I Havent Done Requests In So Long. I Have Some Drafts Im Working On Making Readable But If You Have A

I haven’t done requests in so long. I have some drafts I’m working on making readable but if you have a request you can send it.

I mainly do yunho(ateez), chan(skz), and felix(skz) but I’ve done a lot more. You can send atz, skz, and my ogs: bts

I probably should’ve mentioned during that poll that Mobster Jimin is Poly Yoonmin x Reader

{The Innocents is a story I wrote years ago on kmindset.}

CMON I CANT NOT ISE THE NEW AGUST D VISUALS I GOT!!!!!!

They’re literally perfect for ‘The Innocents’ Yoongi wow

I’m going to post Felix makes three and a new version of the innocents chapter 1, I have no self control

Damn y’all nasty😂

…says the one writing it 👀

Out of my drafts, what should I post after the yunho drabble series finale?

felix x reader x chan 18+ only, minors dni themes: suggestive, bit of dacryphilia, some comfort

[1:56] It’s about 2 a.m. when you realize Chan’s warmth isn’t near you anymore. You look around the dark room only making out the cracked door with fairly bright light seeping in. It’s a bit strange as Chan always turns off all the lights at night. Even if he’s awake he tries to turn on as few as possible so as not to disturb you.

You slip from under the covers. Sliding your feet into slippers, you quietly go to look for Chan. As soon as you leave the room, you hear hushed voices. He’s obviously not alone. Not too strange as the members pop in whenever, especially since some of them have developed sleepless habits from their insomniac leader.

It becomes clear this isn’t a normal visit as the sound of sobbing becomes clear. As you enter the living room you see a sad felix hunched over. Chan has a hand on his back trying in vain to calm the younger man. From his wet chest you can tell he had been holding him for quite sometime before now.

Almost on autopilot, you rush over only to be stopped by your boyfriend’s hand. He shakes his head as if not wanting you to get involved but you can’t help it. 

“Lixxie” you call. He looks up quickly, face red and wet with so many shed tears. He looks at you for a second before his face crumbles. Your heart clenches painfully at the sight. You had only been a few steps away when Chan stopped you so it takes only one long stride to grab him in your arms.

He wraps his arms around you, holding tight as he sobs into your stomach. His whole body shakes with emotion. His breathing grows uneven and you soothe his back whispering to “Breathe for me. Deep breaths” Chan’s hand soothed his lower back as well. He looked on, almost seeming in pain at the despair of one of his boys.

He finally pulls back to look up at you again. You crouch down and hold his cheek as he only looks at you, almost in quiet awe. You see him looking over your features with those pretty sparking eyes. They look even prettier with those crystalline tears. You swallow the thoughts quite literally. “Fel-”

He kisses you before you can finish. It feels almost unreal at first. Despite the speed at which he moved to claim your lips, it was soft like you had shamefully imagined many times over. After a moment(you’re honestly unsure just how long, but definitely longer than you should have) you pull back. You blink incredulously at him before looking over to Chan. Though it somehow felt like just you and Felix were in the room, that was still far from the case. Your boyfriend sat there watching you indulge in another man. His friend. His emotionally vulnerable friend.

But looked back at you calmly. “Chan”

“It’s ok. Make him feel better baby. Doesn’t he deserve it?” His words were spoken surely and sincerely. And by the raise of his brow, that question was not rhetorical.

You looked back to the boy whose face you were now holding at a small distance. His soft eyes were pleading with you but were also curious of your answer, wanting to mask the sadness. He needed this.

“Of course he deserves it. He’s a good boy.”

Aroha, please don’t take this as “failure” or your fault

Moonbin has been so amazingly loved by us but (speaking from experience) you can’t make someone stay for you alone. Society collectively still has a long way to go with mental health. We seen many times an artist being vocal about it and even channeling into their art and still passing. People need more than kind words. Those are always needed but people need therapy and/or medication, less toxic work environments, etc etc.

I can be surrounded by love and still need to be admitted. I can hear a dozen positive things but the one negative will stick the longest. I can have tons of good things happen but one bad thing ruins my day. I need medication. I need therapy. I need a better environment. I NEED more than happy people.

WE need more than happy people.

Please please, right now just…

breathe

Talk to someone. Or be alone.

Laugh at something that makes you happy. Cry to sad music.

Write a random story. Write about your pain.

But please just don’t take this as a failure. We loved him as much as we could and we always will.

Remember him for everything he’s given us, not how he left us

They put a community label on it 🙄

[10:45] Felix (ft. Jisung, Changbin, and Hyunjin) (minors DNI)