Felix X Reader X Chan18+ Only, Minors Dnithemes: Suggestive, Bit Of Dacryphilia, Some Comfort

felix x reader x chan 18+ only, minors dni themes: suggestive, bit of dacryphilia, some comfort

[1:56] It’s about 2 a.m. when you realize Chan’s warmth isn’t near you anymore. You look around the dark room only making out the cracked door with fairly bright light seeping in. It’s a bit strange as Chan always turns off all the lights at night. Even if he’s awake he tries to turn on as few as possible so as not to disturb you.

You slip from under the covers. Sliding your feet into slippers, you quietly go to look for Chan. As soon as you leave the room, you hear hushed voices. He’s obviously not alone. Not too strange as the members pop in whenever, especially since some of them have developed sleepless habits from their insomniac leader.

It becomes clear this isn’t a normal visit as the sound of sobbing becomes clear. As you enter the living room you see a sad felix hunched over. Chan has a hand on his back trying in vain to calm the younger man. From his wet chest you can tell he had been holding him for quite sometime before now.

Almost on autopilot, you rush over only to be stopped by your boyfriend’s hand. He shakes his head as if not wanting you to get involved but you can’t help it. 

“Lixxie” you call. He looks up quickly, face red and wet with so many shed tears. He looks at you for a second before his face crumbles. Your heart clenches painfully at the sight. You had only been a few steps away when Chan stopped you so it takes only one long stride to grab him in your arms.

He wraps his arms around you, holding tight as he sobs into your stomach. His whole body shakes with emotion. His breathing grows uneven and you soothe his back whispering to “Breathe for me. Deep breaths” Chan’s hand soothed his lower back as well. He looked on, almost seeming in pain at the despair of one of his boys.

He finally pulls back to look up at you again. You crouch down and hold his cheek as he only looks at you, almost in quiet awe. You see him looking over your features with those pretty sparking eyes. They look even prettier with those crystalline tears. You swallow the thoughts quite literally. “Fel-”

He kisses you before you can finish. It feels almost unreal at first. Despite the speed at which he moved to claim your lips, it was soft like you had shamefully imagined many times over. After a moment(you’re honestly unsure just how long, but definitely longer than you should have) you pull back. You blink incredulously at him before looking over to Chan. Though it somehow felt like just you and Felix were in the room, that was still far from the case. Your boyfriend sat there watching you indulge in another man. His friend. His emotionally vulnerable friend.

But looked back at you calmly. “Chan”

“It’s ok. Make him feel better baby. Doesn’t he deserve it?” His words were spoken surely and sincerely. And by the raise of his brow, that question was not rhetorical.

You looked back to the boy whose face you were now holding at a small distance. His soft eyes were pleading with you but were also curious of your answer, wanting to mask the sadness. He needed this.

“Of course he deserves it. He’s a good boy.”

TW:// suic*de, depression, sadness

If you are from my other blog you may not be unfamiliar with this kind of post especially for S & J

Whenever you see someone else’s journey end this way when you’ve felt that before, I think it hits you different. It hurts in a way you can’t fully explain. You see the hurt it spreads and the void it creates. But you also understand that pain(the best way each of us can understand another person) since you’ve been there.

These are the moments I also hope and plead for more. I beg there is something good to greet us on the other side. Something that takes them and comforts them to let them know they won’t suffer anymore, that they’ve done so well and they can rest now.

If it’s all just just darkness we won’t know the difference but honestly I can’t take solace in that. It doesn’t have to be “God” but they deserve more. WE deserve more. At the end of our journey, at the end of our suffering, we deserve unconditional peace and happiness expelling all our earthly sorrows.

Where he is now, he is resting. They all are.

Felix makes three and The innocents are both queued for tonight

Both poly stories. Chanlix and Yoonmin(mafia au)

CMON I CANT NOT ISE THE NEW AGUST D VISUALS I GOT!!!!!!

They’re literally perfect for ‘The Innocents’ Yoongi wow

I’m going to post Felix makes three and a new version of the innocents chapter 1, I have no self control

Found all three drafts for a poly chanlix series I had an idea for (Not Alaskan Californian Kings). It borders on pwp a lot so the over 50% of people who voted for that in the poll, you’ll definitely get it.

Lemme know what you think🫶🏽

My other chanlix stuff can be found here

Damn that Chan draft is at 300+ notes 😳