This Is Very Out Of The Blue

This is very out of the blue

But-

Just wanted to talk about

How LITERALLY EVERYONE IN MY LIFE, knew I was Bi, before I did.

And like, there were signs, like, HUGE signs, they were SO obvious.

And I was too homophobic with myself to accept that.

I was completely cool with non straight and non cis people, and supported them 100%.

But when it came to ME, I was just not going to accept it!

Kept INSISTING that I was straight and cis! Like, “I like guys, so I can’t be gay!” “I don’t feel like a guy, so I can’t be trans!” And just wouldn’t let myself accept that I was Bi and Enby.

I even SAID I was Bi, like, before I knew for sure that I wasn’t straight.

I was a tomboy when I was younger, I accidentally came out to my grandma and a random employee at a shoe store-

As I was shopping for shoes with my grandma, I picked out some boyish shoes, and my grandma asked “wouldn’t you want something for girls?”

And out of NOWHERE, I said “They’re not JUST for boys, I should know, I’m bisexual.”

…………

I MEANT to say TOMBOY, which is, which, does not EVEN sound like bisexual.

And I was embarrassed, cause like, HOW?! Does that happen?!

I’m still embarrassed about that to this day!

I’m just HOPING that my grandma forgot about that day, cause it has traumatized me deeply-

Oh, I hope that employee doesn’t remember also-

……

She was cute-

ANYWAYS-

All my friends knew I was Bi, they always asked me if I was Bi. Like, they never asked if I was straight or gay, or pan….they just asked if I was Bi!

I’m not upset about it, it’s just so weird that I was so self conscious about that for so long!

I had cuffed jeans that I liked wearing when I was younger, but because everyone kept saying I was Bi because of the cuffs, I ended up cutting the cuffs to go down. That’s how self conscious I was!

It took A LOT of time for me to accept that I was not straight.

But when I finally accepted it, it felt, so awesome!

When I came out, literally, no one was surprised.

They were all like “We already knew that.” And I was like “But HOW?! How did you all know before I did?”

And all they had to say was “We just got that vibe from you-“

And like, yeah, looking back on literally EVERYTHING I’VE EVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE-

I see it. And should’ve definitely known sooner.

Mommy issues and daddy issues aren’t something that should be sexualized. That’s all.

Is there a way I can beat the shit out of someone on the internet? I just came across an aphobe-

I know that everyone loves Dr. Jan. I love her too! (Kinda?)

But I can’t help but feel like she might betray Anne…..

She might not! But, I can’t trust her just yet.

I made Luz & Amity on Picrew, and I’m honestly not disappointed with how I made them!

(The Sexualities & Genders are just my headcanons.)

Gwendolyn: I made you think your curse was something to be ashamed of. Whether we want it or not, it’s a part of you. And I love every part of you.

Camila: I know this stuff made school difficult, but I’m glad you’re still being creative.

Me, wishing my mom loved and supported me as much as these two: