Being In Public Spaces - Just A Random Piece Of Writing Based On Experiences.

Being in public spaces - just a random piece of writing based on experiences.

I’ll constantly lift and turn my head to see if I recognise anyone, to check if people are looking at me, when it’s only just my thoughts. I’ll turn my music up louder as if that’ll drown my surrounding environment; the wirr of the escalators, people talking with their friends, their shoes hitting off of the floor, the overused songs playing through the speakers. I’ll aimlessly stare at the phone in front of my face, not looking at anything - yet acting as if it’ll make me invisible. Nobody’s looking at me. Nobody is judging me. Yet my head is telling me a different story. The unease not going away from my stomach.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

They’re looking at me.

And I’ll check once more as an attempt to put myself at ease. Very quickly the cycle repeats. 

Suddenly the voice will disappear when I’m on my own, away from strangers.

Away from friends.

Away from family.

Sometimes this is what Kaveh x Alhaitham reminds me of and I simply adore it

Yes this is my Alhaitham birthday post.

It was about time I drew Grian!

I stopped doing digital art for about three years, I restarted in April/May of last year. Funnily enough, I did a small doodle of Grian. As annoying and tiring the hours that I spend drawing may be sometimes, I can tell that it’s actually paying off and I am improving and learning.

Side by side comparison:

“I was hurting

And you knew.

So you showed me

What to do.”

Ready now - Dodie

I love these two they’re constantly on my mind omg

Still trying to figure out how to draw these two but I’ll eventually get there!

Sometimes when I sit down and think about certain books and characters, one of the things that always come across my mind:

I always forget how young they are.

For example, At school I had accidentally read the sixth book first as I hadn’t been told which one was the first book. Whilst reading that I had the impression that they were around 18. Only when I read the rest of the series in the correct order as someone finally told me, did I realise that Daisy and Hazel were still only around 13-14?

It’s quite tragic (especially as they’re alive during the Second World War), I forgot that in the newest book they were all only 19. These kids were forced to grow up so quickly, not just because of the war, but because of their accidental environments whilst growing up. None of them can ever seem to get a break, and even when they do, something always happens whether that be small or large.

Anyways just thought I’d ramble on about this because it’s food for thought. (I underestimated how busy I would be yesterday so I’m still finishing Valentine’s Day art for certain characters)

I love my friends <3