Eating Disroders - Tumblr Posts
I went on a rant about eating disorders. Sorry for typos but I just had to get this out asap
week one, 4•28•19
i lost 10 pounds this week!! i don’t know how it happened since i feel like i binged the entire week but i started doing some basic workouts and drinking green tea every morning. if i keep going at this rate i should be at my gw by the end of june !!!
My Soft Edges
*Eating disorder trigger warning*
All my edges have been Softened. All my hollows filled out. Every sign of my pain erased. Except of course everything that never can be. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss it. The ache in my bones reminding me I was alive. The ache in my soul finally manifesting in a way people could see my hurt. Reminding me I was alive. You have to be living to be dying. All my edges sharp edges have been softened. Little pockets of flesh pad them down. Away. Out of sight. I suppose they are supposed to do the same thing with the pain. Maybe not though. Maybe they know exactly what they're doing. The padded edges, my padded body. My own quilted isolation chamber. My pain isn't their problem anymore. My cries padded down. Away. Out of sight. All my edges have been smoothed. It makes my pain a little easier to swallow for them. All my hollows filled out. It makes me it a softer thing to brush aside. But me? I am still here. Crying out in this padded cell. Still cutting myself on all the sharp edges and trying to fill these deep deep hollows
how many of us have disordered eating because buying food is too expensive? because prepared food it too expensive? because we don’t have the energy to feed ourselves? because we forget we need to eat? because sensory problems makes most food too hard? because food requires too much focus so we just forget about it?
Pretty. Girls. DONT. Eat.
I spent years wholeheartedly believing these four words.
This phrase consumed my thoughts to the point where I never thought I would be good enough until I could stop eating for good.
And I know I am not the only one.
If you have ever felt this way - or you feel that way now - just take a moment to remind yourself of two things:
1. PRETTY GIRLS DO EAT.
2. BEING PRETTY IS NOT THE ONLY VALUE YOU HAVE AS A WOMAN
Im not the first person to point these things out. And I sure as hell hope I am not the last. But I hope one day when you google “pretty girls eat” that you see something different.
Because… pretty girls fucking eat!!
aubernutter
they eat because eating makes you look and feel good
thefitally
they eat to look good in clothes
misfitting-skin
they eat to look good in a bikini
empyrealblue
they eat to feel good naked
2jam4u
they eat so they can lose weight
just-yasmeen
They eat so they can gain muscle
runningtowardmygoal
they eat so they eat so they can work out
car-dio
they eat to run to the top
sunnystrong
they eat to lift big
fit-and-skinny-kate
they eat to achieve that pose
imgonnamakeachange
they eat to compete
marisaaprice
they eat for their sport
fastgirlsdoitwell
they eat to have the strength and energy to love being active
trailblazinghijabi
they eat for bright eyes and clear minds
fitchris25
they eat for beautiful smiles and strong teeth
damnshelostweight
they eat to grow brows on fleek
fullybalanced
they eat for healthy skin
weight-a-second
they eat for strong beautiful hair
underground-health
they eat to love their selfies
cinnamon-toast-thighs
they eat because they love themselves
exhaleandrun
and they eat because they love food and their bodies need food
goodhealthgoodvibes
One day I want little girls to google “pretty girls eat” and see pictures of beautiful women like this.
Women who are not only beautiful, but so much more. (and if you follow them you KNOW that they all eat!)
Fuck “pretty girls don’t eat” Because we do. And we should remind each other of that until every lost girl who has had the misfortune of believing such a terrible lie can be shown the truth:
PRETTY GIRLS EAT.
HEALTHY girls eat.
STRONG girls eat.
DETERMINED girls eat.
CONFIDENT girls eat.
SMART girls eat.
HAPPY girls eat.
PRETTY. GIRLS. EAT.
slowly dissapear
Personal Body Image & Motivation Issues
I’m gonna have some rant/confession time with y’all, because the studyblr community is probably the most supportive community I’ve been a part of and the internet is a wonderful place of anonymity.
I hate my body, and I don’t want to hate it anymore.
To give you an idea of what my body type and situation is like, I’ll tell you that I am 5’ 2” and 200lbs. When I was younger I lived with a verbally abusive father who contributed to me developing an eating disorder (binge eating disorder, or BED). I have never been able to shake the weight or the unhealthy habits that I formed during my childhood. I try- believe me, I try to do what I can to shed some pounds. I currently run on my college’s cross country team because I love the way exercise makes me feel and I want to try to be healthy. But I still struggle with binge eating and hate the way my body looks.
I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I believe that all body types are beautiful- let that be known. I just feel heavy and gross and have so many self-esteem and body image issues because of my weight. Clothes shopping is the absolute worst. Clothes shopping makes me feel absolutely terrible about myself because most plus size clothing is a) super expensive, b) shoved in the far corner of a department store, or c) very baggy and unflattering on me. I want to fit into clothes that make me happy. I want to feel comfortable wearing shorts for once in my life. (A brief tangent on wearing shorts: My cross country team consists of eight very fit girls, and our coach only orders these skin tight shorts for competitions. I can’t wear the shorts because they don’t even fit me. Last year he gave me the mens’ shorts to wear but this year they changed the cut of the mens so now their shorts don’t work with my body type either. I don’t know what I’ll be wearing to track meets this season and it feels terrible to not fit.)
I feel it is best to at least share with the studyblr community because you guys are great at sending positive vibes and help keep each other accountable. I am going to start being more conscious of my eating habits and adding some extra bodyweight workouts to my weekly cardio/track workouts. On top of that, I have been doing yoga and trying to make little mental changes to improve my negative thoughts towards my body. Having an accountability buddy (or even just a friend) during this attempt to help me learn to love my figure and be healthy would be greatly appreciated.
Alright, my rant/confession is over. I am going to go back to reblogging study tips and aesthetic photos of study sessions.
Love you all,
thecosmicstudyblr
People really need to fuck off with this “not pro just using tags” bullshit
a) you’re not fooling anyone
b) it doesn’t matter whether you support it or not, you’re still part of the problem because you’re using these people’s insecurities to get your post attention
c) cease
d) this is an actual example of what “not pro just using tags” should look like
First Stats
Current Weight: 50.3kg {BMI:20.9}
Height: 155cm {5″1}
GW1: 49kg {BMI: 20.4} GW2: 48kg {BMI: 20.0} Gw3: 46kg {BMI: 19.1} Gw4: 44kg {BMI: 18.3} GW5: 42kg {BMI: 17.5} Gw6: 40kg {BMI: 16.6} Gw7: 38kg {BMI: 15.8} Gw8: 36kg {BMI: 15.0} Gw9: 34kg {BMI: 14.2} Gw10: 32kg {BMI: 13.3} Gw11: 30kg {BMI: 12.5} UGW: 28kg {BMI: 11.7}
Too fat to function
I'm always eating too much and then complaining why I never lose weight
Have you ever hated yourself so much, you couldn't breathe? Need to be skinny.
"Waking up thinner is worth going to bed hungry."
Two pounds a day will make your doctor worry but that's okay.
Anonymous
The haunting disorder
It was getting better. I was getting better, I’ve been eating healthy and working out. I was done with binging and restricting. But I can’t. I just can’t. I’ve been dealing with this disorder for 6 years now. You can’t leave it. You can’t get away from it. No matter how hard you try. It won’t leave. It’ll always be haunting you.