New Blog For Stream Notifs Bc Twitter Is Exploding

new blog for stream notifs bc twitter is exploding

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will stream eventually I promise

Update: they beat the boss! Shen Li, the SSC official that Key here lied to, challenged the party to a spar, and they managed to structure her before she could structure them… somehow

A LL12 Monarch-Death’s Head-Dusk Wing-Metalmark vs two LL0 pilots. And she *lost*

It was close tho- both pilots were at 2hp and one even entered Danger Zone towards the end… but we were all actively learning the combat system *during combat* so that’s probably how they survived

I popped literally everything I had in that Monarch, and I almost got one of them with a Fuel Rod Eject (Nuclear Cavalier 3), but the sniper build Everest that was Key’s mech got a lucky shot with his Thermal Rifle (Brutal 1) and knocked off one of Shen Li’s missile racks (Structure Damage 3/4), ending the fight.

Not to discount the other mech- a LL0 tank Sagramatha piloted by Hambi, the other one of my players- as it tunneled up to Shen Li (Prospector 1) and hit her right in the chest with a pickaxe

lancer moment

little over a year later, been using he/him since this and have decided “yeah I’m a trans guy”

also figured out that I’m biologically intersex a few months ago, which was neat

bored, brain spew time- my experiences with gender are Weird.

born AFAB in the US south, several forms of neurodivergence (Autism, ADHD, anxiety, depression, possible BPD but that one’s just a theory), mom was/is very open about gender and whatnot, dad didn’t/doesn’t like talking about it

went to a private Christian school for grades K-3, very “tomboy” like for those years. sometimes asked to be referred to by my middle name because it was more neutral than my first one- not knowingly for gender reasons at the time but looking back that was not cis behavior lmao

never really processed what it *meant* to be perceived as fem/masc/nb until middle/high school years, existed Purely On Vibes until then

Socially awkward disaster for almost my entire schooling time. Had trouble understanding conversation rules (thanks, mostly-unmedicated Autism /s), but with extensive training I eventually just ended up as a robot, silent for fear of overstepping and being rude

did a lot of reading about LGBTQ+ identities in the hopes of being considerate to my classmates

brain clicked with demigirl and/or genderfae for almost all of middle school

quarantine hits and most of my interactions shift to being online. internet kinda defaults to he/him when talking about randos in game lobbies… matter of time until I get referred to as such… and it isn’t uncomfortable? kinda vibe with it??

start experimenting with various labels:

agender didn’t work because I still was okay with being perceived as she/they/he;

bi-gender didn’t feel right either;

stuck with genderfluid for a while but it felt a bit too rigid- like I had to pick which mode I was in constantly to fit the description;

knew it was SOME kind of non-binary but I didn’t know much about the various umbrella and sub-type terms

‘bout a year into quarantine, still in school, making pride pins because I wanted to sell them and make money somehow, did some more research, learned about genderqueer.

and then the lightbulb finally stopped flickering and stayed on.

as of late, I’ve done more reading because a lot of the folks I talk to in Tavern-Frontiers and the surrounding groups are also LGBTQ+. found a label called “gendervague”- gender perception impacted by neurodivergence. while I’m personally not gonna use it as a main label, it definitely fits as a description of the clusterfuck that is my experience with identity

best way I can describe how I identify is “fuck if I know, call me whatever makes it easier.” General vibes I feel with different sets below:

she/her- born with it, used to it, okay with it

he/him- still feels new but I can work with it (I mostly use this when I refer to myself online, to help get used to it)

they/them- good default, not as natural as she/her but also not as exciting as he/him

it/its- :pensive_robot: yeah (nothing really wrong with it, but I’d rather call myself it than be called it)

neopronouns- never tried before, funky and new! (good funky, like a new genre of music- not bad funky, like socks)

I just got seven ads in a row on mobile

what the fuck

Aiat: let it be thus because it must.

Aiat: it is this way because it could be no other way.

Aiat: let me be what I am because to be anything else would be fatal.

Those who’ve been here for a while (and have seen my art) have probably heard that I have weird moments of phantom limbs that I realistically wouldn’t ever have- wings, spikes, horns, animal ears, or a tail (which is the current bother)

Idk if it’s a furry thing or an alterhuman thing or a therian thing or whatever it counts as but it fuckin sucks

and the closest analogues I have- mechanical wings, a belt tail, barrette ears- don’t line up right and have no nerve-feelings so it just feels awkward on top of the phantom sensation

Idk, I feel weird talking abt this… like I’m a “freak” and a “furry (derogatory)”

but it genuinely gets in the way sometimes- like right now, when I can’t sleep bc I can “feel” my tail even though it isn’t there and it’s making my brain go nuts