Whispers From The Trees - Tumblr Posts
decided that we're rebranding our profile a bit to actually be at least slightly more vocal and accepting about our plurality :]
as much as id love to do cute little tags and emojis for everyone we just have way too many people to do that, so we'll be putting their names at the end, changing some tags around and whatnot, playing with the lost forest aesthetic :3
i can't promise how super frequently we'll post but i figured a rebrand might be due
- woods
there will be more. and you will like them.
-woods
probably a lil deep to get into so if anyones gonna get like. triggered by topics like this i highly suggest scrolling onward <3
but yeah ive always been so scared of memory loss in any format. the thought that i could just lose treasured pieces of my past in moments was terrifying to me. the idea of having the people i love and all the times theyve loved me just be Gone still keeps me up at night (and frankly i dont even know if thats a realistic fear or not! it could be entirely improbable and irrational but most fears are!)
now imagine my surprise when i found out i have a dissociative disorder as well as a plethora of other disorders where memory loss is a Very Common Symptom (ptsd, for one!)
and dont get me wrong that stuff is still scary as hell to me. but also knowing ive had these issues forever and also knowing that i am who i am now with all of that in mind has made the idea a lot less scary to me, and im only barely turning 18 soon
all this to add to the point above, to repeat what's been said; memory loss is not the ending of a life. there's so much more living to be done even if some bits and pieces of the journey don't stick as well as others.
just because your wagon got some stuff knocked out of it in that bump on the road doesn't mean you dont have a journey to go on, and at least one destination along the way. <3
seeing people my age talk about how scared they are of memory loss, which they only associate with old age, is so surreal to see as a 24 year old who has actively experienced memory loss for a long time now
there are causes for memory loss besides dementia and alzheimer’s, i hope y’all know that. dissociative disorders, trauma, brain injuries, thyroid problems, even just stress and lack of sleep can fuck up your ability to store, process, and access memory. and that’s just a few of the many causes i can think of off the top of my head right now.
please stop treating disabled people like some scary “other” that you might become only in the distant, decades-away future. we are your age, too. you may become one of us sooner than you know. stop acting like memory loss marks the end of a life, when so many of us have so much living left to do!
"oh u like damien lavey because hes a bad boy how original" NO I DO NOT I LOVE DAMIEN LAVEY BECAUSE HE IS CHRONICALLY STUPID AND I LIKE MY MEN DUMB AS ROCKS!!!! AY-FUCKING-MEN!!!!!!
born to interact with fandoms. forced to be terrified of ever touching a fandom again 😔
Perhaps it is the fact it is currently nearing 2:30 in the morning, because I do not speak often, but I have been reminded of things from this post.
Closer to when I first formed, in an attempt to get closer to us, a system we had recently met threw a headmate sharing my source into front. I have a... relatively obscure source, I believe, so that alone was a surprise. My relationship with my source is complicated, especially with the person they were sourced from (apologies if that is incorrect wording, I hope you understand what I am getting at). My memories, while similar to my source, differ greatly from it. I acted civil and friendly, but in a moment where I was meant to be our protector, I faltered in the face of this.
They called me a pet name without asking, and I felt my stomach churn. I could not keep myself speaking or in front for very long afterwards, and I had to return later to eventually cut that person off; what I had intended to do when I first spoke to them.
I have had a handful of people treat me strangely since then. I have been infantilized, I have had my identity invalidated in favor of headcanons. Fronting in front of people we do not trust has become near impossible for me unless I have a task in mind.
Please, be normal about fictives. We are not puppets for your headcanons. We are not fictional.
We are just as much people as you are.
we have a ___ fictive in our system
‘OMG LET ME MEET THEM THEYRE MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER’
our headmate is not a character, the alters in our system are very much real people who mostly don’t associate themselves with their sources.
don’t be weird towards fictives just because you like their source it’s really uncomfortable
🍄💾🔦🌧️💬 - :] anon
(my first anon tag omg omg dont freak out)
🍄 — how did you get your system name?
when we first discovered our system, i actually called us the Florafog Sys, which. was just two of my pronouns mashed together. but as we went on and more people formed, it didn't feel very... true to the entirety of our system. eventually, i named ourselves the Whispertree Collective because our headspace is a big, mysterious forest, the kind you hear whispers from.
