Wow! That Movie Was So Good And Made Me Feel A Lot Of Feelings. I Even Cried! I Love Robots So Much.

wow! that movie was so good and made me feel a lot of feelings. i even cried! i love robots so much. what an incredible piece of fictio-

that specific tingling in the back of my skull

...oh fuck.

pk;m new edgar

/alter create [name:edgar]

[Text: This alter LOVES talking about their system. Please ask questions about them!]

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IT WAS HONEST TO GOD SUCH A WEIRD FUCKING EXPERIENCE LMFAO. like you see someone not want to tell you every aspect of their trauma and go "oh so you're faking this disorder" LIKE WHAT!!!!!!!

INHALES. HI. OUR FIRST FACECLAIM WAS EXACTLY THE THEME OF THIS BLOG LMFAO. this is probably gonna be long and its more storytelling than serious venting i invite anyone to clown with me.

so for context, my friend invited me to a discord server. it was a server for omori and we joined it because he was talking about having fun in there and we cant let people have their own fun so we were like "hey can we join" even though we weren't super into the game.

so we join and post in our intro that we're an osdd system (we believe DID is more applicable now, but at the time i thought i had osdd-1b). which prompts the owner to say "hey what's that?" and i sort of inwardly sigh but give a biiiig ol explanation. everyone goes oh ok cool! and then we go on our merry way. another system joins later and asks for pk to be added to the server, the owner is like ok sure! everything is neat

but pretty soon every time i talked to these guys i would be educating them on something. what does this term mean, how does your brain do that, etc etc etc. and the other system who joined didn't speak very regularly but actually did join in once which was pretty cool! and for a while i was ok with it, but it got fucking exhausting after a while.

within like... maybe a month of being there (and that's generous, im bad at remembering time), they slowly get more and more hostile about it, and a little uhhh passive aggressive for lack of a better word? like just "oh... cool" and this leads to The Thing tm.

i was making a character sheet for a new oc, because my old oc for that server formed in the system and i didn't really feel comfortable rping as him anymore. which i think is fair and kind of a normal experience for systems who rp/make ocs? i explained it as "its like roleplaying as your best friend during a really rough period for them," because the rp was very angsty and whatnot. the leader, curious, starts to ask like "i thought alters were only created to hold trauma? i didn't know there were... kin memories attached" (and he said kin sorta with a weird tone that i didn't like. but anyway) and like... i was in a shit mood that day. i didnt put on the customer service ass voice i did before and tried to explain that alters can form as the system needs them for any task, and holding trauma is just one of many roles alters can have.

he just... refused to understand. and in hindsight, it probably was my wording. i was already upset and exhausted and didn't feel like completely explaining myself because i dared to talk about the system again. so we talk a bit more, and the co leader goes "no pressure to answer this but... are you in any kind of therapy?"

SIGH. BIG FUCKING SIGH.

i answer politely, i say "that's a complicated question for me, and frankly i don't think it's any of your business." she didn't like that (so any "no pressure" was fuckin moot lol).

and after a bit more conversation ANOTHER member comes into the channel. and they write out this BIG FUCKING MESSAGE, takes up the whole screen type message, about "i know it feels nice to rp these characters but you can't just say you're a system" and basically implying i liked my system too much to be a real system. and im reading all of this fucking BAFFLED. that fucker really said "you're not sad enough about being multiple" like. hello?

and let me repeat, i dont think i was even in there for a month. i wanna say two weeks is more accurate but i don't know for sure. and every time i talked about my system it would be me educating people eventually. why the fuck would i talk about the numerous shitty parts of being multiple, when i could talk about the positive aspects of my system, the shit i love about being a system? it doesnt matter because im gonna have to explain myself nonstop anyways!

not even that but besides the one other system in the server (who seemed super chill, hope they're doing good) this server was just full of a bunch of singlets, and a lot of them were under 16. why would i, as an adult (even if barely), rant about the headaches, the dissociation, the rapid switching, the trauma from things our body has never experienced, etc etc, to people who could NEVER fucking understand in the first place, who are mostly minors anyways, when i have systems and a support group around me who do understand?

and they wrote it as if it was an "intervention" about my "roleplaying problem" like dude we haven't even known of each other's existence for a month yet much less been friends. what do you wanna hear about my parents divorce? my parental abuse? neglect? fuck off!!!

and after arguing he said some shit like "i have to go to work but if youd like to continue this conversation afterwards we can"

and i said "i have no intention to prove that i am disordered to you, or anyone." and left the fucking server.

apparently the co-owner who asked if i was in therapy said some shit like "erm... i hope they get help like YESTERDAY..." in this really backhanded way after i left.

so that's my story! again feel free to clown this shit is so funny to me in hindsight

Bruh some people really need to learn to shut up and listen to people lmao

I seriously hate the idea we aren't allowed to like the thing that saved our lives at one point. Why are we supposed to just be miserable why would they wish that on anyone? It's gross.

And the intervention for a roleplay problem is fucking HILARIOUS lmao "hey I think you're lying so let me treat you enjoying roleplay like alcoholism instead of trying to actually help you" huh???

Man.. some people lol

Hi hello!! :]

If I remember right, Woods designed the original iteration of my sona!! I’m planning to upload it onto Art Fight, do y’all want to be mentioned/linked? And if so, is there a specific place you want me to link to?

Hope y’all are doin well :D

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if youre putting it up on AF and you put up the doodles i made of it specifically id like credit there, but for the design itself its up to you :3

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