Twitter User: Hey So I See That You Followed This Person On July 5th 2021. Did You Know Theyve Liked

twitter user: hey so i see that you followed this person on july 5th 2021. did you know theyve liked proshipper art and drawn hatsune miku with way too much cleavage? yeah she's like 16 that's weird. what's wrong with you? why would you think that's ok? are you stupid?

me on my death bed: oug................ *flatlines*

what is it like having a partner system ?? how did you connect in that way ? [we saw you mention having one we believe sorry if wrong/invasive . ] - :] anon

🦢 Hello, :] anon. We do not think it's invasive, don't worry.

Our partner system is @cassettecoll , and we have known them for about four or five years now, if my math is correct. They were the main person who helped us discover our system and communicate with each other better.

For us, the term partner system is inclusive of the feelings that are similar between all of us, but shift in exact definitions. We, collectively, love their collective. The form that love takes can change, though; For example, while I am romantically committed to Aerwyn, Elwood sees them as a paternal figure.

🌰 (god damn you talk so formally anyway thats my momma :3)

🦢 The point is, while those exact definitions may change, we all love them, and the word "partner" encompasses all of that to us. We are partners in all aspects.

Similarly, we have a sibling system, @thefishbowlcollective . This term is more specific, but we collectively view them as family of some kind. We met them about three years ago if I had to estimate, and love them dearly as well.

Occasionally we will sort of "claim" time to spend with our partners in the Cassettes, or they will request time with us. A few of us have been struggling with sharing time, but we are getting used to it steadily.

🌰 as for the connection itself, it's kind of hard to say? it's been so long that we've known each other, before we even had the words for having a partner system, that it feels like they've always been here. ive said this before but i don't know what i'd do or where i'd be if they weren't here, and i don't want to find out.

sorry for the sap but we are the trees aren't we? :3

IT WAS HONEST TO GOD SUCH A WEIRD FUCKING EXPERIENCE LMFAO. like you see someone not want to tell you every aspect of their trauma and go "oh so you're faking this disorder" LIKE WHAT!!!!!!!

INHALES. HI. OUR FIRST FACECLAIM WAS EXACTLY THE THEME OF THIS BLOG LMFAO. this is probably gonna be long and its more storytelling than serious venting i invite anyone to clown with me.

so for context, my friend invited me to a discord server. it was a server for omori and we joined it because he was talking about having fun in there and we cant let people have their own fun so we were like "hey can we join" even though we weren't super into the game.

so we join and post in our intro that we're an osdd system (we believe DID is more applicable now, but at the time i thought i had osdd-1b). which prompts the owner to say "hey what's that?" and i sort of inwardly sigh but give a biiiig ol explanation. everyone goes oh ok cool! and then we go on our merry way. another system joins later and asks for pk to be added to the server, the owner is like ok sure! everything is neat

but pretty soon every time i talked to these guys i would be educating them on something. what does this term mean, how does your brain do that, etc etc etc. and the other system who joined didn't speak very regularly but actually did join in once which was pretty cool! and for a while i was ok with it, but it got fucking exhausting after a while.

within like... maybe a month of being there (and that's generous, im bad at remembering time), they slowly get more and more hostile about it, and a little uhhh passive aggressive for lack of a better word? like just "oh... cool" and this leads to The Thing tm.

i was making a character sheet for a new oc, because my old oc for that server formed in the system and i didn't really feel comfortable rping as him anymore. which i think is fair and kind of a normal experience for systems who rp/make ocs? i explained it as "its like roleplaying as your best friend during a really rough period for them," because the rp was very angsty and whatnot. the leader, curious, starts to ask like "i thought alters were only created to hold trauma? i didn't know there were... kin memories attached" (and he said kin sorta with a weird tone that i didn't like. but anyway) and like... i was in a shit mood that day. i didnt put on the customer service ass voice i did before and tried to explain that alters can form as the system needs them for any task, and holding trauma is just one of many roles alters can have.

he just... refused to understand. and in hindsight, it probably was my wording. i was already upset and exhausted and didn't feel like completely explaining myself because i dared to talk about the system again. so we talk a bit more, and the co leader goes "no pressure to answer this but... are you in any kind of therapy?"

SIGH. BIG FUCKING SIGH.

i answer politely, i say "that's a complicated question for me, and frankly i don't think it's any of your business." she didn't like that (so any "no pressure" was fuckin moot lol).

and after a bit more conversation ANOTHER member comes into the channel. and they write out this BIG FUCKING MESSAGE, takes up the whole screen type message, about "i know it feels nice to rp these characters but you can't just say you're a system" and basically implying i liked my system too much to be a real system. and im reading all of this fucking BAFFLED. that fucker really said "you're not sad enough about being multiple" like. hello?

and let me repeat, i dont think i was even in there for a month. i wanna say two weeks is more accurate but i don't know for sure. and every time i talked about my system it would be me educating people eventually. why the fuck would i talk about the numerous shitty parts of being multiple, when i could talk about the positive aspects of my system, the shit i love about being a system? it doesnt matter because im gonna have to explain myself nonstop anyways!

not even that but besides the one other system in the server (who seemed super chill, hope they're doing good) this server was just full of a bunch of singlets, and a lot of them were under 16. why would i, as an adult (even if barely), rant about the headaches, the dissociation, the rapid switching, the trauma from things our body has never experienced, etc etc, to people who could NEVER fucking understand in the first place, who are mostly minors anyways, when i have systems and a support group around me who do understand?

and they wrote it as if it was an "intervention" about my "roleplaying problem" like dude we haven't even known of each other's existence for a month yet much less been friends. what do you wanna hear about my parents divorce? my parental abuse? neglect? fuck off!!!

and after arguing he said some shit like "i have to go to work but if youd like to continue this conversation afterwards we can"

and i said "i have no intention to prove that i am disordered to you, or anyone." and left the fucking server.

apparently the co-owner who asked if i was in therapy said some shit like "erm... i hope they get help like YESTERDAY..." in this really backhanded way after i left.

so that's my story! again feel free to clown this shit is so funny to me in hindsight

Bruh some people really need to learn to shut up and listen to people lmao

I seriously hate the idea we aren't allowed to like the thing that saved our lives at one point. Why are we supposed to just be miserable why would they wish that on anyone? It's gross.

And the intervention for a roleplay problem is fucking HILARIOUS lmao "hey I think you're lying so let me treat you enjoying roleplay like alcoholism instead of trying to actually help you" huh???

Man.. some people lol

i don't know who needs to hear this (its me) but. to any of you creatives out there with brain stuff that makes it hard to finish things.

make the thing anyway.

you don't have to create to finish projects. you do not have to start things to finish them. do the projects because they're fun, not because you need to complete something.

it's okay to have six thousand unfinished things. its okay to abandon projects if they're just for fun.

do it for fun first, and for completion's sake second.

me whne i see my freind...............

[Text: This alter LOVES talking about their system. Please ask questions about them!]

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