your bare back."

go to sleep, you're still half asleep idiot." he grumbles lovingly pecking your cheek, "i'm here for as long as ya want, 'kay?"

"yeah, love you so much 'suki." you say placing a chaste kiss on his neck.

yeah, you are the anchor in bakugo's life, someone who provides him stability and loves him even if it's difficult to at times.

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I thought about that and now I can’t unsee

Rainy love

I am SO smitten for mammon so I ramble a lot in this, sorry!

You and Mammon are out on a date but it starts raining! That's okay though, it worked out well in the end.

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Going out on dates with the avatar of greed were always either last minute or they have been planned for ages and he's just been too nervous to ask if you want to go on a date. Regardless, they were still fun, even if sometimes the both of you get scolded coming home to an angry (and worried) Lucifer.

Today though, you guys were out enjoying a walk together. Holding hands, chatting away, stopping to look at something that caught one of your interests and then trying to hold back Mammon from impulsively buying it. He's going to come back for it, especially if it caught your eyes.

The two of you were currently sat down outside a cafe, eating whatever you guys thought looked good. Flirty comments, playful banter, occasional teasing went back and forth. You started going on a rant about something. Of course he was listening but he couldn't help but stare at you, feeling his heart race. Everything about you was so perfect to him; he knows about your insecurities and the flaws that you have, he acknowledges them and accepts them. He's not the type to hold them against you. You're you and that's all he could've ever asked for.

He felt so warm being with you. He felt so loved and accepted, you didn't shout insults straight at his face, you didn't belittle him every time he opened his mouth. Wow isn't this easy, being nice to someone? He felt so much love for you and the feeling knowing that you love him back just as much? A bit more or less, he didn't care, the fact that you liked, no, LOVED him back made him feel like he could die happy. He's absolutely smitten for you but he'll never admit that to you, his brothers will do it for him though.

"Oh the great, one and only Mammon, are you still there? You're just staring at me with that goofy smile." You waved your hands in front of his face, making him snap out of his trance. "Did you hear anything I said?"

"My smile is NOT goofy, thank you very much!" He scoffed, trying to play it off, "A-And of course I, THE great Mammon, heard what you were saying!"

"Okay, what was I just talking about then." You smirked at him, watching him fumble with his words as he tried to make an excuse to why he wasn't listening. The chatter kept going, everything felt so perfect. Mammon telling stories about the dumb stuff him and his brothers have done and you making comments every so often that ends up with the two of you laughing. "We should start heading back, it's getting late. I don't want to deal with Lucifer being an angry dad."

"Ugh, always ruining the fun." He grabbed his stuff and stood near you, waiting for you to get up. He held his hand out to you, feeling a smile and a blush crawl onto his face when you intertwined your hands with his. It's a feeling that he wishes would never go away. The walk back home was the same, his hand squeezing your hand every so often. He couldn't ask for anyone better, he'll do anything to keep you by his side and he means it.

Everything was warm and light-hearted until he felt something wet drop onto his head. One after another and it started bucketing down on the two of you. You both ran to the nearest shelter, hands still holding each other's.

"Argh! Stupid rain, ruining our perfect date."

"Oh, it was a date now, was it?"

"Shut it." He gave you a small glare before focusing his eyes on the rain. It was dark, street lamps being the only source of light. "I would've bought an umbrella if I knew it was going to rain, damn it!"

"I swear it never rains here so it's not your fault, Mammon." You used your unoccupied hand to cup his face, making him look your way. "It's alright."

"But still... I was really enjoying today with ya..." his voice got quieter as he continued to speak, shifting his eyes away from yours. Even after being together for a while, he still gets shy saying affectionate things. It's endearing.

There was music softly playing from one of the shops down the street, the rain was muffling it but it can still be heard. An idea popped inside your head which plastered a grin onto your face.

"And what's stopping you from still enjoying it? A bit of water?" Your hands tightening around his before pulling him out with you into the pouring rain.

"We're going to get SICK!" He yelled. You didn't care. You pulled him towards you, his body colliding to yours as you wrapped your arms around his shoulder. His arms instinctively wrapped around your torso. He won't admit it, but it did feel kind of nice standing under the wet weather with you. You started swaying your body, his body copying your actions.

"Dance with me, Mammon. We can still enjoy this right?" You looked up at him, seeing him stare deeply into your eyes. He nodded, being the first one to take a step back. His hand connected with yours again, placing his other hand on your waist. You rested your arm on his, extended the arm that was holding his slightly.

