Guys, I Almost Slept In Lab Today.

Guys, i almost slept in lab today.

Why am i like this?

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I slept at 4 am ish last night coz i was watching fucking Shawshank Redemption. And then i woke up at 10 am hungry as fuck. I had to go to a conference at 11, so i rushed there, but turns out, it doesn't start till 5pm. So i came back and somehow fell asleep again, missed lunch and now am feeling super weak and going out to get lunch. Im pretty sure im walking like a zombie.

Ughhhh

Guys, i just finished watching the godfather part 2. I'm feeling something in my whole body. There's something in the pit of my stomach. I'm pregnant with emotions. I think its horniness, but im also feeling intellectual.

I'm scared and curious.

God help me.

Chicken butter masala tasting so good rn. Mwah.

She started digging immediately. Savagely. On the floor, on all fours, it was disgusting and desperate. After a while, she couldn't go on anymore with only her bare hands and ran off, only to return a few moments later armed with a shovel. She kept digging into the night until finally there was a 6 foot by 3 foot hole in the ground. She jumped in, lay herself down, and covered herself with the dirt.

"I'll finally be of use to others!" she thought as she closed her eyes, in hopes of never opening them again.

"The treasure is dirt?" "Yup, magic dirt, absolutely anything planted in it will grow and bear fruit"

Just a Disclaimer: I have only seen the first 2 Godfather movies and read the book a long time ago (I don't clearly remember the details in the book). So whatever I have written is based on that.

Kay Adams aborting the baby was a brilliant creative choice. In the movie, there aren't many women who are important to the story. Even Kay is just a mafia wife for most of it. She essentially is a tool to show Michael how crazy he's gotten. How he's lived long enough to be the villain.

He does all that he does in the name of protecting his family. A family that is broken and dying - Carmela is dying, Michael intends to kill Fredo, Sonny is killed, Vito is dead, Connie lives a rather unsatisfying life (but then again idk, is moving from lover to lover satisfying or a coping mechanism) and that remained, a meaningful home for Michael was Kay and the children.

So once his family that remains (Kay and the children) is broken, all the violence he does is pointless. It's business for business' sake, a seeking out of power itself.

Michael can be made to realize this in any way - Kay can kill herself after writing a note on how meaningless all this is, Kay and the children die as collateral damage, maybe one of the children can ask some question and bam! Michael gets realization, etc etc - it could be some act of self-destruction and victimization or something very passive like the chance question.

But no, Kay does not stand by and turn a blind eye. She doesn't lie down and let shit happen to her. She says enough is enough! She plays an active role, she makes a conscious decision. She exercises her liberty in whatever way she can against The Godfather. She decides she is no longer going to be complicit in his madness and won't let another human being into this terrible fate. She'd seen the man she loved, who tried to renounce his family's *heritage* and live differently, inevitably pulled back and forced into the violence, which he finally embraced. Kay doesn't wish this upon her children or any more she could bring into earth. Sure, it's an ugly choice, but it also shows that the violence Michael takes upon himself - the silent look and scary demeanor, doesn't stay only with him. It seeps into those around him, who he so dearly loves, and causes them to carry out horrific acts of violence themselves.

It's all so beautiful (not the violence, but the underlying themes, ig).