That Hypomania Feel When Ur Buzzing With Ideas And Plans And Energy And Then Suddenly U Become An Empty

that hypomania feel when ur buzzing with ideas and plans and energy and then suddenly u become an empty husk of a person and nothing can hold ur attention or interest

proud of anyone putting effort into becoming a better version of themselves

sometimes i don’t really exist.

sometimes i exist quite painfully.

I need to be (hypo)manic. 

I need the buzz

I need the escape

I need it now. 

being mentally ill is just *gets the same diagnosis over and over again* *gets out of bed* *gets back into bed* *stresses over not studying* *stresses when u do study bc its not good enough* *takes 500 tests online of conditions that could be comorbid* *worries abt a future psychotic break*

Wow being manic during quarantine is sure something else