So Um. That Elevator Ri

so um. that elevator ri❌️

me regretting the elev❌️

shit um... she regretting my v❌️

she r❌️❌️❌️❌️

OKAY GOD DAMN. TAKE YOUR FUCKING WALLTER I GUESS. FUCK. SEE IF I CARE. UGH.

Kinda feel like there's some untapped meme/reaction image potential from old horror movie trailers...

I hate when DID is horrible and awful but also funny but you cant talk about it being awful because then you're attention seeking and you cant talk about the good times because then you're romanticizing a disorder and if you talk about it at all you're faking and AHHHHHHHHH

ARE WE ALLOWED TO JUST BE A PERSON ON THE INTERNET COPING FOR FUCKS SAKE

FOUND YOU :3

OH NO!!! IVE BEEN FOUND!!!!

Perhaps it is the fact it is currently nearing 2:30 in the morning, because I do not speak often, but I have been reminded of things from this post.

Closer to when I first formed, in an attempt to get closer to us, a system we had recently met threw a headmate sharing my source into front. I have a... relatively obscure source, I believe, so that alone was a surprise. My relationship with my source is complicated, especially with the person they were sourced from (apologies if that is incorrect wording, I hope you understand what I am getting at). My memories, while similar to my source, differ greatly from it. I acted civil and friendly, but in a moment where I was meant to be our protector, I faltered in the face of this.

They called me a pet name without asking, and I felt my stomach churn. I could not keep myself speaking or in front for very long afterwards, and I had to return later to eventually cut that person off; what I had intended to do when I first spoke to them.

I have had a handful of people treat me strangely since then. I have been infantilized, I have had my identity invalidated in favor of headcanons. Fronting in front of people we do not trust has become near impossible for me unless I have a task in mind.

Please, be normal about fictives. We are not puppets for your headcanons. We are not fictional.

We are just as much people as you are.

we have a ___ fictive in our system

‘OMG LET ME MEET THEM THEYRE MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER’

our headmate is not a character, the alters in our system are very much real people who mostly don’t associate themselves with their sources.

don’t be weird towards fictives just because you like their source it’s really uncomfortable