Also We're Continuing Tlou2 Today, So Warning For Ouchie Revelations :)

also we're continuing tlou2 today, so warning for ouchie revelations :)

Soooo I have another useless analysis here about the hospital scene in the show, there are alot of micro expressions that are so so good, so here we go also excuse the variantion in gif quality.

"Cordyceps grow inside the brain",

We see him visibly stressed when Marlene talks about surgery, she doesnt answer him and continues at her own pace and he knows immidiately something is up ,after Marlene tells him about the procedure and that there could be a cure, he just stumbles back, you would think that he's thinking of the possibility of a cure but you can see him search through his brain how this would go, how this procedure could hurt Ellie, and you can feel his heart just stop when he looks up at her, " Cordyceps grow inside the brain" and he says it in such a soft way that you can sense how terrified he is, you can see the alarms go off in his mind. He becomes angry and stressed, he gets up towards Marlene and they knock him down,

"Please, you don't understand", when have we ever seen this man beg like that, and you can see his heart drop, because he is completely alone and his kid is getting ready for surgery, a surgery that will kill her, and he's helpless there, after resisting for so long he finally allowed himself to care for her, and now she's being ripped away from him in the same brutal way like Sarah, by authority figures. This scene reminds me of the scene when Tess's bite is revealed, we see him become paralyzed there too, he is faced with the death of yet another person, and his hands are tied, its him against a hospital full of armed men.

"Im sorry, I have no other choice" , "I do"

and she knows he's threating them, I do, a promise, a promise that if he doesn't get her out of there safe no one will.

Can you hear my heart breaking??, So many emotions on his face, telling Marlene " You'll regret this", "don't make me do this", it's the pleading face he's made before.

Now look how he's looking around, he's scanning the whole place infront of him, desperately looking for a way to escape? he's thinking of a plan, anything but having to resort to killing.

and you can still see him look around in the beginning of the gif, but then you can see him give up, he stumbles down the stairs, knowing that there is no other way than killing everyone in his path, he's getting further and further away from Ellie and it's either now or never, and you can see him come to terms with it in the next gif,

Now what I love so much about the way they play with lightening in this show is you can see the light in shining in his eyes, revealing the glassy teary eyes in the beginning, it makes him look vulnerable, you can see that it affects him, ofcourse the fact that Ellie is facing death upstairs but also the fact that he's gonna have to resort to violence once again, but I bet he was having flashbacks too, to Sarah? to those feelings he had after her death, to Tess, who gave him one job, and now he's failing her too. and the camera turns to his left and the light literally leaves his eyes, and you can see those shadows around his eyes, and you can see the second the switch flips in his head, and all he can think about is Ellie

And now anger has taken over, every emotion in his head is turned off, the same thing that happened when Tess told him "save who you can save", you see him go from stressed to stoic before he grabs Ellie, this is his coping mechanism after Sarahs death, even then we see him go out of his body, he disociates when he's faced with the death of a loved person, he shuts off and goes into autopilot. (putting these next to each other just breaks my heart, everytime he decides to love someone he loses them)

This one I just added because Pedros face just gave me chills here, because even though we saw him being all cold and badass previously this one's different, you can see how furious he is, but good god also the way the camera moves and the light has left his eyes, Also idk if this is gonna be coherent but the fact that he also just looks younger in this gives me the feeling that this is not just for Ellie, he is redeeming himself for Sarah too. Gah I cannot gush enough about this particular scene because look at the acting?! the way he lifts the gun, idk it is so so perfect, the terrifying look in his eyes, and the music that plays at this part, and you're immidiately like "oh shit", in the following scene they did the same with the light and it makes him being checked out so much more believable, there is nothing in his head but to save Ellie, he eliminates everyone, even if they give themselves up,

Okay but is that blood from his ears from the hit to the head or to the bomb? This man will not get up for weeks in Jackson, he is gonna be limping around, he has an unhealed stab wound, a fucked up hand he refuses to let rest, now a concussion and he'd be lucky not to have his hearing more fucked up, he is gonna be in a hell of a lot of chronic pain, once the adrenaline wears off.

he doesnt tremble in the slightest, we saw how terrified he was when the child clicker made her way into the truck, how he was trembling. This time all that is gone, he is done, last time he wasn't able to defend himself when Sarah was taken from him, this time he aint letting anyone take her. But the fact that he's not trembeling this time is so interesting, there is anger brewing in him, last time his kid was taken by authority figures , now again, are those two memories uniting in his head? The anger of having to go through this once again.