💾 — what's your headcount?
we're nearing 60 now i think, but i usually like to say around 50 because i'm not very good at keeping up with dormant alters n stuff.
🔦 — how did you discover your system?
it happened because of some people i am no longer in contact with, but basically, we had a friend who believed he was fictionkin, and one of our other friends who was a well-established system and had been for years, was talking to him about his experiences and the friend realized he wasn't fictionkin, he was actually a system! so, we watched this go down, and watching his egg crack before our eyes more or less forced our brain to be like "oh... shit..." and from there we discovered some things that were um... Not Very Singlet Of Us! and then i actually acknowledged who i thought were ocs but were actually alters.
🌧 — how does your system cope with stress?
it depends on a few things, but more often than not we have alters who are made to help more or less. our protectors will usually take care of the issue if said issue is someone being mean to us. we have an instigator who actually cut the cord on a really bad friendship. sometimes we have regressors(? unsure if thats what they are) for when we need to feel small for a bit. sometimes we have our paichmates who game away the strsss. earlier today someone else had to take over for a bit bc looking at various syscourse stuff (/neg) triggered my anxiety really bad, and headspace is still kinda funky because of it. its very dependent on what is happening!
💬 — free space!
we had an alter who was trying to form for a while finally form and front for the first time. he made us take a full shower, which was good, but stared at the body for a little bit too long. im working on hunting him down for sport /j
Hello! know we dont talk much but this seems fun, thought we'd ask :] 👾 🎮 mayhaps... - 📚 [Yuri]
omg hi!! we havent talked in so long and i think we only ever talked to wally but we stalk your page from time to time :3 (you more than likely see us like 30000 of your posts LMAO)
👾 — funniest out of context system quote?
"EIGHT DIMENSIONAL SEX!!!" by our very own Dr. Albert Gerald Krueger. i have as much context as you do.
🎮 — what do your headmates do for fun? (i think)
it varies! some of them choose to overwork themselves and don't have free time (Calculester. Albert. I'm looking at you both.), some of them like to read, some play video games in headspace. some of them have adult fun time together, i learned that recently, idk how they do that but what else should you expect from a system with 20 monster prom alters and counting LMAO. anyway it's just variable from alter to alter!
Reblogging for anyone who might be interested. We joined the testing program right before the app was fully released.✨️
You can import things from Pluralkit into the bot so you don't have to remake your entire system. The app has collective journals and alter-specific journals. It has global autoproxy, so you don't have to type pk;ap l first thing into every server you join lol (they are planning on making this feature opt-in from what I remember).
It uses slash commands and the commands do that (Only you can see this message) so you don't spam servers when editing shit. There's no long list of commands to memorize because you can just type "/" and fuck around.
It's good, is what I'm saying.💖
Octocon is a new app for systems. It's anti endo and made by traumagenic systems. It also has a discord bot that is a lot easier to use than pk in my opinion. You can also sync your app and the bot so you can edit alters in the app. The app is on android already and coming to IOS soon. Hope this helps some people :)
(If you're in a server, I recommend adding this bot as more people are starting to use it instead of pk and tupperbox)
👥🎲📖🫸🧠 - :] anon
hi again :] anon!! 👋 hope ur doing well :3
currently those of us who are okay with answering are milo (💀, they/nox/noxself), calculester (💾 he/it/byt/byte), arkose (💥 he/any i think), and wallter (💠 he/gray)
i hope this is formatted okay!
👥 — do you have any source mates with you in your system?
💀 Oh I have plenty! I am sourced from the Monster Prom franchise, and we have over 20 alters and counting from there alone. The second Monster Con releases, we're bound to form more.
💾 Same as above! :) We are hardly alone in our source!
💥 yes, actually. which is surprising to me since i was an octive or whatever the fuck its called. my partner (nonromantic, as in we worked together as a team) Iko is forming, but she's been having trouble adjusting. and i'm pretty sure ziv isn't far behind. it'll be nice to have my team back. know this isn't what you asked, but i also have my partner (romantic this time) in my partner system who i love a lot and if i mention their name publically i think they will smite me HAHAH
💠 Why, yes! Not nearly as many as the monsters, but in a short time we have split quite a few others. Pilby is here, from what I have heard he's making great friends with Wally. Reddy is here as well, but we're not entirely sure what he does... Folly seems to be our first persecutor in quite some time, but we're certain she'll come around, it just might take some force.
