Update, Its 4PM And I Ate A Little Over 1K Calories Total. This Is A Rough Day.

Update, it’s 4PM and I ate a little over 1K calories total. This is a rough day.

But its okay. I’m even more determined not to mess up again because I could physically SEE the loss of progress in my body so…

I’ll do better.

B1nging in the morning is the most shameful kind wtf is wrong with me

(578 calories already. It’s 9 AM.)

Having an €D and being an average weight is lame.

Binged! (Fellas is an apple, 3/4 a cup of nonfat yogurt and 5 mini wheat biscuits a binge?)

Total cals for the whole day is 606 but that feels high💀

That’s it. I binged three times this week I need to shapen the fuck up or I’m unaliving myself.

Sometimes I feel like a poser.

I made myself a meal plan averaging 300-400 calories a day. That’s not starving. Thats not ana. That’s not going to make me skinny.

But these plans help me. I feel fake. I feel like I’m pretending.

Watching my dad eat kills my appetite why’s he gross w it😭