I Resist Crying Before Anyone, Not Because I Fear It Shows Them My Vulnerable Side And That They'd Manage

I resist crying before anyone, not because I fear it shows them my vulnerable side and that they'd manage to develop a hold on me. But because crying my heart out, will depict me, in my rawest form. The form that my mother witnessed when I was a kid, and turned to her to complain of the world. The form that my father witnessed when he disciplined me after I rebelled. It was a luxury I gave them- a right over me. They deserved to see me that way, and never once have I regretted crying before them, even if it was for the dumbest reason ever! Do we find such energy in people now? To love our rawest form, and never contemplate over the rationality of our actions?

There is so much beautiful with the people who maintain an air of individuality, and appreciate each quality, awkwardness, frankness, silences and concerts, books and swords. I feel it is how natural unrefined people are- haphazard, random, unsorted, yet still fitting perfectly, a little in you, a little in me.

Nobody must have the power to cure us. I feel, it is making ourselves too vulnerable to expect healing from an entirely different person. It points to so much emotional instability. So much weakness on our part. I feel people are just there to tell us again and again that it will be okay. And to assure that once we heal ourselves, they will be still waiting by the other side of the horizon, waiting for us to catch up with them.

The introvert urge to have a soul person to share everything with, while knowing barely anyone out there deserves to know it all.

Be happy.

Or beautifully romanticize your melancholic attitude with words to help yourself cure, and look cool within a crowd.

Second that🙌🙌🙌

It sounds ironic, but the moment you stop filtering everything you say and do and stay true to yourself instead of trying to fit in and make people like you, you'll see such a shift in your social life. On the one hand you'll see who you clash with, and on the other hand you'll see that people are more likely to approach you because they see how genuine you are, which makes it easier for them to know if they want to be friends with you (or not). The scariest part of being who you are is finding out who won't like you for it, but the best part is finding genuine friendships with people who like you for you, and that's so worth it.