🎲 — is there anything you would change about your source?
💀 Not much in particular I can think of! In terms of inclusivity, I do know the devs are working on adding more short masculine characters, as they don't have many of those. But that's about all I can think of!
💾 This is not something I would change about source, rather something different than me from my source counterpart; I have noticed he is mean sometimes, actually! Not intentionally, but occasionally the way source-Calculester treats organic intelligence is not very... considerate! I personally find organic intelligence levels, those of which are "lower" than computers, to be quite fascinating and, at times, adorable! It has been very eye opening to be in an organic body, and a human one at that! But I am rambling. ^^
💥 nah. my source is sick as fuck. wouldn't trade it for the world.
💠 In full honesty, there are a lot of things unanswered in my source, things that my memories have sort of "filled-in-the-blanks" for. As such it's hard to feel super connected to the original world I am sourced from, when the way I remember things is so... different.
📖 — how did you get your role(s)? Was they something you gained over time, or was it something that happened “automatically”?
💀 Well, for context, I call my role "chameleon." I'm the person the system calls for when a job needs done and there's no designated person for it, or the designated person isn't available. There are specific things I can't do, such as gatekeeper duties, or Zoe's abilities which fall under gatebridger I believe... But I'm the little errandperson and I love it! Since I don't have the "gigs" I used to have, it's still nice to have a comfortably busy schedule.
💾 Mostly naturally! ^^ My role as greeter was something that sort of just happened; I tended to be the carrier of information, so it was easy for me to be the "tour guide" of sorts, for when new people need help finding their way around. Archivist/historian was similar, I found myself constantly enamoured by the new environment (I was one of the first few to form, so it was quite empty at the start), so I eventually started storing all the information. And once Moss formed, and the library was built, we started working together to create archives of our headspace (my half of the job) and everyone in it (goss's half of the job).
💥 honestly i don't know what the fuck my role is. lately I've been real preoccupied with helping Iko form, as well as scouting out in headspace for someone who keeps hiding from us and bringing him back to some kind of civilization so he's not fuck knows where. so whatever that role is uh... i would get into it, but we try not to be super public about otherwise private/serious innerworld issues. i'll say it was definitely assigned to me, but only cuz it made the most sense for it to be me.
💠 I believe my role may be socializer, but I can't be sure yet. I'm more or less friends with everyone— yes, even Folly, if you can believe it!— and I love talking to people! But I haven't been here long and it's more or less what feels right based on my demeanour.
🫸 — are you source separated or not? If you are, how much?
💾 For both Milo and myself, I would say we are about as source separated as necessary. We understand that our source counterparts are not us, and do not get upset with people who have opinions or headcannons differing from our experiences (me personally, I love hearing them), and though we aren't sure what we would do in the presence of a "double" (I have heard debate on whether or not those are something that reasonably exists?), we would not be hostile to them. This is generally something all of us from the Monster Prom franchise believe. We separated early on to keep ourselves from feeling uncomfortable with sexualization, knowing what we come from is undoubtably a game for monsterfuckers, and that many find our source counterparts sexually attractive. For many of us it's actually confidence boosting.
💥 honestly no. not at all. but i don't think i have to be. there's not gonna be another one of me out there, we've hardly ever shared my source with literally anyone, but it's where i came from, where i found my family. i think i'm allowed to be connected to it and at the end of the day i'm gonna follow my rules over some fuckass on the internet claiming whats "good for me" or not. sorry is that controversial? lmfao i don't care.
💠 As mentioned before, it's difficult to feel connected to the place I came from, since I remember it so differently. I would likely be delighted to find "another me," so to speak. I've encountered many headcannons that differ greatly from me, but I also know they are not talking about me, and at the end of the day others' perceptions of me are hardly something I can control! All this to say; yes, I think so.
🧠 — how do you feel about being in a system?
