Fear Of The Unknown By Thaunknowndreadhead

Fear of the Unknown by Thaunknowndreadhead

Joint my brother and I put together

That whole thing where you stop calling and life progresses and then you finally see people and realize how much time you've missed, is a very real thing. And it hurts. I feel like I'm going to experience that I've already experienced it a couple of times and I hate that feeling it's a very dark and scary feeling that's the best way I can describe it but it just doesn't feel right. And the feeling that you're never really going to get help for whatever it is you're going through. Whatever it is I'm going through should I say. It's like a forever lost feeling the feeling that family members will grow and progress or whatever, and it's kind of like life just ran by at a flash and you didn't get a chance to actually enjoy it and it left you behind. I'm not even that old and I feel like this is already happening to me..... the depression never stops it just kind of eases up every once in awhile. I hate this s***

Ever see jealousy in a person that you love?? It's a scary experience and realization of the fragility of the human heart. Even when the jealousy is subtle but still noticeable. It's screams loud! Like it is the worst site for me because I don't carry jealousy as strongly as others. We are all different and carry human weaknesses, but for me to see it in a family member, so much so, to the point it has you sitting and feeling perturbed and watching there helpless self raging at another person they claim to love???!!! Humans, WE ARE FRAGILE. In one way or another we are. But loving others is my true way. I just don't, of all I deal with, carry jealousy. It just does not exist in me anymore. As a child it did (in all of us I'm sure of it). But I don't know. We all fall short in many MANY different ways. I'm working on loving myself more. Most others lash out in person. We are all different. But I can't help thinking that if we all treated eachother the way we want to be treated, it would solve ALOT. But humans will NEVER adopt that very simple rule. I THINK, I DONT KNOW, but I think that's the MAIN reason we can't come to peace. I think if people loved people the way that they are, we wouldn't suffer as much as humans. I think that's why I am the way that I am. Ithink the people around me forced myself into myself to be a loner because I, something in me, sees that people are very VERY cruel. No matter how nice we are to them. Big human flaw, amongst many others.

I hate soft water, it just...my hair is still wet bruh like wtf it's been hours. The soft water shit is ok whatever. but I don't fukn like it. I don't like the "im not dry yet" feeling on my skin. the fuck yo. Sorry had to vent. Hate that shit.

It is no coincidence that I typed your name in and a bunch of evil s*** came up. Granted the s*** had nothing to do with you, but still that was f****** weird and I know the s*** you're into and what it has caused me and my family in the past. If you don't know what I'm talking about disregard this post but this individual knows who they are

People love seeing you dangle by a thread, especially some so-called loved ones man I tell you f*** life life is one big game of seeing weaknesses strengths demons and angels all in one intensive package. I'm trying to experience and enjoy life as is but I can't because I'm seeing too much else