As the music continued to play, the two of you start dancing. None of you knew what you were doing but that's okay, it's the thought that counts. He spun you around a couple of times, you did the same back to him but he only spun reluctantly. Sometimes the song playing would have a fast tempo, making the both of you move around like idiots. Sometimes the tempo would be slow and the both of you would still be moving around like idiots but slower and more lovingly. Who knows how long you guys have been dancing for at this point.

He spun you around again and surprised you with a dip. You wrapped your hand around his neck, the other clinging onto his wet jacket, scared you were going to fall onto the ground, as if you weren't already drenched from head to toe. His hand held your back, preventing you from falling, the other was snaked around your waist. He pulled you in closer, being only inches apart from you.

"I love you so much, it drives me crazy." He started, pressing his forehead against yours, "You never fail to make me feel happy, even on my worst days. I really do love ya. Nothing, in all three realms, will ever change that." He pushed his lips onto yours, feeling you immediately kiss him back. He pulled you back up so you were standing on both feet again.

Whenever one of you would pull away, the other would pull the other back in, wanting more. His hands cupped your face, pulling you in for a deeper kiss. He couldn't get enough of you.

"Mammon... We should really get back before we get really sick." You were the first to push him away, feeling a little breathless.

"Yeah, we really should." The look in his eyes were filled with fondness. Endearment. Passion, if you may.

You guys booked it home, as expected, only coming home to an angry Lucifer as he was scolding the both of you for being out late AND getting drenched. The two of you spent the next few days in bed with a cold but at least you had each other.

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I had no idea where this was going lol, this was all impulsive writing, sorry. I hope you guys enjoyed it tho.

quiet moments with mammon.

note: usual mammon fluffy drabbles. mammon x gn!reader. enjoy reading! fluff.

quiet moments with mammon. you don't know whether you had a good or bad day. it's a pretty decent one. not too chaotic or empty. you had a lot of thoughts though and you were eager to silence them. sitting on a bench, headphones on, you don't care if your ears blast because of your full volume. you need this. you watch as people walk by in front of you. you felt a presence next to you. you looked at him. neither of you said a word. mammon doesn't ask or anything, he gave you the look that holds nothing but everything at the same time. you gave him a small smile and offered a piece of your earphones. he took it. both of you listened to your music all afternoon as you watch people walk by. and for the first time, you felt content and peaceful.

quiet moments with mammon. this is nothing new yet today feels so different, like something sacred and only revealed itself bare as golden sunlight starts to take over the waking city. your arms wrapped around mammon, and his arms wrapped around you. entangled legs and you're so close to each other. so close, you can feel mammon's breath against your face. he's still peacefully asleep and you thank whatever kind of higher power is watching over right now for waking you earlier than him. because then, you get to watch your beautiful lover peacefully. you've seen what gold ornaments look like, you've traveled a lot and witnessed the carving of the world, you've seen the beautiful work of god's fine hand through painted skies, you've seen beauty and yet mammon still managed to take your breath away. and by simply existing too. truly, there is no other sight like him. all of the things you've seen are nothing compared to what you're seeing now. you brushed your hands on his cheeks and he somewhat shifted closer to you. you smiled to yourself and reached to kiss his forehead. you heard him mumbling g'morning under his breath. “did ya enjoy the view?” you laughed as you answered him yes. he nuzzled his face into the crook of your neck. “good. love you.” you hugged him tighter. “i love you too.” “now, can we sleep for five more minutes?”

mammon has a hard time processing his feelings and is not very good with his words. oftentimes, he still denies how he'd stare at you from across the room, thinking how adorable you are. no, he wasn't starin' at ya! he just thinkin' bout money and was in a trance! yeah, that's right. that was that, at first. when you become official, he doesn't always say i love you that much either. he really tries, he does but he's never been in love with someone like this before. it's you. you make his insides go haywire. so instead of saying i love you directly, he does it and say it in his own way. he says i love you through; cuddling with you as you both sleep, sometimes singing or telling stories to you since you told him you like his voice so much and he makes you so comfortable, you could just peacefully fall asleep; he says i love you through always including you in his life and everything, made a lot of money? whaddaya want, human? he'll get it for ya! after all, you're his human so you should be grateful, alright?! he says i love you through knowing you, always listening to everything you say and knows how to listen even when you're not saying anything — he knows when you're bothered, he knows when you're holding back, he knows it even when you don't say it and he's there for you. he says i love you in many ways on his own and it's just fucking heart-warming to you. in return, you always make sure he knows that you're just as much in love with him as he is. words might not be his strongest suites, but he's got his own way to express his love to you. and whenever he actually tells you that he loves you so much in precious moments, you make sure to smother him with so so much love.

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