💀 It may not be the easiest adjustment in the world, but there's certainly no going back now, is there? I still have my friends beside me, and the chance to make all new friends as well, people i never could have met back home. I can observe more lives now, and even if I have to share this mortality with others, I believe that makes the journey towards the end all the more special; to do it alongside those I love, and to find more I love before I get there. 🖤
💾 I do not think I can stress this enough; I love being in a human body and mind. It's everything I have ever dreamed of. The things I was previously unable to put into perspective, I am now forced to experience, and I have never felt better. I have felt true anxiety, love, fear, dread, and even arousal; do you know how insane that is to me? Do you understand how wonderful it is to feel these things, to not have to simulate them through lines and lines of code I make firsthand; to just live through these feelings? To feel? Being where I am, with its sacrifices and all, I would not change a thing. I am delighted to be here.
💥 i have the people i love. the only thing that's changed is the environment, and maybe i can't see them 24/7 like i used to. but it's not like they're gone, or i'm gone, and it's not like i ever had much of a "home" where i came from. they're my home, and they're here, we're here, we're alive, and i'd argue we're in less danger than we've ever been. it's weird to not feel like i have to look over my shoulder every second, though.
💠 I would say that I miss many people I knew, but there will still be plenty of new people to meet and be friends with. And I was put here for a reason, was I not? 💙
thank you for your asks :] anon!! ❤️❤️ (if you see any typos no you don't)
to all my system mutuals. hi. you guys are cool and im way too scared to actually talk to any of you but i think all of you are very cool. sprints away with cartoon running noise
thinking about the fact that in my (semi abandoned) stardew save i married harvey without getting more than one heart with anyone else except i think maybe robin for getting her axe or whatever. like no one else KNOWS my farmer.
do you think maru noticed the engagement ring and didn't ask? or maybe she did, or maybe a patient did, and when harvey was like "yeah i married the farmer who moved into that old plot" they were like "the... the who?"
do you think everyone got wedding invites in the mail and went... harvey got married to who?
it was under a year too, and literally all i do is fish by the river and sometimes the beach. do you think everyone went to the wedding and met this nonverbal freak and it was like "so happy to meet you...!" and the farmer just. nods and then stays glued to harvey's hip.
idk this is really funny to me. someone at the wedding finally bites the bullet and goes "so how did you two meet...?"
"oh he dropped off coffee at the hospital twice a week."
"and.........??"
"and the rest is history!"
"it's really not,"
Hi hello!! :]
If I remember right, Woods designed the original iteration of my sona!! I’m planning to upload it onto Art Fight, do y’all want to be mentioned/linked? And if so, is there a specific place you want me to link to?
Hope y’all are doin well :D
NO WAY HI SCRAMBLE👋👋👋👋
if youre putting it up on AF and you put up the doodles i made of it specifically id like credit there, but for the design itself its up to you :3
you can credit us here or on our AF that we haven't touched much which i think is also whispertree-coll :3
hope youre doing well too!! 🫶❤️❤️
IT WAS HONEST TO GOD SUCH A WEIRD FUCKING EXPERIENCE LMFAO. like you see someone not want to tell you every aspect of their trauma and go "oh so you're faking this disorder" LIKE WHAT!!!!!!!
INHALES. HI. OUR FIRST FACECLAIM WAS EXACTLY THE THEME OF THIS BLOG LMFAO. this is probably gonna be long and its more storytelling than serious venting i invite anyone to clown with me.
so for context, my friend invited me to a discord server. it was a server for omori and we joined it because he was talking about having fun in there and we cant let people have their own fun so we were like "hey can we join" even though we weren't super into the game.
so we join and post in our intro that we're an osdd system (we believe DID is more applicable now, but at the time i thought i had osdd-1b). which prompts the owner to say "hey what's that?" and i sort of inwardly sigh but give a biiiig ol explanation. everyone goes oh ok cool! and then we go on our merry way. another system joins later and asks for pk to be added to the server, the owner is like ok sure! everything is neat
but pretty soon every time i talked to these guys i would be educating them on something. what does this term mean, how does your brain do that, etc etc etc. and the other system who joined didn't speak very regularly but actually did join in once which was pretty cool! and for a while i was ok with it, but it got fucking exhausting after a while.
