This Is Very Out Of The Blue

This is very out of the blue

But-

Just wanted to talk about

How LITERALLY EVERYONE IN MY LIFE, knew I was Bi, before I did.

And like, there were signs, like, HUGE signs, they were SO obvious.

And I was too homophobic with myself to accept that.

I was completely cool with non straight and non cis people, and supported them 100%.

But when it came to ME, I was just not going to accept it!

Kept INSISTING that I was straight and cis! Like, “I like guys, so I can’t be gay!” “I don’t feel like a guy, so I can’t be trans!” And just wouldn’t let myself accept that I was Bi and Enby.

I even SAID I was Bi, like, before I knew for sure that I wasn’t straight.

I was a tomboy when I was younger, I accidentally came out to my grandma and a random employee at a shoe store-

As I was shopping for shoes with my grandma, I picked out some boyish shoes, and my grandma asked “wouldn’t you want something for girls?”

And out of NOWHERE, I said “They’re not JUST for boys, I should know, I’m bisexual.”

…………

I MEANT to say TOMBOY, which is, which, does not EVEN sound like bisexual.

And I was embarrassed, cause like, HOW?! Does that happen?!

I’m still embarrassed about that to this day!

I’m just HOPING that my grandma forgot about that day, cause it has traumatized me deeply-

Oh, I hope that employee doesn’t remember also-

……

She was cute-

ANYWAYS-

All my friends knew I was Bi, they always asked me if I was Bi. Like, they never asked if I was straight or gay, or pan….they just asked if I was Bi!

I’m not upset about it, it’s just so weird that I was so self conscious about that for so long!

I had cuffed jeans that I liked wearing when I was younger, but because everyone kept saying I was Bi because of the cuffs, I ended up cutting the cuffs to go down. That’s how self conscious I was!

It took A LOT of time for me to accept that I was not straight.

But when I finally accepted it, it felt, so awesome!

When I came out, literally, no one was surprised.

They were all like “We already knew that.” And I was like “But HOW?! How did you all know before I did?”

And all they had to say was “We just got that vibe from you-“

And like, yeah, looking back on literally EVERYTHING I’VE EVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE-

I see it. And should’ve definitely known sooner.

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Ah, look at me. Making a backstory for a villain.

If you’ve been following me for a while now, you know that I don’t like the thought of a villain being well….a villain, for no reason. So obviously, I made one.

I kind of made this backstory/headcanon/theory thing?

……..

Basically, in her past, everyone kept comparing her to another girl, who had the same name, but different pronunciations.

She was better than her with everything, not only that, but she was a bit of a bully.

And people constantly messed up their names with who is who.

So that’s why she doesn’t like people mispronouncing her name.

I know that this won’t become canon, not even close. Because from what I understand about this show so far, is that it doesn’t have an actual story, so we probably won’t get a story from this character? (That’s probably why I’m not a big fan of this show-)

Anyways, I’m done talking my nonsense-

My grandmas (who are sisters but both raised my mother so that’s why I call them both grandma) are twins. They’re both pretty much Lilith and Eda. The grandma who was born first is literally JUST like Lilith, while my grandma who was born second is JUST like Eda. I also have an older sister, who is just like Lilith, with me kind of being Eda.

The fact that Lilith Clawthorne is the older sister seems so very not correct to me. Lilith Clawthorne has the most Younger Sibling energy of any character on television this FEELS like a typo.

So, I was just watching TAWOG, and when I was about to watch “The tag”, I saw the lesbian flag-

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