The slow motion in the hall was so anxiety inducing, you know when you get closer to something you don't wanna see and your legs feel like heavy led, he's petrified of what could be behind those doors, but this is also the first moment we see the light shine in his eyes, and we can see the tears, and its the same face he made when he saw an injured Sarah, because this situation is too familiar to him, he's been there before,

Im gonna scream, because look at how he looks at the floor before he goes in, and he very slowly lifts his eyes, and he momentarily stops, taken aback from the scene he's seeing, because she's unconsious and he has no idea if she's still alive or not, look at how terrified he looks, his heart drops with the sight of another kid looking dead

at last she's back with him and look at how he's taking in her face, his face just softens and he looks at her for any sign of injuries, maybe something that stayed with him from the time he found her in Silver lake, he slightly smiles, so much love and adoration in his eyes for her, he has her, she's safe.

and then it dawns on him, what just happened, and what could still happen, there not out yet, you can see how terrified he is, he completely checked out during the shootings. We saw how tortured he and Tess were about their time in the Boston group, we never got the details because they never wanted to even mention it, this is gonna be another weight on his shoulders, another thing he has to live with,

What I find so smart for his character to do at this moment is that the moment he sees Marlene he immidiately looks around if there are more people, because ofcourse he has his gun at the ready in his other hand, but if there are more people its no use, he has already analyzed the side of the car before going that direction, he analyzes the place before turning his attention to Marlene,

This sequence of events just hurts my heart, because he knows that without missing a beat that Ellie would sacrifice herself, because she has been through hell and seen too much, too many deaths, and she would want their deaths to mean something, that all that suffering would mean something, that it would've all not been in vain. And you can see him struggle so hard with that fact, he remembers their conversation on the roof. But the moment Marlene gets closer, thats all gone, he outweighs it in his mind, and he sacrifices it all for her safety, and the light is once again literally gone from his eyes, we can see when he shuts off and when the emotions come back to him with how smart they use the lightining to their advantage, the complete and utter hatred he looks at Marlene is so good, he knows Ellie deserves a choice, but he also knows that she's burdened with guilt about her immunity. but also he cant see another person go, another person being taken away from him, she had been through hell and she deserved to live, to smile, and he was not gonna standby while another person was ripped away from him. And ahhhhh I am rambeling here I know but its all just so well done and tragic. Its making my brain rot

I've wanted to post something like this for a while, but have been weirdly shy and nervous? fuck it - I'll say my peace and then scuttle off to my dark corner of this hellscape of an app again--

fanfic writers are just so fucking important.

this year in particular, for me, reading hundreds of thousands of words which strangers on the internet have turned into breathtaking stories, in their own free time and without monetary compensation I might remind everyone, has brought me immeasurable joy, excitement, and comfort.

life's been hard for a lot of people these past few years. I think we're all in desperate need of wholesome community. I truly believe in my heart that fanfic writers provide that in a very unique and wonderful way. so many fans on this app will consume and consume and consume this content and maybe never think twice about dropping a comment, providing encouragement, or simply hitting reblog with tags to spread the talent and entertainment further around the tumblrverse.

I used to be guilty of this: liking a story or series and just hoarding it to myself like a little smut dragon who didn't realize how impactful comments and reblogs really are to these authors. ever since coming to this realization, I make a greater effort to ensure each and every person's series, blurbs, and one-shots I read know just how much I love them, and how much their work means to me.

so whether or not anyone else sees this post, agrees with it or not, I just wanted to take time out of my night and say thank you. Thank you to every single writer who has generously given so much incredible fandom content on this site. I see you. I appreciate you.

@therestofyourstory @no-droids @whirlybirbs @charnelhouse @jangofctts @inklore @the-darklings @softlyspector @sinsofsummers @fuckyeahdindjarin @hier--soir @jrrmint @macfrog @bageldaddy @darkroastjoel @psychedelic-ink @frannyzooey @astroboots @swiftispunk @author-morgan @poppy-metal @ohcaptains @ezrasbirdie

mmm never realized it all happened in the same room :( for whatever reason, I just assumed Abby and them moved Joel down to a different room after hitting him the first time. you mean to tell me that Ellie walked in there, saw what was happening to Joel, and also saw what happened to Tommy?? all at the same time???

growing and barking. Ellie probably blamed the entire thing on herself. she was messing around with Dina when the golfing started (not that she could've prevented this), and then when she and Dina were gonna leave Maria helped and told her to bring her her husband back in one piece. Ellie said of course, but she didn't 😭😭

once again thinking about how Abby, Joel, and Tommy stopped in the same place as the strings flashback :(