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alexninn

5 years ago

Did you know morphine comes from poppies?

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pathologic pathologic 2 katherina saburova miss the earth mistress my art not super proud of this art but probably one of my best paintings sadly I like the rats I actually tone the sadness way down my first pass as imagery was much less subtle and I actually like it a lot better tone down cw drugs because i feel like katherina would on purpose tone down her emotions so she's not crying or screaming just sad I had a couple of differnt ideas a lot of them with ehr shadow being a rat but someone had drawn something a little too close to that and I didn't want to steal the idea in the end I like the idea of reaching for flowers not knowing there's a living thing under Like if you have ever reach for leaves and touch a mouse this happened to me it's a weird feeling the other mistresses are just here they add pressure weight Also feizofjei one of the reasons I drop the first design is I fucking drew a trigger of mine nt hten was like I don't feel so good dumbasses only oh spoilers

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tons-of-moths-in-a-box

1 year ago

I wish we were closer as a system,

Or I wish I was closer to my headmates.

I feel like all my headmates have relationships and friendships with one another, they hang out all the time, but I'm left out. We have P-DID and I'm the dominant alter, I can't leave this front, and so I've never been to headspace and its frustrating.

I wish I could just go join them, I don't want to stay out here alone until someone decides to join me, I want to join them. I find it unfair that they have the choice to leave while I struggle with all this, I hate it so much.

I love my headmates (platonically) but at the same time I feel jealous, jealous of how close they all are with eachother, of how much they might get to see eachother, of the fact that they often remember eachother easier when I struggle to remember all their names.

I feel guilty, I don't know why, I'm just guilty. Maybe it's because I can hardly remember their names, maybe I feel guilty because I feel like I'm being selfish.. I don't know

It just hurts. I want a closer relationship with them, yet the only headmates I've had a close relationship with are chara and Aries / kaz. Hell, I hardly talk with my own subsystem, I want to, but I hardly ever feel them, I can't even go into that headspace, if that one even exists

-zim / wally

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system vent vent post just sad i wish i was closer with my headmates

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xopicklexo

4 years ago

What's wrong with being different when everyone else is just the same?

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quotes being different difference saw this somewhere but forgot relatable quotes life quotes sad quotes just sad sad sad for me tho

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