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I broke down today really bad.
I've been so stressed out, and I took a plan B which made me feel bad about myself. I always wanted to be a pure virgin, but now i have a boyfriend and Im not going to not, because thats unfair to him. So, I ate like 2k calories, and I usually eat >500. I'm still 140 and its making me want to rip all my hair out. I workout for about 45 minutes a day, which as much time I can carve out. I love looking nice, so my makeup, hair, and outfit is always as perfect as I can get it. So, working out and getting nasty doesn't sound very appealing to me. I literally haven't eaten more than diet coke, and maybe 6 doritios in the past eight days and nothing is happening.
What else should I do to lose weight?
and how do I stop myself from binging?
felt skinny even though i’m gaining weight 🙁
guess who’s back and posting again!! 😋
tw! ed
i’m grounded so i cant see my friends for a month and honestly the only thing i can think about is relapsing.. i’ve been in a recovery period but hhhhhhhhhh i’m so frustrated and i can’t even distract myself with people anymore :(
i miss sex lmao
the only downside to alcohol is the calories
this is just a bit of a dump on my life rn
i have a ball i’m attending tonight and i’m kinda nervous but at least my dress is cute!! plus the people i’m going with i’m not very close with so it’ll be pretty awkward aahhhhhh i mean at least ik i’ll look good but damn..
and this boy i like has been making me go absolutely insane, it’s like he wants me one minute and doesn’t the next and i’m literally ripping my hair out i’m so frustrated because i really want him but he just can’t go all in. he has reasons but i’m not settling for boys anymore, i want someone that needs me as much as i need them and tbh i feel like i deserve that much at least.
how long will it take me to find people that make me feel whole again, to find someone that loves me for all i am??
i’m sick of immature boys my age - i want an older guy.. 🙈
girlhood is becoming a professional bed rotter
just another one to me
i cant help but think i’m the problem? am i not pretty enough, skinny enough, funny enough? i’m sick of loving, needing, yearning for boys who don’t even give me the time of day.
everything in me wants to feel like this pic
and lose 6 kilos.. 🤍
i know i’m young.. but age is just a number, right?🎀
the worst feeling is watching your collarbones and ribs slowly fade away even through the scale is finally going down??? tbh that’s all the motivation i need.
i’ve got an itch that only black hair can scratch.
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I have a love hate relationship with my arms and hands. I never feel like they are skinny enough. I had waaay better hands before “recovering” at the start of the year. (•᷄ࡇ•᷅)
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binged today because I'm going away for uni soon. Let's hope i can get back to eating less when I'm there. if you have any tips on how to not die ⭐ving in summers please tell me 🎀🌷
Day 1:
Height: 161 cm
HW: 109 kgs
LW: 57 kgs
GW 1: 77 kgs
GW 2: 66 kgs
GW 3: 55 kgs
UGW: 44 kgs
CW: 85 kgs
Day 2.
I'm 5 feet 3 inches tall.
I like my height.