Personal Body Image & Motivation Issues

Personal Body Image & Motivation Issues

I’m gonna have some rant/confession time with y’all, because the studyblr community is probably the most supportive community I’ve been a part of and the internet is a wonderful place of anonymity.

I hate my body, and I don’t want to hate it anymore.

To give you an idea of what my body type and situation is like, I’ll tell you that I am 5’ 2” and 200lbs. When I was younger I lived with a verbally abusive father who contributed to me developing an eating disorder (binge eating disorder, or BED). I have never been able to shake the weight or the unhealthy habits that I formed during my childhood. I try- believe me, I try to do what I can to shed some pounds. I currently run on my college’s cross country team because I love the way exercise makes me feel and I want to try to be healthy. But I still struggle with binge eating and hate the way my body looks.

I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I believe that all body types are beautiful- let that be known. I just feel heavy and gross and have so many self-esteem and body image issues because of my weight. Clothes shopping is the absolute worst. Clothes shopping makes me feel absolutely terrible about myself because most plus size clothing is a) super expensive, b) shoved in the far corner of a department store, or c) very baggy and unflattering on me. I want to fit into clothes that make me happy. I want to feel comfortable wearing shorts for once in my life. (A brief tangent on wearing shorts: My cross country team consists of eight very fit girls, and our coach only orders these skin tight shorts for competitions. I can’t wear the shorts because they don’t even fit me. Last year he gave me the mens’ shorts to wear but this year they changed the cut of the mens so now their shorts don’t work with my body type either. I don’t know what I’ll be wearing to track meets this season and it feels terrible to not fit.)

I feel it is best to at least share with the studyblr community because you guys are great at sending positive vibes and help keep each other accountable. I am going to start being more conscious of my eating habits and adding some extra bodyweight workouts to my weekly cardio/track workouts. On top of that, I have been doing  yoga and trying to make little mental changes to improve my negative thoughts towards my body. Having an accountability buddy (or even just a friend) during this attempt to help me learn to love my figure and be healthy would be greatly appreciated.

Alright, my rant/confession is over. I am going to go back to reblogging study tips and aesthetic photos of study sessions.

Love you all,

thecosmicstudyblr

When you start a new goal/activity/program, make a list of reasons why you’re doing it. Make sure it is filled with:

-Reasons why you chose to start this path of action.

-Positive thoughts.

-Personal goals.

-How it can benefit you.

-Where you hope the activity will lead you in life.

-Happy memories surrounding the activity/program.

Open the list and read through it whenever you feel like giving up. It works.

I used this when I marched drum corps because the demanding schedule was exhausting both physically and mentally. When I wanted to quit I opened to the page and reminded myself why I was there, and it always helped me feel better.

reviewing korean grammar and writing up lecture notes~ ig: studylustre

[1. 2. 2018]

I love that I was able to find my sports psychology textbook cheap online. I love to highlight but I always feel bad highlighting a rental book. Overall great study session: I finished two discussion boards and began looking for review articles for my senior seminar paper.

“We lose ourselves in books. We find ourselves there too.”

Graduation and Graduate School Update

Hello again friends! I am not the best at posting original content regularly, but I am extremely excited to tell you about my recent graduation and upcoming plans for graduate school!

Graduation: I graduated with my Bachelor of the Arts last month from Georgian Court University. The last two months have been a whirlwind of events ceremonies, and I feel like I’ve made my mark on the University in these past two years. I was blessed to receive the Peer Mentor Award of Excellence, an academic honorable mention for Psychology, and one of ten nominations among the Senior Class for Kappa Gamma Pi. I ended up graduating Summa Cum Laude and I am ready to move on to Grad School.

Grad School: I will officially be attending Montclair State University in the Fall! I am going for my M.A. in Industrial/Organizational Psychology with a culminating thesis. On top of this, I also will be starting a Graduate Assistantship at the Center for Writing Excellence. I absolutely love academic, creative, and professional writing; the fact that I got this assistantship is an absolute dream come true. 

I plan on posting and giving study tips as I utilize them in the future, and I hope to be more active on this studyblr soon!