within like... maybe a month of being there (and that's generous, im bad at remembering time), they slowly get more and more hostile about it, and a little uhhh passive aggressive for lack of a better word? like just "oh... cool" and this leads to The Thing tm.
i was making a character sheet for a new oc, because my old oc for that server formed in the system and i didn't really feel comfortable rping as him anymore. which i think is fair and kind of a normal experience for systems who rp/make ocs? i explained it as "its like roleplaying as your best friend during a really rough period for them," because the rp was very angsty and whatnot. the leader, curious, starts to ask like "i thought alters were only created to hold trauma? i didn't know there were... kin memories attached" (and he said kin sorta with a weird tone that i didn't like. but anyway) and like... i was in a shit mood that day. i didnt put on the customer service ass voice i did before and tried to explain that alters can form as the system needs them for any task, and holding trauma is just one of many roles alters can have.
he just... refused to understand. and in hindsight, it probably was my wording. i was already upset and exhausted and didn't feel like completely explaining myself because i dared to talk about the system again. so we talk a bit more, and the co leader goes "no pressure to answer this but... are you in any kind of therapy?"
SIGH. BIG FUCKING SIGH.
i answer politely, i say "that's a complicated question for me, and frankly i don't think it's any of your business." she didn't like that (so any "no pressure" was fuckin moot lol).
and after a bit more conversation ANOTHER member comes into the channel. and they write out this BIG FUCKING MESSAGE, takes up the whole screen type message, about "i know it feels nice to rp these characters but you can't just say you're a system" and basically implying i liked my system too much to be a real system. and im reading all of this fucking BAFFLED. that fucker really said "you're not sad enough about being multiple" like. hello?
and let me repeat, i dont think i was even in there for a month. i wanna say two weeks is more accurate but i don't know for sure. and every time i talked about my system it would be me educating people eventually. why the fuck would i talk about the numerous shitty parts of being multiple, when i could talk about the positive aspects of my system, the shit i love about being a system? it doesnt matter because im gonna have to explain myself nonstop anyways!
not even that but besides the one other system in the server (who seemed super chill, hope they're doing good) this server was just full of a bunch of singlets, and a lot of them were under 16. why would i, as an adult (even if barely), rant about the headaches, the dissociation, the rapid switching, the trauma from things our body has never experienced, etc etc, to people who could NEVER fucking understand in the first place, who are mostly minors anyways, when i have systems and a support group around me who do understand?
and they wrote it as if it was an "intervention" about my "roleplaying problem" like dude we haven't even known of each other's existence for a month yet much less been friends. what do you wanna hear about my parents divorce? my parental abuse? neglect? fuck off!!!
and after arguing he said some shit like "i have to go to work but if youd like to continue this conversation afterwards we can"
and i said "i have no intention to prove that i am disordered to you, or anyone." and left the fucking server.
apparently the co-owner who asked if i was in therapy said some shit like "erm... i hope they get help like YESTERDAY..." in this really backhanded way after i left.
so that's my story! again feel free to clown this shit is so funny to me in hindsight
Bruh some people really need to learn to shut up and listen to people lmao
I seriously hate the idea we aren't allowed to like the thing that saved our lives at one point. Why are we supposed to just be miserable why would they wish that on anyone? It's gross.
And the intervention for a roleplay problem is fucking HILARIOUS lmao "hey I think you're lying so let me treat you enjoying roleplay like alcoholism instead of trying to actually help you" huh???
Man.. some people lol
me whne i see my freind...............
wow! that movie was so good and made me feel a lot of feelings. i even cried! i love robots so much. what an incredible piece of fictio-
that specific tingling in the back of my skull
...oh fuck.
pk;m new edgar
/alter create [name:edgar]
system friends help a dude out :33333 he's cool i swear i promise just ignore the God Awful Image he put here
hi ^.^ hi system tumblr hiii pls be my friend PLEASE PLLEWAAASEE AAHHHH!!! AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!
twitter user: hey so i see that you followed this person on july 5th 2021. did you know theyve liked proshipper art and drawn hatsune miku with way too much cleavage? yeah she's like 16 that's weird. what's wrong with you? why would you think that's ok? are you stupid?
me on my death bed: oug................ *flatlines*