Aroha, Please Dont Take This As Failure Or Your Fault

Aroha, please don’t take this as “failure” or your fault

Moonbin has been so amazingly loved by us but (speaking from experience) you can’t make someone stay for you alone. Society collectively still has a long way to go with mental health. We seen many times an artist being vocal about it and even channeling into their art and still passing. People need more than kind words. Those are always needed but people need therapy and/or medication, less toxic work environments, etc etc.

I can be surrounded by love and still need to be admitted. I can hear a dozen positive things but the one negative will stick the longest. I can have tons of good things happen but one bad thing ruins my day. I need medication. I need therapy. I need a better environment. I NEED more than happy people.

WE need more than happy people.

Please please, right now just…

breathe

Talk to someone. Or be alone.

Laugh at something that makes you happy. Cry to sad music.

Write a random story. Write about your pain.

But please just don’t take this as a failure. We loved him as much as we could and we always will.

Remember him for everything he’s given us, not how he left us

old draft i just found

Imagine you want Chan to cum inside you so bad that you try to coax him into it. Mewling ‘please’ over and over again as he reaches his peak. He gets mildly annoyed but just fucks harder to make you cum first until he pulls out to cum on your stomach. You pout but he says something about it being too gross and weird.

You get very quiet after that, not speaking a word as he cleans you up. When he gets into bed you immediately get up to go to the living room. He is disappointed since he was hoping to fall asleep next to you since he had to work early the next morning but he goes to sleep anyway.

Two nights later, he came home earlier than usual to spend time with you but you’re obviously upset. You’ve barely spoken to him or touched him since that night. He’s barely even made eye contact with you. Felix notices the tension but doesn’t say anything until he sees you walk right past Chan out of the kitchen when he was clearly going to say something to you. He finally asks “Is everything ok? She’s been like this for a few days.”

Chan, now annoyed though slightly embarrassed, speaks through pink cheeks. “She is just upset she didn’t get what she wanted.”

“What did she want?”

Chan stumbles and stutters for a moment before just saying something vague about a “bedroom fantasy”. “I just don’t think I should sacrifice what I want just so she’s not a brat. I don’t want to feel gross when I’m sharing a moment with her.”

Felix’s brows furrow knowing you wouldn’t be that upset over something so selfish but he isn’t sure what it even is nor is he sure if it’s his place. Before he can say anything you speak up from the doorway.

“Fuck you, Chris.” Both men look towards where you were standing with angry tears. “I’m not being a brat and I’m not trying to make you uncomfortable.”

“Then why have you been acting like this?”

“Because” you paused and Felix noticed you were hugging yourself. “Because you keep calling me gross and weird”

Felix was alarmed at the sight of your tears and rushed you comfort you. You fully buried yourself in his arms.

“I didn’t call you gross, just what you were asking.” Chan tried in vain to argue.

“Do you think having your cum on my stomach is better??” You fired back. “Or my mouth or my ass?”

Felix was frozen, veeeery sure he should not be hearing this.

Meanwhile Chan was lost for words.

“Sex is fucking gross in general but I’m not trying to make you do something your uncomfortable with. I just don’t want to be called weird or gross.” He could barely hear the last part because you buried your face in Felix’s chest as you began to cry harder. “I thought I could share things with you but you made me feel bad about myself instead”

Chan felt worse than bad. He hadn’t thought about that, any of it. Sex isn’t the most sanitary thing. Personally he’d never had cum on him the way you had so he couldn’t even argue how gross it might’ve felt relative to cumming inside you. Most importantly, he hasn’t meant to insult you. He would never try to hurt your feelings especially in a vulnerable moment.

“______ I’m so sorry!! I hadn’t thought about it like that.” He apologized profusely. Felix tapped you gently, pointing to Chan whose arms were now open to give every bit of comfort he could. You accepted, albeit hesitant, though once you were there you squeezed him tight as you cried. He squeezed back, tears of his own falling as he continued to apologize. After a few minutes, he picked you up, yours arms still tight around him, taking you back to his room.

Felix stood there for a moment. “I feel like I shouldn’t have heard any of that.”

In the end, Chan’s innocent comfort turns to apologetic lust and he ends up granting your request. From the moment he feels himself release into your waiting walls he learns something- he loves it.

He gets hooked instantly from that moment. You smiled contently not knowing you’ve awakened the beast- Chan’s breeding kink.

I didn’t proofread or format 🤷🏽‍♀️ I just wrote some shit out so I might delete

Felix makes three and The innocents are both queued for tonight

Both poly stories. Chanlix and Yoonmin(mafia au)

© FROM. ZERO

felix x reader (ft. jisung, changbin, and hyunjin) 18+ only, minors dni themes: explicit, embarrassment, mention of voyeurism, masturbation

[10:45] His face was getting hot. Every time a notification came down, he sweats a little more.

While you did like to play with him, you were usually nicer than this. Nice enough not to rile him up with his friends surrounding him. However, you were losing patience. You’d hung out with Jisung, Changbin, and Hyunjin for hours now with no sign of them leaving. Usually, you loved that but you specifically told him not to bring them today. It was a whole day of waiting for Felix to come because you woke up, particularly horny. 

It was fine at first. The good company of your friends a welcome distraction. 

Until it wasn’t.

Jisung decided to show you the show he’s been raving about. You weren’t bored per se but with each time he pressed 'next episode', you grew more agitated. With less chatter, there was less distraction, less distraction meant you were going to let Felix know just how you felt.

The first text wasn’t bad. Harmless honestly.

The second went from 0-50

The third….50 to 3000

You’d gone to the bathroom and recorded a video. It was you fingering yourself on the edge of the counter. You made sure to let him glimpse your face a few times. Thoroughly needy. He turned so red he thought he would start whistling like a kettle. 

The corner chair he’d chosen protected the lewd sight from your friends but you were caring less and less anyway.

It was right at the sixth episode that you stood up with a groan.

“Ok everyone out. I’m going to fuck Felix.”

It’s silent as hell.

Finally, Changbin says “W-What?”

You turned to him with a straight face. “You heard what I said. Unless you’re going to watch, leave. Now.”

Felix is sure he’ll be colored permanently deep red now but you don’t care. You keep your eyes on him as the others leave, continuously taking curious glances back. You hear Hyunjin ask “Is staying really an option?” as Jisung pushes him before the door shuts.

Despite his flustered state, he says “If you wanted me to fuck you that much you coul-”

“No no you didn’t hear me, Lix.” You lean down, a hand on each arm rest, caging him in. “I’m going to fuck you. ”

Those sweet eyes are blown wide now. “Up.” You say, gesturing to the room with a nod before leading the way. He scrambles up quickly, nearly running into you as you stop and look back. “And if you three are going to stay you need to be back here too in the next minute.”

Felix is confused by your words until he looks back. Slowly, three heads poke around the wall to the entryway. 

Maybe he should’ve sent them home earlier.

I haven’t done requests in so long. I have some drafts I’m working on making readable but if you have a request you can send it.

I mainly do yunho(ateez), chan(skz), and felix(skz) but I’ve done a lot more. You can send atz, skz, and my ogs: bts