Honestly FUCK Endos. I Hate Them, I'm Tired Of The Being Nice Shit. I Don't Want To Be Nice To Those

Honestly FUCK endos. I hate them, I'm tired of the being nice shit. I don't want to be nice to those assholes. I don't want to give them the benefit of the doubt and I'm so SO tired of people being so friendly with them. Everytime I see a "pro-endo" or "endo-safe" post it makes me rage, everytime I see an endo themselves it makes me so unbelievably angry. I cannot fathom how these people can take our disorder and just have all the "fun" parts of it while completely ignoring the actual scientific and medical reasons for the disorder actually existing as well as over half the other symptoms. Fuck sake, we can hardly tolerate endo-neutrals, like we understand why you'd be neutral, but it also makes us so upset that you could even tolerate them. Fucksake.

(this goes for all "non-traumagenics", I don't care what you call yourself, I hate you.)

-toby / bee boy - anger holder - hx/h<3m

The huge urge to socialise yet also the fear of socialising because what if we say something wrong :((( ahsirbwievje

-blurry

I wish we were closer as a system,

Or I wish I was closer to my headmates.

I feel like all my headmates have relationships and friendships with one another, they hang out all the time, but I'm left out. We have P-DID and I'm the dominant alter, I can't leave this front, and so I've never been to headspace and its frustrating.

I wish I could just go join them, I don't want to stay out here alone until someone decides to join me, I want to join them. I find it unfair that they have the choice to leave while I struggle with all this, I hate it so much.

I love my headmates (platonically) but at the same time I feel jealous, jealous of how close they all are with eachother, of how much they might get to see eachother, of the fact that they often remember eachother easier when I struggle to remember all their names.

I feel guilty, I don't know why, I'm just guilty. Maybe it's because I can hardly remember their names, maybe I feel guilty because I feel like I'm being selfish.. I don't know

It just hurts. I want a closer relationship with them, yet the only headmates I've had a close relationship with are chara and Aries / kaz. Hell, I hardly talk with my own subsystem, I want to, but I hardly ever feel them, I can't even go into that headspace, if that one even exists

-zim / wally

Aaaaaa we'd wanna make a wiki too!! We'd die to make one 😭 cause like pluralpedia is SO inaccurate + it's so hard to even get an account on there and edit it :(

-cielo

Trying to figure out how to use wikidot and I’m fucking going insane.

What the hell is this thing telling me.

I just want to make a system wiki, please. I’m tired of end0’s claiming that they’re the ones building the community up when in reality the only reason they can do that is because they DONT HAVE THE FUCKING DISORDER. SO ITS NOT AS DIFFICULT.

-B0ffy

Honestly, on the topic of slurs I think we have mixed opinions, we don't mind if someone uses slurs to describe themselves or their friends playfully, but when it comes to describing complete strangers (even if playfully) we feel a bit uncomfortable with it. Like personally we'd rather not be called a slur, because we just don't like it, but we understand others don't really mind, so we like to keep a sort of "ask first" type opinion on it, you know?

-zim

Mind empty, I wish for fluffy blankets and sleep but also cuddles

Where the fuck is my partner? :(

-zim / wally