A Comprehensive List Of My Favourite Movies

A comprehensive list of my favourite movies

1. The Road to El Dorado

-nostalgia, homoerotic, gorgeous

2. The Emperors New Groove

-nostalgia again, hilarious, found family sorta deal

3. Fantastic Mr. Fox

-im gay

4. Mamma Mia

-im gay the sequel, but also a theatre kid who cant act or sing

5. Moana

-stunning visuals, stunning music, im from aotearoa and i grew up reading about maui so seeing that represented was really speacial

6. gnomeo and juliet

-i don’t even know. music = good, shakespeare retellings = great, cast = stellar

i got a weighted blanket for my birthday (!!) and i used my friends whenever i was at her house so i already knew they were great. but honestly. i can’t believe how good it feels to be having it on me whilst i’m on my very own bed ?!?! i am so comfy. and being crushed by the blanket feels like all my burdens hav been temporarily relieved ?! i sound so dramatic. but it’s so good. get a weighted blanket if you can. so so good

i was reading over some old essays that i’d written to see if i could steal parts of them for my current essay, and i am being 100% honest here when i say that one of The Best Feelings is reading your own writing and going “damn. that was a FANTASTIC line”

i need to learn how to drive. so, i need to practice. my mother has somehow decided that the best time to do this is for me to drive home from work. so it’s 9ish at night. i have just worked either a 5 hour shift after 7 hours of school, or just a 9 hour shift.

i am stressed and exhausted. and she wonders why i screw up.

it’s important to note that we don’t do anything after school on other days. so i could drive in daylight then. but no.

hmph

(Eta: there was an addition to this post that adds a bit more.)

I know the joke about Izzy is "human dropped into a muppets movie" but the tragedy is that he's a queer-coded character from some 1940s or 50s popcorn flick dropped into a pride parade in a floating gayborhood & he flat out has no idea how to deal with it. We learn he's a great swordsman in the most homoerotic way possible when he uses his skills to cut open a man's shirt. We see him react more openly and with less inner conflict when Ed slaps him on the back and says "I need you here" than when Ed implies to him, a minute earlier, that he could be a captain. When he's part of an overtly queer scene where other characters get the romance & he just gets the subtext, Con O'Neill's body language stands out even more—go back to the scene where Izzy tells Stede that Ed adores him, the way he strokes his fingers down the curtain dividing him from Stede. There is literally no straight explanation for this choice, but there is also no explicit acknowledgement that the character is queer; in a different, older show or movie, that body language would be the acknowledgment. He imbues the character with the looks and pauses that you would see in, like, Ben-Hur or something, where everyone knew a character was gay but nobody could say it out loud. Keep in mind that in the comedies where these characters would exist, the subtextually gay man would sometimes be best friends with a Strong Leading Man who got the girl in the end.

We hear him say outright that there's no retirement for people like Izzy & Ed, only death, which is itself a hugely loaded analogy next to the title statement "our flag means death" when you consider our history & our use of flags throughout. And Izzy's so focused on pure survival that he ends up nasty, manipulative, violent—the only way men like him can survive in his mind, or in the genre he's from, if they don't have a Strong Leading Man best friend like, say, a Blackbeard to protect him from the narrative. When Ed starts to live in Stede's world, Izzy is both losing his subtextual boyfriend and also acting as though Ed's going to get himself (and Izzy) killed if he keeps going down this path.

I will never be sane over this. Izzy is a Celluloid Closet case study who's been dropped into a Logo TV original, and so much of the conflict of his character comes from his trying to use the coping techniques from that world (including techniques used by queer coded villains! He's not healthy!) in a world where these techniques are actively harmful rather than a way to survive.

what does it say about me that i study whilst listening to hyperpop?