Hhehehhe Long Time No See-

hhehehhe long time no see-

...okay, I will not lie, I KIND OFFFF forgot about "Written in my pages". I haven't been writing ANYTHING lately, as depression is literally engulfing my every move and absorbing my will to live each day.

I've been trying to write but all that comes out is poetry bro wtf

anyway. I'll be back to writing my fic (and re-making a fic called A story never published. it's old and I hate how I wrote it--theres really shitty stereotypes in it, too.) whenever it is that depression loosens its hold on me.

love yourself and others. stay hydrated.

CHAPTER 14 IS HERE BABBBYYYY!!!

I'm so tired xd

But: chapter 14 is out!!

p.s, if you havent read the rest of the fic, it's: "Written in my pages, between each universe" by SingToMeSweetTemptation (also linked)

The official list of the AU ideas and official AU's of my fic!!

There's more to the list; but those chapters aren't posted yet so I won't spoil anything :3

Ft my ideas I didn't like, the ideas I did like (they're linked to the chapters; the stuff in blue) , and the chapters I skipped because I couldn't find out how to write them LMFAO

Also, I mightt start posting the old ideas I have stored deep in the depths of my google docs; I have no reason to gatekeep them + maybe I could inspire some people!!

Guess what. Chapter 15 is out!

yes i know i just wrote chapter 14, but chapter 15 was fun to write sooooo lol

It's a longer chapter (pretty sure it's around 10,000+ words???) so if you want to read something that's not short, bam.

Chapter 15 here. P.s, this chapter is in Dazai's POV and is a rockstar AU! (Also i introduced a important character that'll come back later in the story hehee)

If you haven't read the other chapters, it's called Written in my pages, between each universe by Singtomesweettemptation on A03 (also linked)

"Always?" (one shot)

I already posted this on A03, but I want to post it to Tumblr as well!

Content warnings: death/talk of death, character death

Summary: Dazai's stuck in a time loop, and chuuya promises him something probably impossible.

(link to A03 here)

Work below :D

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365 days in a year.

365 days that dazai has been stuck in this time loop of the world constantly dying on repeat. Everything happens the same, each day, each time.

And it's not fun. As much as dazai craves death—the feeling of killing himself impounded in his brain so much so that he might believe that one day this loop will stop—he actually fears it now.

Not just the feeling of death, impending doom, but of losing that one close friend he's seen in each loop, each day on repeat.

Dazai dosent think chuuya knows he's in a loop. Hell, maybe this is all some sort of fucked up simulation for dazais own personal torture.

"have you ever felt like we're stuck like this? In these bodies, someday to rot—or apparently boil, according to the meteor nearing earth." chuuya asks one loop in particular, giving dazai hope that maybe chuuyas in this with loop him.

"I've felt that countless of times in my life." Dazai would respond that one loop, looking up as the meteor catches fire, entering the earth's atmosphere.

"really? chuuya hums, sitting with dazai on the ledge of a building, watching the sky rain ash and become red from the heat.

"Yeah. Too many times." Dazai says, voice cracking as the meteor gets closer. He's He's sick of this loop. This loop of pain and never being able to see the real chuuya again. . .

"Chuuya?' Dazai asks, watching as chuuya leans closer to him; he didn't want to be alone.*

"Can you promise me that we'll meet in every world?" Dazai entangles his hand in chuuyas hair, knocking the redheads hat off, which flies into the gnarly winds.

"sure, mackerel. Promise."

The meteor finally greets the earth's surface, the boiling, scorching feeling dazai has felt too many times now—become familiar with it, almost—caressing he and chuuyas bodies as the world goes to flames.

A tear runs down chuuyas cheek silently and he turns to dazai more, nuzzling against him.

"see you in another life, 'samu." chuuya mumbles.

"See you, chuuya."

And everything goes dark, a searing dark that tears and bites at dazai and chuuyas skin. One dazai has felt too many times now.

Goodbye, world. See you in the next loop.

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Idk why, but i've always liked the idea of time loops / having to repeat your life- idk, it just entertains me that you'd have to see the same thing happening over and over until "the end"--if there is one, anyway.

Just a small update

Written in my pages IS still being worked on...however, I'd like to say that the chapter 14 is going to be a little delayed; I've been working my ass off on other projects (Art, mainly), and over all have other stuff to work on! But, just because i love you Tumblr users, You can have a small sneak glimpse at what chapter 14 is to come:

> Set in 'old-times' where ships sailed and fables soared like birds in the sky; shanties and songs of hostile people or of folklore making noise in the air along with seagulls and other birds. Fish fear man, but what fears man MORE is the monsters that lurk below, only wishing to be kept at peace as they lay deep below the surface....

Hehehe that's all your getting for hints...stay tuned!

For those who haven't read the previous chapters, check it out here!

P.S should i make my own tag for people to find my posts easier?